The fate of my love

CHAPTER 8

Now, most of the things I do are accompanied with threats. 'Do this or I will harm Gaurav. Do that or Gaurav will be killed.'

Because of these threats, I can't even pretend to love him and my plan of gaining his trust went down the drain. I couldn't even concentrate on my plans of running away. Every day, I lived like a prisoner, thinking if Gaurav is really alright or not. Shahid comes and he demands a peck on his cheek for each answer about Gaurav. Moreover, the answers would be tactfully said so that the answers confused me more than before. And then he will leave before I could ask further questions. Finally, I decided that I needed answers.

I lay on my bed, thinking of Shahid's behaviour. Why is he doing this? What is he getting after doing this? I need answers and I will get them.

I could hear footsteps and my husband came to my room. I couldn't help the glare I was sending him but he was standing there, staring amusingly. Servants bring me food at specified time. But, it couldn't seem to nullify the walls of this room crushing down on me. I feel weak here. But today, I will fight. I will get the answers I deserve.

"Shahid, why are you doing this," I ask, feeling frustrated.

"Because I love you. I love when you are with me,"he answered like he always does, briefly and confusingly. I hate him.

"And you know what? I hate you. I hate you so much that I didn't hate anyone this much in my lifetime. I hate you. I hate to breathe in the same air as you do. I simply hate you," I sob violently. Shahid comes and presses my head on his chest. I could hear his heart thumping loudly through his T-Shirt.

"I need to meet Gaurav. I want to marry him because I love him. Whenever I try to sleep, I envision Gaurav's head bleeding very much. I can't sleep. I need to ensure that he is alright. Please let me see him," I fall on my knees, begging pathetically. My strong front was dissolved by my love for Gaurav.

"Okay, you can meet Gaurav," Shahid said softly and huskily, "but first, I will consummate our marriage. And then we can go there."

"No. I love Gaurav and I will never give my first time to a man like you. I hate -"

I was cut by Shahid's lips on mine. I tried fighting it but eventually, my breathing eased out. But I will fight till I die but I will never give my first time to him.

"Is Gaurav alright," I ask, breaking the kiss after a long time.

"Now listen. You are my wife and you can't speak about any other male in my house. Is that clear," Shahid asks, pulling my hair painfully. I scream in pain and nod slowly. But his rage only increases and he ends up raping me. I first try to resist but he is stronger than me. At last, he says that Gaurav is alright and I am forbidden to even think about him or I will be punished again and rougher the next time. But I bind my head against this information- my Gaurav is safe...