One Sided Love

chap 8

After 1 year (kate)

Today was emma 2nd birthday and I'm so happy my baby is getting bigger day by day after emily death Evans and Alex family was devastated and when they know the truth that I have nothing to do with accident they were very embarrassed ...my father left the hospital and never talk about the incident but Alex parents came to me and apologize sorry about their and alex behavior.

After some months my parents become civil for appearance sake and never mentioned about the incident , about the slap ... but I really want them to so

that I can believe they do not consider me Emily killer but father never said a word he started ignoring me and mom was in her own world.

It is strange how our life is. It should be me that should be dead cause honestly speaking it might not make a difference in someone's life but I'm sure it would be a relief for my parents that I'm gone.

But fate has some other plans. Emily has gone leaving a void that can't be filled.

Every Night i woke up screaming Emily's name. The nightmare is so real that my painful cries refresh my wounds.

After a few months I got a call from Alex's mother that she needed me. I immediately left everything and entered Alex's house.

When I saw Emma was playing with her doll. I took a relive breath. After Emily died Emma became more close to me and I felt she held a major part of my life. When Alex mom saw my expression she told me to relax. She just called me so that I can look after Emma for a few hours so that she can visit her doctor.

I got no problem with that any moment with my Emma is my highlight of my day . I love to spend any time with my baby. I got to know her routine at fingertips.

After a few hours I was so lost in Emma that I didn't listen to Alex foot step when I looked at him. He had a very intense expression in his face.

When he found me he looked more angry then surprised.

I nervously told him that his mother has an appointment and left me to look after emma but I can go if he wants

For few moments he doesn't say anything ut then he sighed and said ' no you can stay actually I want to talk but,after emma sleep we will'

I meekly nodded. After I put Emma for a nap I went to the kitchen to find Alex. He was looking outside his living area's gigantic window and was in deep thinking when he felt my presence he offered me a drink. I said no .

He cruelly smiled and said 'of course no drink.'...

When he noticed his tone he apologetically looked at me and said 'sorry'

Understanding his turmoil. I just nodded 'it's ok ... hmm.. what you want to talk about'

He said' I don't know where to start from.... but let's start with my behavior towards you at the hospital im sorry I should never said that what I said and you dont deserve any of this but at that moment i need someone to blame , someone to hold responsible for emily and my son death but, never mind im really sorry' A tear fell from his eyes.

I felt so sad and hurt when I looked at him. He looked so broken and so innocent like a child that needed a hug. I don't know what happened but I slowly walked and gave him a hug.

He was so surprised by my gesture but he never pushed me but held me more tightly.

I said ' Alex don't say sorry I can totally understand it was a misunderstanding and i'm not angry with you. Emily's death was not a shock but a tremendous void that can never be filled. I missed her so much and I can't even tell you how much it broke me whenever I think about you ,emma and what you lost '

.I was crying so much I lifted my head to look at him and didn't know what happened. Alex's hands were on my face. He wiped my tears and his expression tighten like he is confused about something. But before I can ask him what's wrong, he brings his lips to my lips. f**k!

What was happening ...Alex is kissing me.

I pushed him a little knowing its so wrong but I surrender cause my stupid heart always wanted a heart. And Alex was so good that I can feel my legs shaking. Then Alex lay me on the couch and started to touch me and I made a sound

He looked at me with a angry expression and said loudly ' 'f**k'!!!!!

I became still and was so embarrassed that I was making out with Emily's husband.

I tried to stand and said 'Alex listen..

Alex stop me 'shut up ... just get out from here'

I was crying at that time f**k I ruined everything he won't let me see emma after that ....so I try once again but he stop pick me roughly

'look katie i'm just this close to losing my temper so it's better just get out of my house'.

I left Alex's house with tears in my eyes and with tension that he won't let me see Emma again.

But after a few days Alex's mother called me again saying that Emma is crying very much and she needs me. I went alex mansion immediately n hold emma and let her

calm her. Alex's mom told me that she was so worried so he told her to call me. I was amazed that after everything he suggested to me... well I feel so relieved that I can still meet my baby.

Thus, here I’m, today is my emma birthday and I picked her dora cake went to Evans home since my parents has arranged the birthday party in their home I was reluctant to go there because still I was not a favourite person for my father but I do it for my emma I can do anything for her.

When I went there the party that has almost started. My father was holding Emma and was laughing whatever she was bubbling in her baby voice ... I went there to greet them

'hello dad and happy birthday my baby girl and look at you... you look like a little princess' I kissed her

Father interrupted my moment n said 'so you have come? how is your job...i believe you still a assistance there'

I looked at my father and said 'yeah daddy everything is good thank you for asking. How are you dad you look,a little tired'

Cause he really looked tired 'well im ... I lost my only precious thing in this world so yes I'm very tired.

I really understand my father's emotions . I really do but why can't he accept me as his daughter? I failed to understand.

'Just take care of yourself' I smiled to him

I try to ignore Alex during the party but I saw him giving me glimpses After party I was giving love n gift to the emma when alex mom came and said

'hi kate I hope i'm not disturbing you... but I need a favor alex has left the party after the cake was cut and he seems very upsets and now emma is here I would love to keep her but tonight we have go to london so can you drop emma there and check Alex too.

I hesitated to go back to his house but I nodded ' no problem I will give a bath to Emma and put her in bed then after checking Alex I will text you ' I gave her a reassuring smile.