Quintuplet Alphas's rejected mate

Storm

Everything was going nice and sweet ever since I met Godan.

I gripped Gordan's hands relaxing at the sparks.

I don't know what these sparks are but when I touch them I feel like finally seeing a speck of light in the distance that is warming me from the coldness of the dark.

The love for him in my heart has grown as huge as a tree in such a short period, Being with him made me the happiest in the world, I found myself smiling and laughing a lot when I was with him.

I turned to smile at him but for the 1st time, I saw his hazel eyes open wide and glance like he too feeling the sparks like it was electrocuting him, It was new as he had never shown any indication before.

I watched in surprise as he too turned towards me.

It's evening time and mostly everyone left the school with only me and him.

He looked straight at me but only this time his eyes weren't calm anymore, they held a storm inside them, like he was fighting a war, so furious.

I wonder if he too has a demon inside him, mine came when I went to a horrible realisation that I cannot disclose to anyone, what happened to him. Does he too have trouble like that?

My heart pained, maybe I should help him?

I was looking at him worriedly when his eyes cleared and his once soft hazel eyes hardened, a murderous look placed on his face, for the 1st time he looked so scary and my mind screamed at me to run, and I knew I should run but only my body didn't listen.

I froze in my spot at his look, he looked psychotic and mad, and I could feel where all of his anger was directed.

Me.

He looked like a rabid dog ready to tear its victim down.

And with that same look, he closed the distance between us and only this time instead of butterflies a gang of venomous wasps burst inside my stomach, stinging away my insides as I watched him closing his distance so close to reach my ear.

He pulled my hair away from my ear and said something, just a few words but far enough to rip my heart out.

''I'm sorry, but I can't take this any longer, I wanted someone that can help me claim my destiny not an ugly half deaf human b***h'' He whispered silently yet so harshly that all the faucets in my eyes broke letting it flood out

I have heard the same words from everyone around me, even my dad once commented about my problem in my face but that never stung like this, Yeah it hurt hearing it from my father but hearing it from him is not even can be compared to anything.

My heart was pained like someone just stabbed 1000s of micro mini needles inside my heart and painfully pulled it out.

But I didn't know the worst was yet to come.

I felt his grip on my hair and waist tighten like he knew his next words were going to make me crumble.

With inhuman strength, he pushed me against the wall behind me and crashed his lips to mine, with so much force that I knew there would be an undeniable bruise going to form.

His kiss was strong and hard like he wanted to muffle me to death by his kiss.

Tears gushed from my eyes as I stood helplessly as he took my 1st ever kiss and turned it into a nightmarish experience.

He pulled away, looking at me with so much hatred and said ''I GODAN MILLER REJECT YOU ALVINA AS MY MATE'' He spat, pushing me away like throwing a garbage bag from the car window and left without a second glance.

I fell on my butt with a thud and that should have pained me but more than my hurt behind, a loud hearable sound of something breaking ringing in my ears as my heart was pained like hell.

My eyes felt blank and my mind spinning, as I puked my stomach contents on the soil ground.

My heart pained so hard like someone stabbed my heart with a knife and each second felt like someone turning it to the sides to deepen the wound.

My entire body was dripping in sweat as I struggled to breathe, suffering in pain all alone.

I tried to calm down by taking deep breaths as I fought this unexplainable pain that threatened me kill me.

After what felt like forever I finally calmed down my heart and breathing and sat upright.

My arms and legs fell in limps refusing to move.

I muster all of my strength and finally pulled myself to stand, even though I slipped without balance a few times.

I slowly dragged myself to the nearest restroom and stood balancing myself with my hands in the basin.

My heart still pained but I willed myself to stand.

I splashed cold water on my face, telling myself not to worry that this might just be one of the nightmares and that I could survive it.

I looked at my completely torn form in the mirror, my face and lips swelled from crying and the kiss, the only trace that I had that told me I was still alive, the light in my eyes was no longer there, and I couldn't see my soul in it.

But now the only indication for me that I'm still alive is this unbearable pain in my heart.

Damn!, what the hell is wrong with me, yeah I may have had a crush on him and I wanted him but I no way any serious about him, I was always distant from him fearing he will know my problem.

If anything, him leaving me should have hurt me yeah, but not like this!

And what the hell with his words, rejection?

What the hell is happening here?

I cried confused and extremely hurt.

After composing myself enough.

I dragged myself from school and to my bike and barely made it to my home.

I did my best and mustered up all of life's acting skills and pulled my lips in an innocent smile but I could feel how strained it might look.

But better than nothing.

I slowly said ''Hi'' to my mom and told her I ate outside with friends, didn't want dinner, and wanted to sleep.

She gave me a surprised look but I didn't wait before proceeding to my room.

The 1st thing I did was to fill my bathtub with ice-cold water and sit in it.

Usually, this would calm me down and soothe me but today's incident seemed different though, No matter how long I sat in it, the pain didn't go away, even a bit if anything it only kept getting worse and worse as my mind kept repeating what happened today.

As much as It all seemed illogical and made no sense at all it just made my already shattered heart and mind scatter even more.

''Looks like you have enjoyed my leave so much '' A voice laughed.

And I know the voice anywhere, My demon sat opposite to me in the bathtub, looking at me smiling so happily.

I didn't reply anything as my mind kept replaying what happened today, I just stared at her.

''Oh come on! No need to overact you know, we both know how you are exaggerating this'' She said rolling her eyes but still smiling.

I just stared at her, hating myself for having her as part of me.

''Oh, you gonna ignore me again? You won't learn will you!'' She snarled and that's when I noticed the changes in her.

She no longer looked deformed, she looked healthy and normal with a malicious look.

