I'm Not Perfect ❣

This Is Me . . .

This Is Me . . .

I’m the girl that curses way too much ., the one always with her guard up ., the one who laughs at things that happened yesterday ., and the one with bipolar mood swings ., the girl who can barely walk in a straight line without stumbling over my own two feet .

I’m the girl who acts completely spontaneously and does everything on Randomm impulse .,

I’m the girl that doesn’t think before she speaks and thoughts come out like word vomit .,

I’m the girl that is intimidating to the eye but is extremely sensitive in her own right .,

I’m the girl who appreciates art and music way more than the average person .,

I’m the girl who love the small things in life instead of the big things made of glitter and gold .

I’m the girl who has emotional break downs more often than not ., and the girl who is more afraid of herself than others .

I’m the girl that admires true love but too afraid to experience it herself .,

I’m the girl that no one understands and that’s probably because I don’t even understand myself ., but as I grow older and embark on this journey .,

I’m beginning to love and appreciate the woman that I am ., flaws and all .

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"When I was younger (and stupider) I thought a relationship would solve all of my problems. I would be happy and fun-loving and all around just better. Now I realize that a relationship will more than likely just make you more insecure and more miserable. A relationship can’t cure your depression. You’ll just end up depressed in a relationship. And the next thing you know the other person in your relationship is miserable too. And here I thought I had life all figured out."

"Besty, Kalimutan mo na ‘yung nakaraan. Kung dati masaya ka sa piling niya, hindi na ngayon. Wala na ‘yun. Huwag mo nang ipilit, huwag mo nang alalahanin kasi burado na ‘yun, natuldukan na, tinapos na at wala ng sususnod pa.. Sa ngayon, just forget the past that made you cry. Forget and erase all. Magsimula ka ulit, harapin mo ang buhay ng may ngiti sa iyong mga labi. Find new hopes and live."

Inabot kong tasa ng kape napabuntong hininga saka binaling ang tingin kay Besty Maxim na abalang nagpipipindot ng kanyang cellphone. Sigurado may bago na naman itong ka chatmate, ganda ng mood eh.

"Besty, Want some changes in life, don’t know how to begin."

"Changes? Hmm.. We all have encountered this problem in life, it’s been a mystery to all of us on how are we gonna change our once shitty life, but how do you really start changing your life? I’ll say start to the simplest thing, like for example.

Sick of everyone on calling you a fatty and lose some weight? Stop eating so much and start moving those limbs, then after that go straight to their judging faces and tell them that you have more guts than all of them!"

Napasimangot ako bigla sa mga narinig ko kay Besty. "Hmp... Boring."

"Oh.. Feeling bored? have a productive everyday life! Go get a job and stop being a freeloader! And if your sick and tired of your relationship partner treating you like s**t? No! No! you don’t just wait for him to change! It’s you who needs to change, go breakup with that douchebag and find the better, yet the deserving one for you, seems difficult? do it! it’ll do better for you."

"Seriously? Yan talaga ang advice mo sakin?"

"One of my best advice Besty, you wanna have some friends? get out of your shell and talk to people! Stop being such an anti-social freak! f*******: is not considered."

Taas kilay kong hinarap si Maxim na busy pa rin sa kanyang cellphone.

"Feels like something is missing in your life? Explore the world! A lot of things are still waiting to be discovered, maybe you’re the lucky one? who knows right? See? Everything can be resolved with simple actions, the simplest things can indeed change or better yet improve your life!"

"Ewan ko sayo, gulo mo kausap."

Tumayo nako't dinala ang tasa sa kitchen. Narinig ko pang pahabol na sigaw sakin ni Maxim.

"HAVE A HAPPY LIFE! Besty."

Napangiti na lang ako sa kasweetan ng Besty ko. Kaya minsan kahit medyo may pagka harsh itong magsalita ang ending naman eh touching.

"Same to you Besty, galingan pagpili ng bagong fafa dyan sa dating apps na yan, good luck!"

"Yeah, thanks."

"Your welcome my friend."

❣To make a difference in someone’s life, you don’t have to be brilliant, rich, beautiful or perfect. You just have to care❣

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