Fragile Happiness (MxM)

Attempt At Happiness (1)

Chapter 16: Attempt At Happiness (1)

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“I’m really sorry… I can’t hold back anymore…” Kane said with a gaze that seemed filled with lust as he kissed me without any hesitation.

“Hmp!” Pulling my body closer to his, I could feel my breath falling short. The kiss felt good as always but it was a little bit different, it was more passionate, more intense… It was as if Kane was desperate to have me, as if he was trying to devour me.

He brings me back to his room and pushes me onto the bed. I fall on my back and feel a dim shock come over me. “S-slow down, I seriously don’t think I can do this!” I try to reason with him but he doesn’t seem like he’s about to stop.

Pulls me in for another kiss that makes me close my mouth reflexively: “Mhp! Mhmm… Mm…” My vision grew blurry from the intense heat that I was feeling. In a way I wanted to make him stop but I also wanted him to continue, because I’d never felt like this before.

After our lips parted and I felt saliva drip drop my mouth, it was probably mixed in with Kane’s as well. But somehow I didn’t feel like brushing it away with the palm of my hand, I simply let it sit there. I guess I was distracted by Kane’s bulge that I somehow couldn’t stop staring at.

“Ugh…” Kane groaned as he looked at me, “Could you… press your tights together…” He asked as he swiftly removed my pants. I guess he was even more turned on than I was at that moment.

“Huh?” I was having a bit of a hard time understanding what he wanted me to do. I pressed my tights together as he said and I watched as he took out his d**k from his briefs.

If it was anyone else’s I would have thought that was the most disgusting thing I’d ever seen. Not to mention Kane’s d**k is also incredibly large, I doubt that could fit anywhere… but why did I also think it was sexy? I guess it’s because it’s the man I’ve fallen in love with because if it was anyone else I would have vomited already.

Kane puts his d**k in between my tights and begins rubbing it back and forward. I was lying on my back and I could see everything. The way he desperately moved as if he was in heat, his expression of longing like this was something he’d waited a while for and… the place where both of us are touching that brought both heat and strange excitement each time he moved.

Kane was not only rubbing between my tights but also onto my own member. I could barely keep conscious of everything that was happening.

“Are you alright? Can I go faster?” Kane suddenly asked after a while, I guess it wasn’t enough stimulation for him.

“Y-yes…” I said with a hesitant voice. As much as it was difficult for me to admit it, I liked it a lot. What he was doing and the way he was acting, I wondered if this was how normal couples feel like. I guess I felt normal for a bit.

He began moving a bit faster, still rhythmically going in and out. The heat started building up further, Kane bent forward and bit my shoulder. “Ouch…” I exclaimed in slight pain. He then moved to kiss my lips again.

His hair was wet with sweat and his bangs were covering his handsome face, I moved my hand to put aside his bangs. Kane had a handsome face in general but now that I see him in bed, his face turns all the more handsome, to the point he becomes unquestionably erotic. Even his cheeks were reddened, while his wet lips were already slightly swollen from all the kissing.

“No… agh! Ahh…” Only moans escaped my lips each time I opened my mouth. Even if I wanted to hold them back it wasn’t possible.

Kane continued thrusting into me again and again and even though he wasn’t inside, I still felt like I was about to cry. Honestly I can’t imagine that huge thing entering me.

He sucked on my chest, and even though I thought I wasn’t at all sensitive there, when Kane touched me those same places began heating up. The amount of pleasure I was feeling, far exceeded the fear I had of being dirtied. Or was because it was Kane that was doing all this to me, that I didn’t feel he was dirty at all?

It was strange but it felt endlessly good. “Aaa~ Ahh! ghh~” I continued moaning without meaning to. It seemed to motivate Kane to move even faster in and out, until he was finally finished…

I could feel my entire body trembling once I climaxed. The feeling was simply indescribable.

Afterwards we just hugged for a while without saying anything. Even that silence seemed comforting to me somehow.

I guess that was the moment I realized what I felt towards this man was way more than just ‘like’…

Spending more time with him was comfortable. I didn’t hate it, as a matter of fact I really enjoyed the conversations we had.

Gradually we began talking about things that weren’t related to work at all… I felt like I had someone to turn to for the first time in my life.

As you might have expected we continued with the shock therapy and I began touching more things without my gloves on. Even managing to hold my urge to wash them for longer periods of time. It took months… I even visited the clinic his sister worked for before.

I never imagined something like this would happen but…

Going out with another person, enjoying the time spend together, eating at restaurants… It all felt so new and strange to me, like I had never actually managed to live my life up until now…

I was always holed up in my room or at the office. I would have never thought I’d be spending my days off with another man like this…

Even more so… I never imagined I would be this happy…

Finally not being imprisoned by my hatred and fear of being contaminated, I felt like I really was free when I was around Kane.

For that short period of time we spend together… I was the happiest I’d ever been.

But you know… Life often brings misfortune in times of great happiness…