''Looks like you are in so much pain Alvi'' She sniffed faking concern.

I looked at her blankly, how did she change? Is this because of my pain?

''But I know how to save you from this pain'' She said getting my attention, I looked at her, waiting to hear if she was at least now going to help me.

''Think of this Alvi, you are always the unfortunate one, always getting the last piece, always getting used only to throw you away, always taking advantage of your nature, people hate you, '' She said stirring the hurt in me even more.

''What are you trying to say'' I said, glaring at her.

''You see what I'm saying is, you know your hearing problem right?, people can't just accept you no matter how hard you work or try you will always be the odd one out, you saw even Godan, goddamn sweet Godan didn't want anything to do with you! '' She said sneering at me.

''Do you still think someone gonna come for you who will understand you?!, that will be the biggest bullshit! Open your eyes! All your tries are fruitless and waste!'' She hissed laying it thick for me.

Her words oddly made sense though, Yeah, I hate her but she is correct this time, I have never seen anyone as nice as him but even he acted like that and only to me, For some reason, I feel like god has reserved all people's resentment and anger only for me.

''So you see Alvi, there is no point in trying '' She said calmly looking at me.

I regarded her with teary eyes.

I feel meaningless and tired, tired of always wanting someone to lean on, tired of always being second, if only I had at least half of my brother's talents and looks, I wouldn't be such a sore eye for others to look at.

I don't know why but she oddly makes sense now, she is right, there is no point or meaning for me to try or work hard, I'm just a hopeless thing.

I have always been on the receiving end of misfortune, always, the only people that notice me are preying people.

As I drowned myself in my head, swimming and looking around my mind, all I could see was nothing but. sadness, No amount of my parents' love helped me from the preying people, a whole life filled only with sadness, as I swam around in my head reaching far corners seeing everywhere That I always feared before, I finally went to the further forbidden corner of my mind.

The day it all seems to have started.

WARNING DISTURBING CONTENTS:

I looked around as I stood in my old house, the house we stayed in before our current house, It's a peaceful place, I looked around at myself, barely mature for her age while girls around her thought about what to do in their future while all I thought and planned are what to play with my friends.

I didn't have real friends but at least people to call as such, even though I knew the fact, I didn't care, as I was alone enough for me back then.

I love old people cause I love my grandparents, Every old person I have met is kind and good-hearted, blessing the young with a whole heart.

That's what I thought of the old hands that caressed my cheek softly.

It's our landlord who resides at the house above ours.

He was almost in his 60s but still healthy, always being so nice to us, Our parents loved the house, and the old woman always invited me to her house to drink coffee and biscuits.

And since my brother left for college in another country and I didn't mind their company I sometimes accepted their offers.

I watched as on one fateful day when my parents had left to attend to some urgent matter leaving me alone in the house, I once again got invited to their house.

I didn't mind as all I thought I'd be doing was probably watching cricket while chatting with the old couples.

Fear gripped my heart as an unsettled feeling washed over me, I found myself trying to scream to my young self not to go but instead of my voice, only air bubbles came out of my mouth.

My 16-year-old self walked into their house only to be surprised that the old woman was not there, Instead Their grandson Jace who was about a year or two older than me there, gave a friendly smile which I returned.

The old man, Jace and my young sat, drinking the coffee Jace offered.

I watched helplessly as My young self slowly lost consciousness, and Jace dragged my half-conscious form to the bedroom and threw me on the bed.

Tears ran in rivers as he climbed on top of me, I tried to push him away but no strength was in my hands as consciousness came in and out of me.

I couldn't do anything but feel everything helplessly.

Hands and teeth roamed on my body, touching and feeling every part of me, running a trail of burning fire, Every place he touched felt like someone scorching it with fire.

I hated the feeling of helplessness, I tried to fight but all I could do was cry.

I felt his hand travel down and remove my inners and the sound of his belt buckle, and I knew I was done for.

This is it, I'm no longer gonna be innocent and will I even be alive after he is done with me?

I felt his d**k on me almost doing what he wanted when the door opened, the sound of the old woman rang loudly in my ears.

I barely opened my eyes to see her shocked face looking in terror at the scene, Her lips moved like she was telling something to her grandson.

Slowly yet reluctantly the weight on me released me as I slowly lost consciousness.

I don't know how but when I woke up again I was in my room in my house.

It all seemed like just a nightmare, I almost sighed in relief, when I saw the bruises around my wrist, chest and all over my body, my blood ran cold.

I ran upstairs as hot tears poured down my eyes.

When I came up, there was no Jace anymore, just the old couple, They gave their usual warm smile at me but only now the smile didn't reach their eyes.

I demanded where Jace was and threatened them I'd call the police but they refused that Jace ever came at all, I was dumbfounded and lost for words not knowing what to say.

I screamed they were lying and demanded to know the truth but they acted well not showing even a bit of remorse.

Telling me I lost my mind to accuse someone that was not even here.

I left their house helplessly.

I trusted the old couples but after all, what can they do? Jace is their grandson, if it comes to choosing between me or Jace, of course, they will choose to save him than give me justice.

Mom and Dad didn't return for the entire week, and I closed myself from everyone till my parents came back.

By the time my parents were back the old couple left the house saying they were going on a long vacation and gave us a week to change houses.

I wanted to tell my parents what happened but I had no strength to do so.

I couldn't say it to my friends or anyone, just closed it all to myself.

Trying my best to act natural in front of others, I distanced myself from everyone, My parents did find something wrong with me, but they thought I was going through a pace.

Soon we changed house and school and I started college but still not a word came out of me.

''Alvina,!'' I heard a scream far away before I blacked out.