EPISODE 13
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Chapter 13 – Her Secret
Skyler's POV*
"Someone please! Get me out of here!"
"Mommy! Why are you doing this to me?"
"I am not your mom! Sinugatan mo ang anak ko kaya ka andiyan!"
"I swear mom! It's not my fault!"
"Mabulok ka diyan!"
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon dahil naalala ko na naman ang insidenteng iyon. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang tumutulong pawis mula sa aking noo. I am catching my breath at feeling ko hindi na ako humihinga.
Nanginginig pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. I still couldn't forget what happened to me in the P.R. with the Student Council. Nanginginig ako sa takot, kaba, at galit.
I opened my eyes. White ceilings....dextrose...for sure nasa clinic ako. Ilang beses na nga ba akong napunta rito? Pwede na ba akong kumuha ng suki card for discount?
"Buti naman at gising ka na," napalingon ako sa babaeng nagsalita only to find out it was Gianna. Kakapasok pa lang niya sa clinic and I can say she was really stressed.
"Hindi ko na isinama si Jahara dito dahil ayoko siyang mag-alala. Sinisisi niya kasi ang sarili niya sa nangyari sayo ngayon," sagot niya sa akin. Bakit niya naman sisisihin ang sarili niya eh kagustuhan ko naman itong nangyari sa akin? That stupid nerdy.
"Why are you afraid to show others what you truly feel?" tanong ni Gianna. Okay, that was a random question.
"Everyone's afraid of showing their true feelings. Aren't you afraid?" I asked. I'm not afraid of showing my feelings, but I rather keep it.
"I am. I am afraid of rejections and disapproval. I'm afraid of getting hurt, and I'm afraid I might hurt somebody because of my feelings," she answered. Umupo siya sa tabi ko. "But that doesn't mean that I have to wear a mask and build walls around me. Sometimes, all you need is the courage to speak what your heart feels. Be brave."
"What are you trying to say?" I asked. Damn, hindi ko alam kung ano ang ire-react ko sa words of wisdom niya.
"When you showed us that you don't give a fvck, we thought you don't really care. Now I realized I got you mistaken at first kasi akala ko wala ka talagang pakialam sa amin but then seeing how you sacrificed for Jahara, I know you care—"
"I care for you guys," I said and looked away. Hindi talaga ako sanay mag-drama but I can't help it. "Why can't you understand the efforts I made on pushing you away? I care, alright. That's why I don't want you close to me."
When people want a person to feel loved, they send cards, gifts, hugs, and kisses. But when people don't want to get hurt and hurt someone, they push people away. Whichever type of person you are among those two, you still care. The only difference is the way you show your feelings, the way you care.
"Now go away before I regret pushing you," malamig at madiin na sabi ko. Tumango naman si Gianna and a tear fell from her eye. Agad niya itong pinunasan at ngumiti ng mapait.
"Nang dahil sa ginagawa mo, instead of making people feel that someone care for them, you're just hurting them even more," sabi niya at lumabas ng kwarto ko.
Someday Gianna, you will understand.
Tahimik lang ako sa loob ng clinic at nakasimangot dahil ayoko talaga sa amoy. I don't want the smell of medicine, I don't want to be in a hospital or in a clinic, I really hate it.
"She was fine! What are you ranting about?" rinig kong sabi ng isang pamilyar na boses ng babae sa labas ng clinic. It seems like she was in a fight with someone.
"She nearly died of because of what you did," sagot ng isang nakakakilabot na boses. It sounds like Ferrer! Who is he arguing with? "And you always know that only those who killed someone should be placed in there. Are you insane?"
"Wala akong ginawa, okay? I mean, wala pa akong ginawa! I just placed her there!" sabi ng babae. Damn, why am I eavesdropping again?
"Exactly, you locked her there, Kate. You almost killed her," sagot ni Ferrer. So he was arguing with Kate! Ako ba pinag-uusapan nila?
"I'm glad you're awake," isang malamig na boses ang bumati sa akin. Isang lalaki ang nakasandal sa pader habang walang emosyong nakatitig sa akin.
