Running (baby daddy series #2) {COMPLETED}

| 5 | My babies

Damien POV

    It was an amazing feeling to hold my little girl in her minimal hand. She had far too small hands to hold it properly, instead she was content to hold my index finger. Every time I looked down at her, she smiled at me like I was holding the sun up in the sky.

Don't let me start talking about her mother. The beautiful and strong woman who at the moment was about to make a flower wreath to our little miracle. It's amazing how similar they are in both behavior and appearance. Fiona had a part of me anyway, like the nose.

    They were my girls, no questions asked. Unfortunately, I didn't have much time to look at my boys. It may seem to you like I don't care about the triplets, trust me when I say that I do. It's just that I had the knowledge about them before they were even born, but this little girl beside me, she was news.

    Besides, I can't show too much interest in the triplets either, it would create suspicion. Because she still doesn't know that the boys are as much mine as hers. I've been telling her for years that I have to tell her, and I will! If I just get my thumb out of my ass and stop being such a pussy...

    If she allows it, I'll ask her if I can borrow the boys someday for some 'man time'. It doesn't seem like she has a man in her life, and I know she wanted the boys to meet their dad. To have the male role model in their lives that all mothers desire for their children.

    Someday I'll make everything right. I have to make it right. Not only for the sake of the children, but also for her and my own. Right now, however, all my focus is on the little princess who dances around the meadow and shouts after her mother to do the same.

"Mommy! Come and dance with me, we can be princesses together!"

    She stands up laughing and puts on her flower wreath before she runs to Fiona. Fiona howls with laughter as Paulina tickles her and chases her in the sunshine. I laugh at myself and smile at the beauty I have in front of me. My girls hug each other, and the love in between is not to be missed.

    Fiona whispers something to her mother and points at me. Paulina looks at me and says something back. I cannot hear what because of the distance. But it seems that our daughter has something mischievous going on. Paulina nods and Fiona runs towards me with the brightest of smiles I've ever seen.

"Daddy!"

"Yes, precious?"

"You look lonely, come and dance with us!"

"Are you sure? I'm not sure mommy wants to dance with daddy."

"Yes, she does! She told me so."

"Did she now? Well how can I refuse these two beautiful ladies?" I ask and throw her over my shoulder.

    She laughs soundly and bobs around as I walk towards Paulina. Her mother stands a distance away and smells of a flower. She wears a thin white dress that flutters in the wind, in this light her tanned how shines and she resemble a goddess. We reach her and I put Fiona down on the ground.

"My lady asked for a dance?" I say and bow to Wendy.

    She looks terrified before she looks down at Fiona who looks utterly innocent at the moment. Uhu, someone did something they shouldn't have. I chuckle at her face and the whole situation; this little girl is as mischievous as I was when I was a little boy.

"What did you tell your daddy?" she asks and puts her arms over her chest.

    Fiona looks a little ashamed but don't put her head down, instead she holds her head held high and looks her mother straight in the eye. This is one of the scariest moments of my life, because it's first now that I see the defiance in the mini Paulina version. That's going to be interesting in the teenage years.

"I just wanted you to dance with daddy. Anna at daycare says that her mommy and daddy like each other. They dance every day and love each other. Why doesn't you love daddy, mommy?" she asks with a sad look.

    Oh boy, this little lady will be a real heart breaker when she grows up. It's going to be interesting to hear her answer though because I was also wondering. Yes, why didn't you love me woman? I want to feel smug, but I can't. Not when I see the tears prickle her eyes and fall down her cheeks.

"Because mommy do, sweetheart. And that's never going to stop."

"But why don't daddy live with us?"

"He lives in another place, honey. You can see each other all the time."

"If you love daddy, why don't you want to be with him anymore?"

    Paulina closes her eyes hard; this is clearly hard for her. I want to help her, but I don't know how. How do you explain this complicated situation to a four-year-old without creating any more confusion? Hell, neither one of us know how to explain or solve the situation, and we are adults.

"It's complicated, baby. But no matter what happens, we love you very much. Don't you ever hesitate on that. You will always be our little girl and we will never ever let anything bad happen to you." she says and kisses Fiona on her forehead.

    My heart clenches at that. Once again, she puts her own feelings and thoughts aside to make someone else feel better. That's one of the things I love about this woman. I owe her so much... She's given me four children and I've treated her like crap. She doesn't deserve this, not one bit.

"Don't be sad mommy. I will take care of you." Fiona says and look worried while she put her little hands on her mother's face.

    Paulina smiles at her and picks her up to hug her. I could pay with my soul to have her smile at me the way she smiles at our children. Even though I know that I don't deserve it. Her tears continue to fall either way and nothing Fiona does makes them stop. That's when the boys come back.

