Quintuplet Alphas's rejected mate

Five

I woke up to a loud beep sound near me, I slowly opened my eyes only to flinch at the bright light, my eyes adjusted to it and I looked around to see myself In a white room, the smell of sanitisers and medicine heavy in the air.

I looked around to see Alan sitting beside me, he smiled warmly yet concerned.

Mom and Dad were there too, ''What happened? '' I asked slowly moving to sit up.

''You tell us, what the hell were you thinking '' Mom said harshly and I flinched.

''Mom calm down'' Alan said, hugging my mom.

''You were drowning in the bathtub when I came to see why the water kept running, god!, if I didn't come soon, who knows what would have happened !'' She said, so, I wasn't imagining when I felt like I was underwater.

Turns out Mom's fear of the water bill is what saved me.

''Do you have any idea how scared I was?!, I thought you were already dead, you weren't even struggling when I found you, The doctor said you are barely savable!'' She said crying.

'' I'm sorry Mom, I think I slept while soaking, I don't know what happened '' I said, giving a reassuring smile at her.

After screaming at me to her heart's content she finally stopped.

Turns out I was unconscious for 4 days now and the doctor struggled too hard to take all the water out and make me breathe again.

But why?, Shouldn't I be dead by now?, Only people who have anything to live for can live but I don't have any!

Sigh,

I got discharged, and my parents kept me under their careful watch until they were completely sure I was alright to attend my classes.

Six months have passed since then, if I was silent before, that is nowhere near how I am now.

I completely shut everyone out no longer a people pleaser or pushover, the more you are away from me the more it's safe.

For the 1st few weeks after I returned from the hospital, I was the talk of college, people surrounding me asked why I tried to take my own life, but I know they are just curious to know the gossip, they don't care or give a s**t about me anyways.

I was silent and ignored them, They got annoyed thinking I was giving them attitude but that's good too, they would keep their distance, but the more silent I was, the more people just got too curious about me.

People followed me acting like friends, I couldn't help but feel pathetic at how desperate they act.

I never saw Godan again, It should have made me happy but instead, it pained me even more, my heart hurt at the loss of his love.

After he left, I kind of missed him and all I could think about was him and his hazel eyes with gold freckles, I knew I sounded like an i***t but I couldn't find it in myself to forget him.

A part of me still waiting for him to run back to me and tell me everything is just a mistake and explain it all to me.

But why?, he is practically no one to me, now I am what? Now I fall this deep for everyone that shows some smile at me?, am I that weak?

It's been 4 months since I saw him but still, the feeling for him never vanished away.

I got visibly weak and broken, I lost my appetite, barely eating anything,

, my weight loss drastically to the point I started showing my bones.

Even though I didn't know what was wrong with me, my parents were worried and the doctors said I may still not be cleared from my shock when I drowned.

It makes no sense but maybe my mind is still depressed about what happened back then?, but I'm well past that now aren't I?

My condition kept getting worse and my parents became worried of me which worried me even more, so I decided to take things into my hand.

I'm Alvina, I have been through so much, and I can't take any more of this, I can't take any more pushing and stomping.

I decided to pick myself up placed my smile right back on my lips and did everything to push my body to health.

I wolf down the food kept in front of me, even though it felt repulsive to eat anything.

I ate a lot and changed my entire wardrobe with new clothes to my size.

I still dressed to cover and comfort but still made it look good on me, for no one but only for me.

I tried to help my mom with her chores and smiled a lot around them and That made them happy.

Slowly I returned our lives to normal, shutting both of my secrets about Godan and Jace behind a huge dam, away from anyone and away from me.

That's how my 1st year of college passed and I entered my 2nd year.

The gossip died down, and college became normal.

It was our annual party in our college, the entire building bursting with students running here and there, sticking posters for their team performance and some were practising for group dance as I passed unbothered by anything.

I was about to turn around a corridor to leave the college when an all too familiar spark brushed my shoulder, stopping me frozen to my spot.

It's familiar as the same kind of spark that I felt before when I touched Gordan but only this time, it's much more powerful than that.

Fear gripped me as my breath became laboured, sweat started pouring like water from my face and tears automatically sprung to my eyes.

I can still feel the sparks on my shoulder, I slowly, very slowly yet nervously turned to the side, waiting to see the hazel eyes of Godan, but surprised as instead this time it's not hazel but silvery eyes burning down to my own.

