Regrets and Mistakes
755 Words
Elizabeth POV
A miracle happened.I fell asleep last night.Now we were walking down the hall because I refused to eat breakfast and were headed back to the school.
I looked through the window and tried to forget whatever happened last night.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Yes.Just a bit sleepy." I whispered.
"Oh,you could've told me.We could've slept a little longer." He smiled.
"It's alright." I said.
When we reached at the school,he cupped my face and smiled.
"Have some rest,eat properly and take care of yourself." He said.
"You aren't coming?" I asked.
"No,I have some things to take care of at home." He said.
"Okay." I replied and ran off to the school.
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"Where have you been?" Rosa asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I didn't go out last night.Chris and I thought that we could stay and watch a movie so I went to your room.It was locked from outside." She said.
"It's...I just went to my cousin's place." I said.
"Alright.'' She said as we continued eating our lunch.
I was sitting on the class silently.I couldn't concentrate.My own body felt unfamiliar and disgusting to me.
After the class ended,I had a break.I was sitting on the field watching the others play,talk and hangout.
"Ela!'' Jordan called me.
"Jordan?" I asked.
"Mr.Blackwood called you." He said.
"I can't go." I said.
"Why not?" He asked.
"Jordan,can we talk?" I said.
He nodded as he understood that something was terribly wrong.
We were in his office.I sat on the couch and bit my lips.
"Jordan,I trust you enough to tell you this." I whispered.
"What happened?" He asked.
"Last night,I went on a date with Mr.Blackwood.Then,we went to a hotel." I said.
"What?!" He spit his coffee.
"Please don't think otherwise.I am not like that." I said.
"It's okay.I am just surprised." He said.
"We did something and I feel so guilty.I can't process with that thing in my mind.I can't meet him.I-"
"Elizabeth,what did you do?" He asked.
"I-"
"Did you sleep with him?" He asked.
"Yeah,we slept on the same bed." I said.
"Ela, sleeping with him doesn't mean sharing the same bed,it means having..." He stopped.
"It is another word for making love." He rolled his eyes.
"No,no,no.I did not have s*x with him!" I said.
"It's just...he did something... with his mou-"
"That's too much information but I get it." He said.
"Did he take advantage of you?" He asked.
"No,no, never.He was really nice the whole evening.He did not take advantage of me.He asked me if I was ready and I thought I was but after it happened,I..." I sighed.
"Look,it happened for the first time right?" He asked as he placed his hands on my shoulder.I nodded.
"It's okay to feel like that." He said.
"I don't want to meet him anymore.Please Jordan help me." I said.
"I feel disgusting.I feel disgusted of my own body." I whispered.
"Eliza.It's fine.Concentrate on anything else.Whatever you feel right,okay?" He said.I nodded.I sighed and decided to attend my rest of the classes instead of grieving about my mistakes.
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The following day.
Scott grabbed me all of a sudden.
"What is your problem?" I asked.
"You can't ignore me forever, Elizabeth.I will find a way." He said.
"Let me go!" I said.
Jordan ran towards me and grabbed me away from him.
"I am going to tell Mr.Blackwood about it and when I do,he won't be very happy about it." He said.
"Oh,now who is threatening me? The warden boy?" He asked.
"Walk away." I said.
"You don't rule here,doll." He said.
"Scott go away please." I said.
"If you force me,I will tell Mr.Blackwood." I said.I guess that's what his weakness was.The fear of his father.
I walked back with Jordan.
"You alright?" He asked.
"I am." I replied.
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Lucas POV
Since the past few days, Elizabeth kept running away from me.She told me she was ready and I took her to spend a night.
It was not my fault that she was not ready and couldn't live upto her words.
I shouldn't have gone out with a little girl.They are just usually playing around.
I thought she was different but she wasn't much different.She was just the same.
She was a kid who needed guidance.I didn't want to take care of a kid.
Now that I realize,it was so f*****g silly of me engage in s****l activities with her.
I was so fed up of her and her childish behaviour.What was wrong with me?
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