After Your Rejection

Chapter 14 Meeting Her Again

Sebastian

It's been six months since I last saw Alexis. Kieran said she moved to Connance to attend a college. She never came to visit, which troubles Amber and Kieran, too. He isn't happy about it. He wants her back. They know something happened to Alexis, but they both had no clue what it was. Their only source of information is Axel. If not for him, they would go to Connance and take her back by force. Axel persuaded them she needed time, not revealing why she needed it. Axel hates my guts and I don't blame him. He is civil in public, but on rare occasions when the two of us are alone, I can see clearly he is fighting with his wolf for control. I bet his wolf would tear me to shreds and I would let him. I want to claw my heart out of my chest almost every other day.

Alexis has moved on with her life. I feel the pain every time she is intimate with another man. When it happened for the first time, I didn't know immediately the cause of the pain spreading through my chest. I figured it out pretty quickly. Since I didn't accept her rejection nor did I reject her back, the mate bond is not completely broken. I don't know if she can still feel the mate bond, but I doubt it.

I can't stop thinking about her. I was a damn i***t back then. Every day I imagine how it could have been if she was here, in my pack, with me. And every damn day I want to beat myself for making the stupidest decision. I was scared she wouldn't be safe by my side, but she lives alone in a human city, for the Goddess's sake. Had I not been dumb back then, she would be in my arms every night. I would wake up with her in my bed and spend my days with her. She would have been marked and mated by now, and she would be my Luna. My pack would finally have a Luna after long years without one, but instead, they have a weak Alpha. Yes, that's what became of me. I know I'm not as strong as I was before.

I have nightmares where I see the pain in her eyes when she rejects me. I saw the happiness vanishing from them, and it broke my heart knowing I was the cause. From Kieran's talk, I know it changed her. Hell, it changed me. But not for the better. I'm bitter and angry most of the time, and it is my own doing.

Something in me changed after her rejection. Despite the effort I put into training, something is blocking my full potential. It's true what they say, the Alpha is stronger with his Luna by his side. I just found out too late. I need to be strong to protect my pack, to protect my mate. Because of my stupid decision to push her away, my pack is in danger, and more importantly, she may be in danger if words get out that she was my mate. She is still my mate, the bond is not broken. I can't send warriors to protect her. It's too risky. Somebody can spot them, and it will just alert my brother that I care about her. I can't tell Kieran, even though I wanted to do so numerous times.

I have a plan in mind. I want to apologize to her and talk her into giving me a chance. I know it's a long shot, but I'm willing to try to get her forgiveness and her acceptance. I have loved her for so long.

Kieran is eager to meet his princess again. And so is Amber. They are pacing my study room, waiting for the reunion with their daughter. I can't blame them, I'm restless too. I instructed the guards at the gates to let me know when she enters my pack territory, so we can go and welcome her here. I want to see her so badly my whole body is itching for her presence, but I'm pretending to be cool about her arrival.

'Alpha, Alpha Kieran's daughter is here.' Comes through the mind-link.

'Kieran, Amber, your daughter just passed the gates.' I told them. They look at each other, smiling widely, and start walking toward the front door. I match their pace, but I'm struggling not to overrun them. When we step outside, we also see Alpha Flynn and his children. Axel is holding Freya tightly like he doesn't want any distance between them. And then I see her from behind. She's hugging Finn and my blood boils. I know they are friends, but something in the way he's looking at her is making me uncomfortable. I hear them talking about Damian's and Alexis's first kiss, and despite the growing anger in me, there's also this calmness from her proximity that is battling with the anger. I can't help but admire her. All my attention is solely on her. Even my wolf is waggling its tail at the sight of its mate. I'm holding my breath, waiting for her to turn around and look at me. And when she does, only for a brief moment before she hugs her parents, my heart skips a bit. She looks stunning. She was always gorgeous, but now she looks absolutely perfect. She gained a little weight, but it fits her. She has the right curves now. My hands twitch beside me. I want to hold her so badly. My wolf is encouraging me to get closer to her. After our eyes met for just a second, he became worried. I don't know what happened to him, but I need to fight for control with him.

'I apologize, we didn't expect the future Alpha Axel to find his mate, so we don't have a room for him and his mate. He was supposed to sleep with the future Alpha Damian and the future Alpha Finn in an apartment and Miss Freya was supposed to share a room with Miss Alexis.' My butler informs them. Apparently, while I was busy drooling about Alexis and pushing my wolf back, Axel introduced his mate to his parents. He does the right thing and now has his mate in his arms. Lucky bastard. But it's not that he doesn't deserve it.

'So many future Alphas in one sentence. Can you say it again, please?' Damian teases my butler. I have a strong desire to roll my eyes. Is he ever serious?

'It's okay, they can stay in the room where I was supposed to sleep with Freya, and I'll stay with the guys. I don't mind if they are okay with it.' Alexis suggests, unbothered by Damian's remark. Hell no, she is not going to stay with him. He's always hitting on her, despite the fact they are best friends.

'You can sleep in my bed, Alexis, I really won't mind.' Damian says while sneaking his hand around Alexis's shoulders. That's exactly what I was talking about, always trying to get physical with her.

'Damian, I'm going to f*cking break your hands if you touch my sister again!' Axel says through gritted teeth and looks furiously at Damian.

'Language, Axel!' Comes from Amber.

'So, you don't mind some random d*ckhead touching her at the college party, but you are angry with me? Seriously Ax?' Damian asks him.

'Language!' Luna Amber repeats.

'What d*ckhead? Who dared to f*cking touch my little princess?' This picks Kieran's interest.

'LANGUAGE!' Amber now looks furious… and scary.

'Just ignore him, Dad, he's talking nonsense like always.' Alexis says while dragging Damian into the pack house. Finn just shakes his head and follows them.