Daring

Chapter 15

Harry's POV

I

Love

You

those three letter words that made my whole world pause for a moment. She loves me .. Its impossible . Isn't it to love someone in a short period of time. .. Do I love Savannah ? Is that what my feeling is towards her , What the f**k is love anyway, why is it so speciall? All it does is hurt people, and break hearts. I.. don't think I would want that . The only living person I ever loved in my entire life is my mother.

My mother..

She would be proud of me, yet I can hear her voice in my head yelling at me for all the other times I f****d and dumped a girl. But Savannah No, Savannah is special . My mother would agree as well, only wish that she was here to meet her, those two would have a ball together, talking about nothing but cooking shows, mum would ask Savy about her dance and when she started it. My mum was the only women I ever gave my love to, I just don't want her to think I'm leaving her, trading her. But I'm not.

My eyes focused on Savannah's, hers were soft with a slight gleam that made my heart pound, Her eyes began searching my face, looking for me or maybe my reaction. She was quiet and So was I. My eyes focused on Savannah,

My mind was racing , and began to speak not that f****d up subconscious but little me.

Mummy, .. what do I do ? I questioned.

Do I love her mum?

"Harry?" Savannah's voice rang in my ears, I shook my head of my thoughts.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have.." She whispered, looking down at her hands. No.. look at me, I thought instead of saying out loud.

"Savannah.." I whispered. Her face slowly looked up at mine, Hazel eyes locked on my green ones.

"I've .." I choked . "I've only loved one women in my life." Savannah's face went soft then her eyes landed on a picture of my mum on my dresser drawer. I nodded .

"She was the only women I gave my love to, only because she was my mum,-" I placed my hands on my face "No thats not why, I mean .. because-"

"Because she expected you for you, and loved you for who you are." Savannah interrupted me finishing my sentence. She was right, my mum only knew the real me.. then I became this monster and she still loved me .

"Savannah..I just.." I began finishing my thought. I couldn't ..say it back not now. Savannah shook her head, and closed her eyes. No.

"I.. im sorry I -" I said looking at Savannah, her eyes no longer on me . Please look at me Savy, Please .Suddenly my heart dropped to the ground when Savannah began to get off the bed, walking to her bag which was on the ground, she put on a pair af sweats . No, My subconscious began to tap his foot, Look what you have done Harry She's leaving .

"Savannah..what are you doing " I questioned. She didnt look at me, Grabbing her bag I immediately rushed towards her attempting to take the bag from her, but she jerked it away.

"Savannah ..Please.. no" I begged looking down at her, tears rolled down her cheeks.

"Im sorry Harry.. I made a mistake." She said, throwing the bag over her shoulder and walked over to the door, I quickly stepped in front of her .

"Harry please.." She begged, causing my heart to ache.

"Don't leave.. Just because I .." I stopped knowing if I kept going she would loose it more. "I cant ...loose you Savy." I said grabbing her face between my hands, forcing her eyes to look at mine .My heart is slowly beating, She is slipping away from me, and Im loosing grip.

"Savannah..Please.." I begged, this time tears rolled down my cheeks, She then got out of my grip

"Im.. Sorry." she whispered and walked down the hallway, then downstairs leaving me alone in my room.

"You Promised !!!" I yelled, falling down to the ground, shoving my face into my faces and crying into them, screaming and shouting.

"She.. promised.." I whispered, tugging at my curls. She was gone.. I felt my heart ache more.

I got up from my feet, looking out the window, I see her. I see Savannah's body walking into the cold night, I did everything in my power to run after her, but something told me she doesn't want me to.

"Please come back.."

.

My feet began to wander across the hall into my music room, The picture of my mum smiles at me.

"Don't look at me like that.." I said staring back at the frame, "She's gone.. mum. She left... " I touched the picture softly.

"She promised me.. " I cried. "Mum... I feel empty .." The picture kept its format, my mum showing her smile. I choked on my tears, letting go of the frame walking out of the room and downstairs, I quickly grabbed my bag off the hanger before retrieving my phone, dialling a familiar Number.

"Yeah...Give me a few minutes Ill do it, .No I will f*****g do it I'm on my way "

With that I opened the door leaving the now empty house.

I need to get away...