Being his halal

Chapter nine

I woke up with the reflection of Sun rays burning right straight to the room through the illuminated glass.

I stretched my arm widely, extending all those tendons that came together while I was asleep, stretching my legs until it was on top of something next to me.

"Oh no hatina, not again." Anuur spoke refreshing my memory of how I have become a married a woman in just a short time. A wave of sadness washed over me as I remembered leaving my parents, my family and everything behind me to spend the rest of my life with this man, someone I know will never love me or see me as the woman I am, but one can never know, I guess that's my test from Allah, he knows best and I don't.

"What, it was a mistake, I forgot you were there." I spoke sounding normal.

"So the other ones was also a mistake."

"What? what others." I said sitting straight on the bed with my leg folded and facing annur while he laid on the bed. Taking glance of how he looked handsome this early morning just makes me wonder how it would have been if we were really married out of love, how we would spend our days now. I don't hate annur and I never had, the way I see him is like a person who's just misguided and to be honest I don't know if I'm the one to bring him back or not. Only time will tell and one more thing would.

My feelings towards him. Small gestures that people think are too little to make a difference are those which make a huge difference, all those little nice things he does, caring for me even if it just once in a blue moon are what changes a person heart.

No in case you're wondering I haven't fallen in love with him but I know myself, it those small gestures that captures my heart.

"Never mind." annur said.

"No I must know tell me, what others."

"So you mean to say you've forgotten about the way you were romancing me with your legs last night." Wait what? What did I just do. No wait for all I know, he could be lying.

He's Definitely not lying I know the way I sleep. And I warned him.

"What, me?, I can't remember doing that, can I?"

"Yea ask yourself again."

"Yeah and I warned you. "

I can't believe my sleeping habits are still with me, I can't sleep straight at the night, I must always move and when I say move I mean move my whole body, who knows what happened last night.

Although we are living in this big house, only the two of us and the workers but if any one could have heard what he was saying, they'll think I was drooling over him.

"I wasn't doing what ever you said I was I can remember clearly." I still denied.

"Oh you mean romancing me?."

"Stop it now, with the word."

"Why you don't like it. Haha when you were Roma.."

"Oh stop it annur"I said throwing a pillow at his face.

"Ouch that hurts." he touched his face smiling and I couldn't help but admire. Annur, is very handsome and seeing him laugh this way, with me, makes my heart beat faster and clench at the same time.

Because I knew it would soon end, so I better take what I can get. After all, it is for better or worse.

"Good for you" I smiled back as he stroked his hair backward.

Oh God. ..... If only......

"Aren't you going to work." I cleared my throat.

"Work?"

"Yes work."

"Have you forgotten that we just got married yesterday and we are suppose to be in our honeymoon now." dumb question hatina.

"Oh, really". "So where are we going for that."

"What?, you actually want to go."

"Of course yes, you said it yourself, so we should do it.". I'm not going to let myself drown here just because I got married, I want to see place and our honeymoon seems like the best way to get it.

"No I don't want to." He said coldly. Well the real Annur is back.

"You have to please, except you don't want me tell mom that you don't want us to go for our honeymoon and that you've been depriving me of my right."

"Are you blackmailing me hatina farouk." he c****d his brows clearly amazed.

Hatina farouk? I hoped for him to say hatina annur Abubabar, well I won't get my hopes high, I guess he hasn't gotten used to it yet or never would.

"Call it whatever you want, even if we didn't get married out of love, I should at least enjoy it." I said standing up from the bed. We both knew we got married forcefully, so there's no harm hiding it, and he has showed it countless times even though he didn't say, which I think he did.

He was quiet for a while as I took that as a yes and proceeded to the bathroom.

"Wait you said something about right." he spoke stopping me.

"Yes I did, I have rights, didn't you know."

"Oh okay.. Rights, I understand." He nods silently. Okay now what does he mean?

Complicated man!

I went to the bathroom had my normal duty and came out.

"Annur I want to come out now, can you go out please."

"What, I should get out, why?"

"Because I have to get dressed and I'm just in a towel," I said shouting from the bathroom's door. He keeps shut for a while. He can't possibly expect him to start showing my body to him so easily. I know he's my husband and all but its not that easy. Annur doesn't have feelings for me to feel comfortable to open my body to him at least not now.

"Okay fine I'll go, but Call me back when you're done." He spoke.

