Reserved by the Big Bad Wolf.

Finding My Inner Witch

I woke up to Lisa shaking me gently and sing songing wakey wakey, eggs and bakey.

I peeked around for any signs of natural light. There was nothing.

"Lisa, what time is it?" I asked groggly and a bit confused that she of all people was awake early.

"Its 5am darling. Everyone starts things early here at the pack grounds and now even more so now that we have training doubles and have to start prepping. Come on, up now. Go get showered and ready so we can go have breakfast. You must be starving."

"I dont really feel hungry Lisa." I stated but started getting up. I know I have alot to get through today. My witch trainer will be here today and i have to learn what takes people 18 years in maybe 2 days if im lucky to have that amount of time. I was deep in thaught and on my way to the bathroom when Lisa broke my trail of thaught.

"Clarry, I know you dont feel hungry and that alot is going on right now that is not so cool, but you are going to need alot of inner stregth today. Using supernatural gifts takes more out of you than you can ever imagine. Trust me, you wont have to jog to keep fit anymore. "

"Really? Does it take like physical energy and not just mental energy?" I asked, now very interested in what today will bring me.

"Um, yeah,........ You ever see me run or gym? And look at these abs!"

Lisa was so full of herself but always managed to brighten my mood.

I had a quick shower and change and we headed down to breakfast. Evrything I added to my plate, peggy grabbed double and added extra to my plate." Im serious Clarry. You need to eat alot. Like, way more than your usual bird snacking."

I stared at my huge plate of food and felt full just looking at it. I ate most of what was in my plate, but simply couldnt finish it, feeling like my mid section was going to burst at the seems or someone would have to roll me out of the door.

We were heafing out the door when Alpha approached us.

"Good morning girls. Clarry, you will be in the back field today while the pack trains in the front. I dont want them knowing anything just yet. Lets go and meet Veronica. She is the witch that usually helps us with things like the cloaking spell to hide our village. In return we supply her with fresh produce and herbs from our farmlands. "

" So witches and werwolves are not enemies like they say in the stoty books?" I felt a bit stupid asking, but who knows what was truth from fiction anymore.

"Well that really depends on personal preference. Like in the human world, some people are racist and others not. It works the same in the supernatural world. Some of us get along, and others dont."

"Interesting." Atleast I know that our 2 worlds were relatively alike. Although I had hoped this one would be more peaceful.

We walked out the back door of the castle onto a huge field also surrounded by potplants with all different colour flowers. I loved the peace it radiated. Made a person feel calm and comfortable.

"Ah, there she is. Clarry, this is Veronica, and Veronica, this is Clarry. Thank you for agreeing to help us out on such short notice. It really is so wonderful to see you again." the alpha said. It would seem they have been friends for a very long time.

"Its my pleasure dear Alpha. You know I love a challenge...... Lovely to meet you Clarry. I cant wait to see what hidden talents you have kept buried for so long. This truly is very interesting. You must have the patience of a saint to have not senced atleast something. Usually our stronger emotions, such as anger unleash some sort of turmoil around us that give us a clue that we are of age to use magic. " Veronica was studying me like a book. Sweeping every inch of me with her eyes.

" I have never really gotten angry until yesterday. " I answered.

" And what happened then? "Veronica said with a smirk.

"Well, the building started shaking?" I answered.

"Thats not all," the Alpha interupted "she wasnt even using her full potential. I fear if we hadnt managed to calm her, she would have brought the whole place to the ground."

"That is interesting. So she is extremely powerful then? Well, lets see if we can get you controlling what emotions you wish to use and seeing what else you can do."

"I will see you girls later then." the Alpha said as he started walking back towards the door.

"lets go and sit in the middle of thee field and start with some meditation. I know it sound stupid, but clearing your mind or fovusing your mind helps to switch emotions on and off when you first start using magic" Veronica was practically dragging me to the middle of the field. I could feel her excitement pouring of her like a thick cloud of perfume. It was a wierd feeling. I had never felt anyones emotions before.

"Ok, lets start with thinking of a big open space and you are sitting in the middle of nowhere. There is nothing to see. Nothing to feel. Lets stay here for a while." Veronica instructed me during our meditation excersize.

I sat there in my empty white space, eyes closed thinking only of the nothingness surrounding me. It was really so relaxing. I felt my energy building up inside me. My entire being felt at absolute peace.

"Now, there is a pot plant at the far end of the nothingness to your left. Focus on that plant. Now think of something that makes you sad while you focus on that plant. I will give you a few moments."

I fovused on the plant and thauggt about Lisas poor mom who died trying to save me. I tgaught of how nobody stopped to mourn her. Nobody stopped to give her a thaught because of the next crisis tbat I am the cause of. Tears started building in my eyes.

