Useless Apologies
1205 Words
Elizabeth POV
A week passed by silently.I was prepared enough to face him about everything.I wanted to tell him how sorry I was.
I walked to his office and knocked on the door.
"Come in." He said.
I slowly walked inside.He looked at me for a second and continued doing whatever he was doing.
I sat on the chair in front of him.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
"I didn't have the energy to face you.I am sorry I was scared." I said.
He didn't reply.
I grabbed his hands and started speaking.
"I am sorry.Please listen to me." I whispered.
"Hmm... now go." He said.
"No.I am here to see you." I said.
"Elizabeth, don't provoke me.Leave while you still can." He said.
"You need to understand.I thought I was ready but I felt guilty.I can't make you understand how I felt and you are so much older than me.I felt like I've sinned." I explained.
"Don't f**k with me, Elizabeth.You said you were ready so if you weren't so why did you say you were!" He stood up angrily.
"Are you a f*****g child that you act like this?!" He yelled once again.
I was tearing up.He was yelling at me for this.
"Understand me.I was feeling so vulnerable.I-"
"Oh I don't have time to hear what you were feeling." He said.
"I realized that if I waited a bit and got to know you a better.I could-"
"Oh,there ain't no talking stage with me if that's what you're expecting.Go find a kid your age and f**k with him.Don't bother me." He said.
"But I don't want to lose you." I whispered.
He leaned close to my face and asked,"What made you think that you even had me?"
"Why can't you just understand me? Why are turning your back when I need you?" I whispered.
"I made a mistake and I told you why.It wasn't in my control.I shouldn't have hurt you like this." I said.
"You think that you're so special that you could hurt me?" He laughed.
"I...why can't you just consider my feelings?" I asked.
"I know that I'm no one special but you are to me." I whispered.
"Then get over it.I am your f*****g headmaster and you are an immature child.So go study." He said.
I walked towards him and held his hands.
"Please understand me.It was my first time knowing these things.I enjoyed it but I felt guilty and I know that I should've confronted you instead of running away.I am sorry." I whispered.
He loosened my hand from his roughly.
"Don't you have any self respect? I have been insulting you and yet you have the audacity to stand here." He said.
"Why would you do that to me?" I cried.
"Elizabeth,f*****g leave.Don't eat my head!" He said.That's it.
I ran away from his office and directly to my room.
I spent the whole day crying.I really liked him and despite his ruthless and cold nature,I was really attracted to him.
I didn't want to lose him.
I headed to bed quickly because I had plans.
-
It was 5 am in the morning.I wore my uniform and headed to the top floor.I hoped that the cold headmaster would arrive anytime.I sat on the waiting room.I was so sleepy that I laid down on the couch.What should I tell him?
Will he forgive me? How do I get him back.He was so nice to me.When I said I had a headache, despite of him being sleepy,he massaged my head so I could sleep properly.
Why did I lose it? Because of my guilt? I should've controlled it and confronted him.I should've been stronger but I ran away like a child.
Lucas POV
As I walked out of the elevator,my heart almost stopped when I saw a body on the couch.
It looked like someone died down there.
I rolled my eyes and sighed.
"Elizabeth..." I called out.
She was asleep like a little child.It reminded me of how we slept together and how beautiful she looked but none of that mattered now.
"Elizabeth!" I raised my tone so she would wake up.She opened her eyes and frowned.
"What the hell are you doing here at this hour?" I asked.
She didn't speak.She just rubbed her eyes like a little baby.She was still in a daze.
" I am speaking to you.Do you want punishment to be roaming around at this early around the school?" I asked.
She stood up and said,"I came to see you."
"Didn't I make myself clear yesterday? Go study.Don't bother me." I said.
"No." She held my hands again.What the hell was wrong with this girl? I wasn't doing her any favours or something so why was she hell bent on apologizing to me? I clearly was not interested in her.
"Do you want to hit me? Then hit me if it makes you forgive me!" She grabbed my hands.
"Please forgive me.I will do whatever you say.Just please forgive me." She said.It was too early to deal with her.I just came to work.
"Please?" She asked.
"Elizabeth,go.I don't want to punish you or have you hurt by any way.Just go study." I said.
"I won't go unless you forgive me." Her eyes filled with tears.
"Why don't you f*****g understand? I don't like you.I am not interested in you!'' I said.She likes to have it the hard way.She doesn't listen when I'm calm.
"You wanna know who I like? Selena! She is my kind of woman.What are you? An inexperienced child who knows how to whine all the time.What made you think that you are even on my level? Oh god, it's actually my fault that I ever engaged in anything with you." I spat the words on her face.
"I didn't want to climb on your level.You were something to me and I thought I was something to you too.I am sorry."
Tears fell down her snow white face as she ran away.
I didn't know what else to do.
-
It was 6 pm.I was about to head out early today.
"You alright?" Selena asked.
"Yes." I replied.
"Look,I was being too harsh with you about Elizabeth's matter.She is too crazy and I had a lot of pressure on me at that time so yeah." I said.
"It's fine.I don't mind." She smiled.
We walked out of the building together.She had her hands linked with mine.
"It's such a beautiful night." She whispered.She stood in front of me and kissed my lips.Somehow it felt strange.
I broke off the kiss quickly.
"Don't want anyone seeing that,do you?" I asked.
"I like taking risks." She winked as she stood beside me.
I thought I saw something in the corner of my eyes.When I turned a bit I saw it.
I saw Elizabeth standing between two buildings looking at me with tears streaming down her face.My heart roared as two-worlds collapsed, destroying everything within.
I felt shortness of breath when I saw her.
Was she really about to approach me after all the words I've said to her?It was so new to me.All these mixed feelings were too much for me to handle.
I turned around and quickly walked out with Selena.
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