    Adrien, Jaxon, and Brody come walking behind them looking happy. At least until they see Paulina cry, the triplets take one look at her and then gives me death stares before standing as a shield in front of her. I've never been prouder of our boys as I was in that moment, they were protecting her.

"Why did you make mommy cry?" Caleb asks and looks me straight in the eye. 

    He's a perfect copy of me when I was in his age. There was no mistake that he was indeed my boy, I was protective of my mother when I was a kid too. The only thing I didn't like was that they thought that I was responsible for her tears, which I was in a way. But they don't know about what happened between us.

"He didn't make me cry, baby. Mommy's fine, promise." she says and smile with teary eyes.

"No, mommy! You are crying and I don't like it." Darby, I think says and stomps his foot at the ground.

    She gathers the boys to her and Fiona to group hug them all. All our little angels look content in her arms and hug her closely back. They truly loved her, and she was an amazing mother, she even reminded me of my own. She kisses the boys on their cheeks which makes them embarrassed apparently.

"Mommy, not when others are around!" Noah exclaims with a red face.

"But you are my little babies, I carried you in my stomach and you were very mean before you came out. I have the right to kiss you." she chuckles.

"We're not babies!" all three of them said in unison.

"Yes, you are. I love mommy's kisses." Fiona says and kisses her mother back.

    Paulina laughs out loud and high five her daughter. They are the perfect dream-team. The boys are still looking worried about their mother and that concerned me. Even though it was an admirable thing to feel the need to protect her, there must be a reason to why. Had she cried a lot?

"Are you sure he didn't hurt you?"

"Go and play with Fi for a moment. I promise he didn't hurt me, baby." she says, and they walk away with Fiona. "At least not in the way you think." she mumbles when they're out of earshot.

"Wen-"

"I'm not Wendy anymore Adrien, not even on paper. I legally changed my name, it's Paulina now."

"Well that's going to take some time to get used to... Anyway, your boys are the best! When did they become so big?!" he exclaims with confusion.

"Yeah, I ask myself that every single day. They begin pre-school soon... My little boys are beginning to become men." she says and looks proudly at the bunch of kids.

"You have done an amazing job raising them, Paulina. I adore you for it. Thank you for taking care of my niece for me." Jaxon says and hugs her.

"How long are you in town anyway?"

"We were thinking of staying here for a week. D wanted to hang out more with Fiona before going back."

"Yeah... I guess we have to discuss custody and when you're going to have her." she says with worry and looks at me.

"If you hesitate if I want to have time with her, then you don't have to worry. I love that little girl." I answer with a small smile.

"It's not that I'm worrying about..."

"Is this about me taking her away from you? I would never do that!"

"It's not that either."

"Then what?"

"What if she rather wants to live with you?" she asks with tears in her eyes once more. 

"Even if she wanted to do that, it wouldn't be any possibility for it. I work all the time, you know that."

    She sniffles and all I want is to take her in my arms. My love, my life source, my all... Sadly we have to leave after that. Fiona kisses my cheek and the boys hug us all goodbye. Paulina hugs everyone also, she hesitates when she's about to hug me but decides to do it in the end and I've never been happier.

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    We're sitting at our hotel, my brothers and Adrien. I've been acting strange since I met her. All the feelings I thought that I had buried, is at the surface again and wants to jump up on land to be with her. Brody is watching me closely like he's trying to solve a mystery.

"What's up with you and this girl?"

"You know what happened..."

"Yes, but I want to know what you feel about her. Or maybe you don't like her anymore. Maybe I should-"

"Don't even think about it!" I grit out through my teeth and he laughs at me.

"I knew it! You're still hung up on this girl."

"How could I not? They'll write about us one day, like Romeo and Juliet. The love that deceives you, yet you remain. Like Tristan and Isolde, for the souls we sold. I am forever a slave, an immortal love. The most beautiful thing I know stood before me and I could not close my eyes. Because she was so perfect, I wondered if she wanted to take a little round. We talked in what felt like hours and it felt like we've met there before. I could feel slowly how my heart start to burn and now I never want that feeling to go away. As you all know, I've never believed in love at first sight, but as soon as I saw her, and they were talking. I want to start over and leave everything, warm her when the world rains cold. I don't want her to be afraid, but to be able to give me her hand. No secret anything more. I think she's a little too good to be true. How far can you go for the one you love? For I am prepared to cross corpses, my love is immortal."

"Wow dude, you really do love her." he says with surprise.

    Jaxon and Adrien look at me with big eyes too. Yeah, all that s**t about me not loving her, it's not true. I understand everything I put her through and all I want to do is save her from the torments in her mind. My baby girl, I will make this right. I promise, on my honor.