I came out, thank God he was gone already. I took out a brown fitted skirt reaching past my knee and a white crop top with it, then picking my abaya next to it and wore them except for my abaya because today was kind of hot and I didn't want to kill myself because of heat and by the way it only i, my husband, and workers that rarely stay in the house.

Annur said the workers only came Monday - Friday and works really early on Saturday and Sundays so that means they won't be around by now and am free to move about with my skirt and crop top."

"Ya Allah I have to cook for annur, agh he must think I'm a terrible wife."

I hurried outside of the room to go to the kitchen.

"Hey, am done."

"Ohh.... Ok...ay" he stammered.

I couldn't quite guess what was the reason for his stutter and annur doesn't do that not like me though. I pushed it aside as I went to the kitchen.

I opened the cupboards one after another looking for what to cook.

I finally saw spaghetti so I decided to make spaghetti and fish stew with deserts.

Everything was almost ready when a sharp pain arrived at my finger.

"Subhanallah." I screamed

I had burnt myself, so much for me making break fast. Immediately it was red, I wanted to go and put an ointment but I had to finish what I was doing.

I finished all I was doing and set them on the table, then saw annur coming over. He wore a black jean with a white long sleeved top looking really nice or rather hot. I stared a bit, then averted my gaze before he starts teasing me again.

"What happened, I heard you scream."

"No it was nothing, I prepared food come and eat."

"Are you sure it was nothing cause it sounded like there was, and I hope its not poison you Cooked here." He raises his head up looking at me intently. God this guy is impossible. Does he really think I'm gonna kill him? Oh even if I wanted to get back at him for all the stress he's put me through, its definitely not the way.

"Why don't you taste it and see, then if it kills you sorry." I replied

"Lady you know you have a really good sense of humor." He smirks while shoving one hand into his pocket jean. Oh how I'm loving what I'm seeing.

That's the perk of marrying a hot and handsome man even if we're not in love I do get to see some really nice body.

SubhanaAllah what's wrong with me today, why I'm I suddenly gawking over him. Well I don't care now he's my husband so it ain't a sin anymore.

"Oh I know." I avert my gaze away because of his intense stare.

"What happened to your finger." He ask looking down at my finger. How did he see that. God this man is too observant I tell you.

"oh um.. I burnt it while cooking."

"Hatina" he yelled my name and I shook where I was "and you said it was nothing." He said sounding furious. Yes I said so because it was nothing I'm used to it, when you cook a lot it becomes normal and why is he getting all caring again.

"I didn't think it was anything." I said to annur. I just don't understand him sometime he acts like he cares and thenhe could just change at a second.

"I'll be right back." He says while he goes upstairs. He gets back coming with a first aid kit.

"Give me your hand."he ask politely.

"I can do it." I resist but he just stares at me like he's furious at the same time hurt that I hurt myself. why will he be its just a small cut.

"Don't be stubborn now." He said and didn't listen to me, taking my hand to his. The moment was fast and I couldn't resist anymore, the way he held my hand I felt at home, i felt like I have never been held before, overall it felt good. I just stared at him while he opened the kit and continued to imagine what it will be like if we were really together.

I don't know why I'm thinking about this today maybe its because I've never really had someone care like this for me or maybe because he's hot . But is he really caring or its all part of his plan after all he said he was going to make me regret it.

"Ouch" I said as he rubbed the ointment on my finger ,caressing my hands more slowly, making butterflies patch up in my stomach.

If we met on different circumstances, I could fall for him.

"You see it hurts, am sorry." He said apologetically. Why is he sorry, its not his fault.

"It wasn't your fault". I tell him raising my head up while he does the same. You see what I'm saying its those little things that make me weak, the way he stares at me with something I can not read In his eyes.

"Next time be more careful" he said breaking the gaze leaving my hands and going back to the table. Now he's back to he's Mr no nonsense.

I stood next to him waiting for him to test the food.

"What are doing." He asks with food in his mouth while raising his brows

"Standing." I replied.

"Why."

"I want to know if you like the food."

" well it's Nice, better than I expected." He said looking at me from head to toe, his eyes diverting to places on my body.

Pervert!

"Are you checking me out." I smirk.

"Well no... Y... Yes, you look nice almost breath taking, but you know anyone can come in and I don't want them to see you this way, its...um" he search for his words before speaking again "Inappropriate." He concluded.

"Yes I know that. Wait did you just compliment me?"

"Whatever, think what you want." Well that just brightened my mood.