The eyes are wide and surprised, looking at me almost shocked and with so much intensity.

My eyes roamed around his face, he has shoulder-length shiny yet wavy black hair, a chiselled face, full lips, and tan skin and his shoulders are broad and muscles visibly straining against his shirt.

His arms alone are bigger than my face, he is no doubt huge and so tall, at a feet difference even over my 5'6''.

I gulped taking a step back in fear as he just stood there, his eyes so enchanting, following my movements, begging me to look closer but something about his nature screamed danger.

I pressed my back against the wall, telling myself to calm down, and taking slow breaths when ''Are you alright? '' His voice came as music, pulling at my heartstrings.

''I'm alright'' I quickly muttered and pushed myself to leave but I felt the sparks on my hand as he pulled me back.

I looked behind his eyes and widened an all too familiar look popped out to my mind, the same look Godan gave when he did that, my wall threatened to crumble and break me once again.

No!, No No No No No!, I can't do this I can't go over this again, I barely survived once and I can't survive it again.

I was struggling to get myself together ''You found her?'' I heard him say but from another direction and I turned in confusion to see the same man standing behind me and another round of shock went over me.

I looked between them back and forth, there were two of them!, Twins?

''Oh, you have no idea how long we were searching for you '' The one behind me said taking my other hand and once again the sparks erupted under his touch.

What the hell is happening here? What do they want from me?!, I watched as they smiled down at me like they just found their long-lost treasure, but tears started filling my eyes, as I struggled to pull my hands from them.

They looked at me confused and reluctantly let go of my hand.

I quickly turned to leave but they blocked my path from both sides.

My mind is reeling and something about their smell is making me woozy and at the same time, their presence is frightening me, threatening to break everything I worked so hard for.

Who the hell are these people?

I slowly breathed and looked up at them, their eyes still strained on me refusing to leave.

I felt so self-conscious and suffocated but I still pushed the words away.

''I'm sorry for bumping into you, but please move, I have to go'' I said, my voice was too soft but that's all I managed.

''Why? The show is about to start'' One said with a smile but that smile pained me.

I no longer long for smiles anymore, cuz something from people's smiles is going to heal us only to break them apart.

I smiled back '' No, I have to go'' I said and tried to move but they didn't leave me.

I looked at them not glaring at them, My mind and heart were each screaming in different ways in a mess but still I tried my best to look normal.

''We need to talk, come with us'' One said dragging me out like a rag doll.

I tried to pull away from his hold but my entire strength didn't even make his hold waver even a bit, the sparks made me shiver.

The one from behind snaked his arms around my waist pulling me flush against his body, and sparks spread all over my back, It was oddly refreshing but the fear was overpowering.

What is happening to me, 1st Godan now these people, who are they? Are they too going to do the same to me? My eyes watered, I barely survived 1st time, will I again? and this time there were 2 of them.

I was shivering as they led me to the parking area where a huge limo stood proudly over other bikes and cars.

They stopped in front of it, they opened the door and ushered me inside and claimed after me, I tried my best to sit in a distance, they frowned at me and soon, one by one another 3 huge men claimed in and my heart stopped.

They all look the same, even their eyes and hairstyles are the same, I gulped as a sudden realisation hit me, I'm in a car filled with strangers, Am I being kidnapped?

With all these sparks and Gordan, I completely forgot about the situation!

''So this is her, huh?'' One said smiling at me softly.

''You look so pale, are you alright dear? '' One said looking at me intensely.

''I don't know, she keeps whimpering like she is in pain and shivering like she is cold but it's scorching outside'' One that found me said.

''Hey, look at me, are you alright? We can go to the hospital if you are not well'' One said, holding my chin to look at him.

The sparks once more rushed shaking my walls like an earthquake.

''Hey, why are you crying? , what did you do to her?'' One said wiping my tears away while glaring at the one next to me and that only made it worse.

''How the hell do I know? , She was like that from the moment I saw her!'' One said, his face changed for a second and my mind reminded me of Gordon's and that's all It took me to lose it.

I burst into tears with no will, my walls crumbled and my lungs convulsed making it hard to breathe, before long I blacked out as 5 pairs of hands shook me asking what was wrong as sparks fled everywhere.