As I stared at the plant it started wilting and dying. Shocked, I jumped up and covered my mouth, everything around me in full view again. But that one pot plant was dead. I looked at Veronica.

"Was that me? I-I didnt mean to. Did I do that?" I asked a bit panicked, thinking about if that was maybe a person and I hurt them, or worse!

"Calm down hun. I knew it would happen. And it only because you focused your energy on it and mixed it with an emotion. What happened to the plant mirrors exactly how you were feeling at that moment." she eye-balled me for a second before continuing. "what was it that made you feel like you were dying inside. Like your life was slowly wilting away.

"I was thinking how someone I loved died at my expense, and how many more will too." I sat looking at my hand while revisiting my thaughts on people dying for me. It hurt. It doesnt matter if I know them or not. People should not have to die for me.

"Clearly you have a very pure heart. That is actually a good thing. The amount of power you harbor can be extremely dangerous if in the hands of someone with bad intentions. Like in the hand of the black moon pack." she paused and continued "lets try focusing energy on something while not in a white space. Have a look at the pot plant to your right this time. Focus on which one you wish. Now think of thaughts that make you angry. Dont stop until its broken and the spell es complete, otherwise we may have a pretty painful shower. "

I chose a pot plant and once again focused on it until I was feeling completely energised. I then thaught of how I was promised to a man before I was even born. How all these people wanted to go to war. How Jason was willing to die before giving me up. How my life had been shattered and taken from me. How a man I had never met, wanted to take me and claim me as his own, all because my grandparents wanted to create a super being to rule the rest. The earth started to rumble and rocks shot above us in every direction, until finally they all shot towards the pot plant and it shattered along with another two on either side of it, leaving tiny, unrecognizable bits in its wake.

After watching the shattered object for a few moments, i turned my attention on Veronica. She was crouched in a ball on the floor looking really scared.

"Im so sorry, did I do it wrong? Ate you ok? Did I hurt you?" I couldnt understand why she was so scared.

"Shoot, I-I did not expect the extent of your power. Please make sure you only use anger in life or death situations and when there is nothing else in the close vicinity of your target that you do not wish to harm. The rocks did not even touch those other four pot plants. That was force alone. You need to be careful to control your temper. "

Wow. Ok. I did not expect that. I took another look at the distruction I had caused. Had that been people. It could have been bad. I was a bit scared of myself now.

" Never fear your power. I can make your target off and erratic. You need to trust yourself and focus on your target. Lets try something different. Lets try happiness. Just close your eyes and think happy thaughts."

I sat and thaught about my 'not a date ish thing' with Jason. The joy and excitement that I felt when I was with him was incomparable to any other emotion I have ever felt before. I opened my eyes and the scene before me was magical. The lawn was covered in tiny colorful flowers. The rays shining through the trees was illuminating the space where we sat. The scy had turned beautiful orange and pink and sported a bright rainbow. The distruction I had made before had disappeared and new potpants replaced them. The plant I had killed was standing strong and bright. The whole aura of the place felt like a fairytale.

"Wow. I've never seen anything like this before. And its stretched to miles away. This is definitely going to be on the news tomorrow. That must have been a magical, amazing moment in your life you were thinking of. I wish I had my camera." Veronica was turning in circles taking in the scenery and then turned to face me."You see, magic is not only distructive. It can be used for many things. The trick is being able to control your feelings and switch from one to another at will. But, you seem to be a natural. You got everything on your first try. Not everyone catches on so quick. I think we have done enough for today. Im very proud of how well you have done.

Now, I have some herbs to go and pick. Those are for pot spells. Completely different. But those are pretty much like cooking food. You follow a recipe. I will organise you your own spell book. Have a lovely day further. And keep thinking happy thaughts. I like their outcome. "She finished with a wink.

" Thank you for your help. I will definitely be thinking happy thaughts from now on." I smilled brightly." enjoy the rest of your day."

I headed back inside the house in search of food. I was absolutely starving. I now see what Lisa meant. I found the dining hall already full and Lisa calling me over. She had already dished a mountain on a plate for me.

"You know, I might actually eat all that today." I told her and we laughed.

"I told you so. Anyway, how did it go. Did you have something to do with the magical weather change and flowers everywhere.?"

"Um, yeah that was me. And all it took were happy thaughts." I said with a giggle.

"Well from now on I am personally going to make sure you are permanently on cloud 9 with happy thaughts." Lisa said with dreamy eyes and gave a giggle.

I loved that she was always so goofy. She definitely kept me grounded whenever I was struggling emotionally. I had a feeling I was going to need her around like forever from now on.

I wondered which part of me I would be focusing on tomorrow.