The Rebirth of the Shattered Queen

Breaking Down

(Aksana)

I pull up to the Royal gates and I saw Jeffrey, dad's friend. He smiles and the gates open. I gesture for him to hop in and he does.

"It's been a while, Aksana. You have grown" Jeffrey says.

"Yes, it's been a while. How are you? How is Dana and the twins?" I asked with a smile.

"Oh everyone is good. The twins are running around like crazy" he says and I laugh.

"You're going to be staying at the pack house. Is that okay?" Jeffrey asks.

"That's fine. This is a new beginning for me" I said and he nods.

"I'm really sorry for what happened" he said and I could hear the sincerity in his voice.

"Thank you" I said as I pulled up to the pack house.

"Wow, this is the pack house?" I asked. It was three- no scratch that it was four times bigger than the pack house at my old pack.

"It is. Come, I will show you to your room, but then I will have to go since I have border patrol" Jeffrey said feeling a bit guilty.

"It's okay. You have done more than enough and I thank you for helping with everything that you have" I tell him.

"It's the least I can do for my friend. You dad is like a brother to me. I feel bad that I haven't come by to see him, but with the twins, pack, and work, I have been busy" Jeffrey says.

"We understand, but it's okay. Dad, mom, and Alex will come by often now since I'm here and you guys can catch up", I said as I grab my stuff from the car. Jeffrey grabs some other stuff and helps me get it inside.

"How is Alex?" Jeffrey asks.

"Well, he's the Beta of the pack now, and he found his mate" I said, making Jeffrey smile.

"Oh, that's good. I'm happy for him, but to be honest, I thought your parents and Alex would have followed you here", Jeffrey said.

"Maybe in the future" I said, and he nodded. The moment Jeffrey shows me to my room, we put everything down and get the rest before Jeffrey leaves for border patrol. I put my stuff away while calling my parents and brother to let them know I had arrived and that I was fine. They told me that Cory knew about me leaving and the baby. But to be honest, I didn’t care about Cory or what he thought. Being away from him felt good. This was a new beginning for me, and I’m going to take full advantage of it. After I said bye to my parents and brother, I sat on my bed and everything that had happened to me with Cory hit me at once. Mating with my ex mate, his betrayal, the rejection, and the loss of my pup. Right then and there, I knew I couldn’t hold it back anymore, and I just cried. I heard my door open, but I couldn't stop crying. It's like my heart was crying with me.

“Don’t hold it in, Aksana. It’s better if you let it out”, I heard a gentle voice and I knew it had to be the former Queen Elena. Jeffrey said she was going to come by and see me, but I didn't know it was going to be this soon. I cried so hard that I didn’t hear our former Queen Elena walk into the room. She sat there with me running her fingers through my hair as I let it all out. I don’t know how long I cried for, but when I was done, I felt so much better. I felt lighter, but the pain was still there. It felt... fresh.

“Thank you, Queen Elena” I said softly.

“Oh honey, please call me Elena. I’m no longer Queen. I’m just helping out my son until he gets back, and you don’t have to thank me. That’s what we’re here for” she smiled and I nodded.

“I asked one of the Omegas to bring your dinner up to your room” she said. I went to deny it, but she quickly cut me off.

“I know you’re hurting, but you still need to eat. Jeffrey told me earlier this was a new start for you and with a new beginning you need to eat”, she said, and I chuckled. She knew how to get you in the right place.

'I like her' my wolf said.

'Me too', I agreed.

“Thank you” I said again and she nodded.

“Go ahead and shower. Your dinner should be here by the time you get out” she said.

“What time is training? I would like to train if it’s okay”, I said. I could see her sniffing the air. I knew she was trying to sniff out my wolf.

“You’re not going to get my wolf’s scent. I’ve never had one, but I assure you I have a wolf”, I assured her, shifting one of my hands to my claws. Her eyes widened before she looked at me.

“How come we won’t be able to smell your wolf?” she asked.

“I don’t know. My parents were trying to find answers, but they never found any”, I said with a shrug.

“Do you mind if my husband and I help? I can talk to him when he gets home” she said.

“Sure” I said and she smiled. After saying goodnight, she left the room and I went to the bathroom that’s attached to my room and took a nice long shower. As I washed myself, I felt like I was washing everything off of me. With every scrub, I washed away every single thing Cory did to me on my birthday and I no longer felt dirty. I only wished I could scrub away the pain.

‘I feel so much cleaner’ I hear moon say.

‘Welcome back’ I said.

‘Sorry I’ve been quiet. I’m just processing everything’ she said. Now I understand why she was so sad in the 'In Between'.

‘You don’t need to apologize, Moon. I figured as much. Do you feel better now?’ I asked her.

‘Yes. Could we eat on the balcony?’ she asked.

‘Sure’ I said before going to my room and getting dressed in my pajamas. Elena was right, dinner was in the room when I got out of the shower. I opened the door that led to the balcony and just sat on the floor while I ate. The cool breeze of the night felt calming and good against my skin. I could see Moon in my mind wagging her tail.

‘This feels good’ Moon said.

‘It does’ I admitted. I finished eating and put the tray back inside the room, then sat on the bed while facing the doors to the balcony. They were still open and the wind blew sending a cool breeze inside my room. I know I wanted what my parents had and now that my mate had rejected me, it's not possible, but now I can focus on becoming a warrior. I want to be one of the best and make my family proud.

‘I want to run’ Moon said.

‘Tomorrow. We just got here and don’t know the territory, plus Elena has to introduce us to the pack, so they know we mean no harm, at least until the King comes back and swears us in as pack members’, I told her. She huffed but didn’t argue. I closed the doors and went to bed.

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