POINT OF NO RETURN

Chapter 34

When I left Philippines I had a broken heart needed to heal, now that I am back, I have an illness that can not be cured. I am fully aware of what is leukemia that's the reason why I didn't bother to go to hospital, doing chemotherapies and all. Because I know in the end, all of the efforts I will invest to that will be wasted.

I can feel myself shaking of nervous. Naramdaman ko ang paghinto ng sasakyan kaya naman ay napatingin ako sa labas at para akong tinanggalan ng hininga ng marealize kong nasa tapat na ako ng bahay namin. Napalunok pa ako ng maraming beses.

Julius held my hand and squeeze it as a comfort. Tumingin ako sa kanya at nakita ko ang lungkot sa mga mata nya at the same time happiness.

Bago pa man kami bumaba ay humarap ako sa kanya.

"Julius, thank you so much for everything. For the time and for taking care of me. Thank you for being there. I owe you a lot pero hindi ko na yun masusuklian. Thank you for your pure love and I'm sorry I can not give it back" hindi na nagpatalo ang mga luha ko at tuluyan na itong kumawala.

"Kate, you have nothing to thank. I am your friend and friends taking care for each other. Alam ko naman na kung nagkataon na ako ang nasa kalagayan mo ay aalagan at hindi mo rin ako tatalikuran"

I give him an assuring smile that I am happy, though I am nervous.

"It's time"

Tumango ako sa kanya, nauna syang lumabas para kuhanin ang wheelchair ko sa likod ng sasakyan nya. Habang naghihintay sa kanya ay pinagmasdan ko ang sarili ko sa salamin.