Napaayos naman ako ng upo. I just realized na nakadikit na pala ang tenga ko sa dingding at nakikinig na sa usapan nila. Hindi ako sumagot sa sinabi niya.
"Eavesdropping again, huh?" he said and smirked at me. I rolled my eyes.
"Hindi ah, my ears just want to feel the hardness of the wall," I answered. He just looked at me and rolled his eyes. Seriously, inirapan niya ako?
Tinignan ko ang kabuuan ko. Ayokong nakikita ako sa ganitong kalagayan. I even heard na siya raw ang nag-rescue sa akin and I guess he is just fulfilling what I told him to do. I thank him but I really hate the way he stares at me.
"Don't look at me like that," walang ganang sabi ko sa kanya. He raised his right eyebrow.
"How do I look at you?" tanong niya. I laughed bitterly at tinignan ang kalagayan ko.
"Don't pity me," matigas na sabi ko. Ayokong kinaaawaan ako. Aanhin ko naman ang awa nila kung tinitignan lang naman nila ako?
May kinuha siya sa bulsa niya and he handed me my phone. At first I doubted kung phone ko ba talaga pero nang makita ko ang wallpaper na panda ay agad kong kinuha ito. Oh my gosh! Phone alam kong hindi mo talaga ako iiwan!
"Aren't you going to say thanks?" he asked. I looked at him after checking my lovely phone.
"For keeping my phone? Nope. Wala," I said and rolled my eyes to tease him. Honestly I want to thank him for having my phone. Because I won't risk my life na pumunta ulit sa Dark Forest makuha lang ang phone ko. Never!
"How rude," sabi niya. I rolled my eyes.
"Look who's talking," I answered. I smirked at him. "It's still your duty since I know a piece of information." nakangiting sabi ko sa kanya. He grinned at me widely at naasar ako doon pero hindi ko pinahalata iyon.
"Well, not anymore," sabi niya and flashed that annoying grin in his face. Kumunot naman ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. Anong ibig niyang sabihi—
My eyes widen nang mapagtantong nasa kanya pala ang phone ko. Bakit sa lahat ng tao siya pa ang makakakita sa phone ko? Pwede namang si Ivan or si Kyle or pwedeng wala nalang?
"D-Did you opened my notes?" I asked nervously while scanning at my phone. My notes are my reminders that reminds me about the dosage of my medicine kasi madalas kong nakakalimutang uminom ng gamot.
I am suffering from an irrational and extreme fear of confined places. I am claustrophobic.
"Unfortunately, yes," he answered. I glared at him.
"Why did you open it?" I asked. s**t! I really don't want others to know it!
"I got curious," tipid na sagot niya.
"I can't believe you don't know how to respect someone's privacy," galit na sabi ko. Believe me, I'm trying to control myself. I'm not gonna lose my temper. I'M NOT!
"The intruder who invaded our dorm just talked," sagot niya. Note the sarcasm.
"Fvck you," sagot ko na lang. Wala akong magagawa dahil nabuksan na niya. I just hope he would shut his mouth.
"We're quits," Ferrer said. I crossed my arms and raised an eyebrow.
"Quits?"
"You have my secret and I have yours too," sagot niya. Is that even fair? Wala naman talaga akong alam sa sikreto nila eh, I'm just pretending.
"Nasan ang nurse dito? Gusto ko nang lumabas," sabi ko at pilit na tumayo. Ayokong kasama ang demonyong 'to! Naiinis ako sa kanya!
"Hintayin mo lang."
"Kanina pa ako naghihintay eh," inis na sagot ko.
"Stubborn brat," sabi niya na nakapagpataas ng kilay ko. Wow! Ako pa ngayon ang stubborn? Sorry perfect!
"Kaya ayoko dito eh because I'm with the childish jerk," sagot ko at inirapan siya. He is big enough to handle himself but he is too childish para makipag-away sa iba.
Well, I have to admit I'm childish too. Slight lang naman.
"Come on, you want me to tell others about your phob--"
"Shut up!" I shouted. You know what irritates me so much, it's because I'm careless! The tables just turned. Kung noon ako ang may hawak sa leeg niya, siya naman ang may hawak sa leeg ko ngayon.
