My Abusive Alpha Mate

Chapter 5

Sebastian POV

I slammed my phone down on my desk. This is all my fault. She has amnesia and she was begging me to come back. I don't understand why she would want to come back to me.

I actually do love Ember, but there have been multiple things that have gone on that have made me turn this way.

(Luna Ceremony)

I looked at my beautiful mate. She was amazing, and she was going to be an amazing Luna. She already knows most of the pack by name. She is putting me to shame, I don't know that many.

But that's alright, that is what a Luna is supposed to do. Love and be a mother to the pack.

Mother. I cannot wait until we are parents.

I love her so very much.

But it didn't stay like that for long.

I woke up one day to my phone ringing.

"Hello?" I sounded groggy.

"Ah hello, son." I froze. My father. I haven't heard from him in years.

My father is not the previous Alpha Trey. Alpha Trey was my mentor who took me under his wing. My father is the person who abused me and his mate. He finally left, which left mom heartbroken. She later committed suicide.

"What do you want?"

"Well, I found out that you are an Alpha now. Don't you think you should thank me?"

"Thank you? I grew up an orphan because of you."

"You're welcome. Now I also found out that you have a mate."

"Don't you touch her or go anywhere near her."

"Oh, no son. I don't want her. I just wanted to tell you that she is cheating on you."

"That's not possible, I would have felt it."

"Oh really? I happen to know that in order for you, an Alpha, to feel it you have to be marked. You are not marked are you son?"

I thought about it. No, I am not.

"She is making you weak. Your pack rank is slipping because of her. I have seen how she acts and I can't believe you put up with such embarrassing behavior."

I hung up on him. I didn't need to hear more.

I went downstairs. She was cooking breakfast like normal.

"Morning babe, breakfast is on the table. I'm just getting the drinks and waiting for the boys."

I just ignored her and went to the table and starting eating. She came behind me and started rubbing my shoulders. I took everything I had in me not to relax and tell her how much I love her and I love this.

"What's wrong honey? Why aren't you talking to me?" I took a bite and shrugged her hands off of me, which was really hard to do because she has a magic touch.

This next part was also going to be hard to do.

"Ember are you trying to poison me? Is this what you call food?" I spit out the pancake I was eating and threw my plate at her. She quickly ducked to avoid it, and it shattered against the cupboard behind her.

"Bash! What the hell?!? What the hell is wrong with you today? You are being a total jerk."

I love that nickname. And I love how fiery she gets. But I won't have it anymore.

"Don't call me that! It is Alpha to you! And I wouldn't be this way if I had a good mate." I made sure to keep my composure.

"W-what?"

"You heard me. If I got a good mate I would be fine. But instead, I got a slut like you, who can't have my kids, can't cook, can't clean, and can't even wake her mate up in the morning. Why would the goddess put someone like me with someone like you? It's pathetic."

Some of what I said is true. She hasn't gotten pregnant yet and it has been nearly a year since we completed the mating process. I left her to deal with the mess in the kitchen. I went for a run to clear my head and then went to work.

A few hours later I looked out of my window to see my beautiful mate gardening with the rest of the women. She was amazing.

Why did she have to go and ruin what we had and cheat on me?

I decided to go outside, so we could talk.

I looked down at her dirt covered form. She could even make wearing dirt look beautiful. But, I had to finish what I set out to do. I nodded towards the pack house. Turning I went to my office.

I shut the door once she was inside. I saw her gulp and I could hear her erratic heartbeat.

"What was that?" I demanded. I had no clue what I was talking about yet.

"What do you mean Alpha?"

Ah, the dirt! I can try and convince her about that.

"You were embarrassing me down there. How would people react when they see that their Luna is covered in dirt socializing?"

"But Alpha, I was gardening. Everyone was covered in dirt."

True. But then I remember what I always heard. Alphas and Lunas are supposed to be different and set an example for the pack.

"You are the Luna you aren't supposed to be like everyone else."

"I'm sorry Alpha. I'll be better." I almost went to her saying that I was sorry for all of this.

"Well, as long as you are in here we can discuss your new rules."

She nodded. I didn't want her to do that, I want to hear her say the words that she should say to me. I roughly pulled her hair back.

"Rule 1 always answer me with words."

"Yes, Alpha."

"Very good that is Rule 2.

Rule 3, you do anything and everything I tell you without back talk or attitude.

Rule 4, I do whatever I please. You are no longer my mate. So if I want to sleep around or mate with someone else I will. You are not to oppose or to intervene. You are now just a maid.

Rule 5, you say nothing but 'Yes Alpha' to me. You are not worth my time.

Your responsibilities include making me every meal exactly how I like it. If I have guests you will be responsible for taking care of them as well. You are basically my servant, nothing more but so much less.

If you disobey me in any way I will beat your dumb head until you are within death's reach. Am I clear?"

Suddenly being mean and cruel was really easy. I do not know what happened, but I was even starting to enjoy the power I was getting.

"Yes, Alpha."

"Good. Now go get me lunch."

"What would you like Alpha?"

"Excuse me Ember, what was Rule 5?"

"My apologizes Alpha, but how can I please you the most if I don't know what you want?"

"You call yourself my mate when you don't know me. Get out of my sight."

She left and I could see that she was crying. But I didn't care.

Ever since that day, I didn't really care for her like I used to. I could easily beat her and it would be almost fun for me.

The night I sold her was the hardest of my life. Even though I didn't care for her my wolf did. He was always yelling at me that I was wrong, she never cheated and we were actually becoming stronger because of her. Now we are weak.

I didn't believe him. Then why didn't she mark me?

'Because females don't mark the males dumbass' My wolf spoke to me.

But my father-

'Your father is wrong and just wants you to be weak'

We've had this conversation before but I didn't listen. Now, it's different, she's gone.

My wolf said that he would rather her be with Mason than be with me. Because of all the times I have hurt her.

And since then I have noticed that even the happiest of Alpha couples don't have a mark on the male's neck. When I once asked a pair why she had not marked him they laughed and said I was funny. But then when they saw I was serious they explained that no one did that. It was being sexist but the females mark will disappear after a while so we just don't do it to save us some pain.

So now I feel like the most idiotic person in the world. And I have no one. Which I learned was my father's real intention.

I feel nothing anymore. I have so little to live for. I have thought about suicide but it would just give him satisfaction.

When she was begging me on the phone I wanted nothing less than to run to her and hold her. Tell her I am sorry and just hold her forever. I want to get her back and treat her like the queen she is.

And I may have the ability to do so because I know something no one else does.

He is not her real second chance mate. It isn't possible. There are no second chance mates and he said he smelt her at the Luna ceremony. The only way they could be together and she could be his second chance mate is it she had rejected me or I had died before meeting Mason.

I don't know what he wants with my mate, but I will go against him in order to get what I want, or rather who I want.

I love you Ember and I will fight until my last breath to show you that.