Attempt At Happiness (2)
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Chapter 17: Attempt At Happiness (2)
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One day, reality set in once again just to remind me that life isn’t simple and nobody gets a happy ending just like that…
“What are you talking about?” I asked with a confused voice, I actually felt like the blood was drained from my body at that moment.
“I’m sorry Lois… I was told to let you go.” My editor in chief Richard said with a pained expression. He seemed to be just as frustrated and disappointed as I was. No, maybe even a bit more… Since at that moment I was so confused by what happened that I couldn’t completely grasp the situation.
I was being fired… He fired me… I’ve worked for this company for so many years and in the end this happens…
“Can you at least give me a reason?” I asked while still holding onto a hope that something was going to change.
“…Haley Williams made very strange accusations about you. Said you harassed her and touched her inappropriately.” Richard explained to me.
“T-that’s impossible! You know about my condition! Everyone in the office knows!” I replied, at this point I managed to at least speak my mind. Because of my mysophobia I can barely touch objects much less other people! It would be impossible for me to lay a finger on her, so where did all this come from?!
“I know that!” Richard yelled as if to tell me to shut up. “I do… but who do you think they’ll believe? Her or us? It’s obvious…”
“I see…” The situation was such that no matter what I said or did it wouldn’t do anything productive. Since Haley Williams decided to ruin me, she did it with a few words… Pathetic, isn’t it? A twenty seven year old man was being completely ruined by an 18 year old girl’s baseless accusations.
I felt like the entire world was ending at that moment.
“I’ll have to ask you to pack your things and leave… Lois…” Richard said as he turned away, I bet he was having trouble looking at me in this situation. It was the worst thing that could happen to me given how hard I’ve worked to be in the position I’m in.
“Alright…” I answered and went back to my desk to do as I am told. What other choice did I have anyways? If this was it then there is nothing to be done…
I spend years of my life devoted to my work and now it’s all over…
Even more so, with my mysophobia, there aren’t too many places I could work instead. It was like I’m being pushed into a corner and I didn’t even know why.
I didn’t even feel like asking Haley herself about the reasoning she said that. If I were to speak with her right now than I’d probably get blamed with even more serious charges.
I also understand Richard’s point of view, he knows I’m not guilty but he’s firing me so that Haley won’t press charges. It’s the only thing he can do for me and I’m still grateful for working under such a great man as Richard…
I just can’t help but wish it was different, I can’t help but wish I wasn’t born this way… My mysophobia never gave me anything in this life, it only took away…
It took away any potential friends or relationships I could have…
It took away opportunities and jobs…
It took away so much from me that I can’t even begin to explain…
That day I just went back home and laid on my bed. I didn’t even bother moving for hours. It was the worst day in my life… I time I don’t wish to remember…
I was so frustrated at what happened but even more at myself…
That day I found out just how insignificant I was to the company and everyone around me. I wasn’t anyone special just someone that managed to get by in life one step at a time.
So now… What am I?
Even less than I was before… I was no longer an editor…
I no longer had something to look forward to each day, nor anyone to rely on…
Kane’s face suddenly flashed through my mind. I decided to call him. After several rings he picked up the phone. “Hello… Kane…”
“Who is this?” He asked with a stern voice.
“It’s Lois, didn’t you recognize me?” I answered in slight confusion. He was acting strange but I guess it was just my luck because that day he completely dumped me.
“Lois… I didn’t have the chance to tell you this in the office. But it’s time for us to break up.” Kane’s voice sounded cold and serious, so much I could barely recognize him.
“What are you talking about? Didn’t you say you love me?!” I asked with my voice breaking. I knew he wasn’t the type to joke around with these things, so if he was saying it then it was for real.
“I’m the only one who’s been saying it… While you never said you loved me, not once for all this time…” Kane continued in his cold voice.
“But… I do… I just haven’t said it… until now…” I knew he was right, I hadn’t uttered those words. Even though I’ve heard Kane repeat it over and over again, I still couldn’t say it. What was holding me back? Even in such a situation where those words might have helped just a little bit. I was still unable to admit my own feelings towards him…
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