Finally, pumasok na rin ang nurse. I glared at her kaya nag-hesitate siyang lumapit sa akin. Wow! Buti naman at buhay pa ang isang 'to at pinuntahan ako?
"Be kind to the nurse Lee kung gusto mo nang makalabas dito," Ferrer said. Seriously, the kind person just told me to be kind.
"Ang OA mo rin no? Wala naman akong ginawa sa kanya," iritang sagot ko. I just glared at her tapos hindi na ako kind?
"What about your glares?"
"Nakakapatay ba?" I asked with eyebrows raised.
"You look like a scary horror doll who scares a little girl," sabi niya. I rolled my eyes.
"Iyon lang naman pala eh," I said. "Nurse, anong tinatayo-tayo mo diyan? Hinihintay mong maging si Anabelle ako?"
"O-Opo, a-ah hindi po," sabi niya at lumapit sa akin habang nanginginig. That's right btch, fear me!
Tinanggal niya ang dextrose. Nilagyan niya ng bandage ang wrist ko na tinusukan ng injection pero tinanggal ko. Her eyes widen as if I just did the most horrible thing I can do.
"B-Bakit mo tinang--"
"Injection lang ang tinusok dun. Wag kang OA," sabi ko and rolled my eyes. Lumabas ako ng clinic. I thought magiging maayos na ang lahat ngunit biglang sumulpot sa harap ko si Renzo.
"Where do you think you're going?" he asked me. Don't tell me guguluhin na naman niya ang araw ko?
"Nakalimutan mo yatang may alam na ako? It would be unfair kung ikaw lang ang may condition diba?" nakangising tanong niya. Ano na naman bang balak ng isang 'to? Papansin ang pota.
"I won't tell everyone about your secret and I will leave you alo—"
"I should be the one asking for a condition and not you," sagot niya. Edi siya na! Siya na talaga!
"D-Di ba pwedeng pabayaan ko nalang kayo? Promise I won't tell anyone about your—"
"Then that would be unfair," sagot niya. Bakit ba walang tahimik na parte sa buhay ko? Tsaka pansin ko lang, palagi niyang pinuputol ang mga salita ko! Eh kung putulin ko kaya dila niya bwisit siya!
"A-Anong gusto mo?" tanong ko at umiwas ng tingin. Tumingin siya sa akin na para bang nag-iisip. Please..sana madali lang ang hingin niyang pabor.
Someone help me get out of this mess! I can sell my kidneys. Kung walang bibili, edi wala na akong choice kundi ibenta ang katawan ko! Just please help me!
Chos, ang OA Sky.
"I really find you like a puzzle. Your claustrophobia, that is the only piece I have. You are like a mystery to me, I know everything written in your Student Form is a lie. I can't even find a single info," sabi niya. Napalunok ako ng laway. Gosh, sana sinabi niya sa akin na stalker ko pala siya para sabihin ko sa kaniya ang sss name ko. Sus, ang dami kong likers!
"Get straight to your point, Renzo." sabi ko sa kanya.
"I'm curious about you. I was thinking about making you tell your story but that would be boring. So I want you to be my girlfriend," casual na tanong niya. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya. This jerk!
"Wow, you had a hard time chasing her and now you want me to be your girlfriend," I said and rolled my eyes. "Sorry but even though Kate is a b***h I don't want to betray her. Mahal mo siya and I'm not interested."
"Not everything you see is true," sagot niya na siyang dahilan ng pagkunot ng noo ko. Ano na naman bang pinagsasabi ng abno na 'to?
"Plus, you can't say no so prepare yourself," sabi niya at naglakad palayo. Naiwan akong nakatayo doon. I still can't believe everything.
I can't read him. Ano na naman ba ang binabalak niya? What's your next move? You would break my heart dahil yun ang deal niyo sa pustahan niyo? Then that's cliché! Duuh, ang title sa story na 'to is Verzalias High at hindi Break the Pretty Girl's Heart.
"Pakyu!" sigaw ko and raised my middle finger. I just hope he heard it.
(end of chapter)
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