Fragile Happiness (MxM)

Truth Be Told (2)

Chapter 15: Truth Be Told (2)

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Kane went on that date with Haley, I still haven’t asked him about how it went. I know I was the one that made him go and that he didn’t want to… I know it’s none of my business to ask him about what they talked about, but I would lie if I said I didn’t care.

After all… he’s the first relationship I’ve ever had so I feel like I want to do everything right. And at the same time I can’t help but feel strange about the date and I want to ask him about it… What should I do…

“You seem worried about something…” Kane remarked as we were walking back to my place.

“Um… I was…” I hesitated to speak and he noticed that quickly.

“Is it about the date? I’ll tell you how it went if you want to.” Kane said with a smile on his face. This guy seems to read me like a book. I feel like he really understands me even if I don’t say much.

“So…?” Is all I said and then Kane went into grave detail about everything that happened.

 Long story short: It wasn’t an interesting date but at least Haley enjoyed herself.

“Oh… and also I told her I was in a relationship.” Kane said at the vey end of his story.

“You said what?” I instantly asked.

“Don’t worry about it, I never said it was you but if I hadn’t told her that I had someone, she would have never given up.” Kane explained but that only made me worry more.

“The Hell are you talking about… she might be angry at me now.” Of course I panicked, anyone would in my place.

“I told you it’s fine… She’s a very agreeable person, I doubt she’ll do anything just because I can’t answer her feelings.” Kane continued  as he opened the door to his apartment. I was so focused on the conversation that I hadn’t noticed when we arrived here.

“Haley might act all sweet with you but when it comes to me she isn’t as kind…” I said as I took my shoes off, at this point going to Kane’s apartment had become a regular thing for me.

We’ve already been dating for several months. I guess I just got so used to everything that I don’t feel disgusted anymore. Not to mention he keeps his apartment surprisingly clean.

“Do you want to drink something?” He asked as he took his tie off, we just got off of work so both of us were still in our suits.

“Tea please… Also is it fine if I shower first?” I asked out of simple courtesy, I knew he wouldn’t mind at all.

“Sure, I have fresh towels in the shower, chose whichever you’d like.” Kane said as he began preparing tea. He seemed to be in a good mood. I guess I was also in a good mood for some reason.

Our relationship was progressing smoothly. I felt like everything was suddenly falling into place. For a man like me who’s never experienced love in my twenty seven years, finding a perfect lover like Kane was exceptional luck.

Most women would kill to be with him and here I am having him all to myself. I kind of want to show him off but since we’re both guys, that is probably not going to happen.

*** After I shower I wrap one of the towels around my waist then go into the living room where he is.

“You came out fast? I thought you’d stay there for a while longer…” Kane stops after he looks at me.

“Is something wrong?” I asked with a confused expression, the truth is that I intentionally walked out half naked in front of him. Because I wanted him to do something… I mean I’m a man after all. Even though I’m germophobic I do still masturbate sometimes, well when it’s completely necessary…

Truly doing something as dirty as s*x never crossed my mind before but I have no idea why I thought that I’d be fine with it as long as it’s with Kane. I guess I really am going mad…

“You should cover up, you’ll catch a cold.” Kane said as he stood up from the sofa and moved toward me. He seemed to be hesitant to touch me for some reason.

“Hey…” I said as I took his hand in mine then pressed it on my face. His hand felt so warm and reassuring, while mine was still cold as ice as it usually is. “…I guess you didn’t get the hint… dummy…”

“Hint?” Kane seemed to be confused.

I looked up at him, making eye contact as I moved his hand down to my chest. “…I want to do these kind of things with you.” Like a complete child I wasn’t able to say it clearly. I want to have s*x with you. Isn’t exactly something I could imagine myself saying with a straight face.

 “A-are you sure?” Kane stuttered for what seemed to be the first time. I’d never heard him hesitate like this.

“I’m sure.” I replied quickly then wrapped my arms around his broad shoulders. Usually I wouldn’t even be able to come so close to another person, not to mention touch them. However now it’s all possible because of Kane, I feel really grateful to him for all the time we spend together.

“Then… I’m sorry…” Kane suddenly apologized and I had zero idea why but I found out soon enough. He grabbed my hand and lead me to the bedroom. Then as if the blood rushed to my brain I finally realized what I had just gotten myself into… I was actually going to sleep with him.

Up until now we hadn’t done much than kiss and occasionally a hand job which I thoroughly washed my hands after several times. But now it was all different, what we were about to do was much dirtier than anything we’ve done until now. So of course I panicked again and tried to back out. “O-on second thought, maybe we could do something simple… like oral…” I suggested.

“I’m really sorry… I can’t hold back anymore…” Kane said with a gaze that seemed filled with lust as he kissed me without any hesitation…