My Abusive Alpha Mate

Chapter 4

We got on our plane, and it was an adventure, to say the least. For some reason, we were in two

different sections and so when I was up front, he was a few seats behind me. The flight was

awful, he growled basically the entire flight which was three hours. No one but werewolf could

hear, but he did it nonetheless

I was sat next to a man a little older than me, but he was still pretty good looking. Mason hated

that I was sat next to a man. He asked if he could switch with me, but the flight attendant

refused. So Mason snarled at her when her back was turned and never took his eyes off of us.

The man, Andrew, started a conversation with me and we carried it on for about an hour until he

accidentally fell asleep on my shoulder. I was just going to leave him because I didn't want to be

rude, but Mason came by and pushed his head off of my shoulder. And Mason made sure to tell

Andrew it was him.

They then got into a fight, and when Mason went to talk to me Andrew 'protected' me from him.

He kept blocking Mason's view of me and telling him to not bother me. They both got in major

trouble with the airline and I am in major trouble with Mason.

Currently, we are on our way to the packhouse. He said we are going to stop there so he can

check in with his Beta then go to our house. He hasn't said a word to me since we got off the

plane. I am getting really worried.

"Mason?"

His grip tightened on the steering wheel. "What?" He said between his teeth.

"A-are you upset a-at m-me?"

"What did I tell you about stuttering?" He raised his voice slightly. "Answer me!" He loudly

snapped.

"Y-y-you s-said t-to s-s-stop. I-I-I'm sorry." I started crying and rolled up into a ball. I didn't want

to get 'punished' it always hurt. Some people think I am weak, but when you have been through

what I have then I wouldn't call it weak, I would call it survival.

He groaned. "Stop crying. Why the heck are you crying?"

"I-I disappointed you and I don't want to get punished sir." I said in between my sniffles. I was

trying hard not to bawl my eyes out, but my attempts were failing. I felt the car stop and he got

out of the car. I didn't move, I was too afraid. I heard my door and I ducked my head in between

my arms, to keep from getting hit.

He picked me up bridal style and I found myself unintentionally leaning into his chest. He gave

me a sense of comfort and safety that I have been craving for quite a while now.

"Now little one, did you actually think I was going to hit you? And don’t lie.”

"Y-yes. I-I was really scared. When you said punish then I thought about what he used to do to

me and I thought that you would turn out to be the same way."

"Kitten, I will never hit you the way he did."

"Then what did you mean by punish me?"

"I meant that you would have to do extra chores or skip something fun."

"You are treating me like a little child."

"I'm just getting practice for our children." My eyes widened.

"W-when d-do y-y-you want k-kids?"

"As soon as possible."

As soon as possible? That means he will want to complete the mating process soon and want me

to get pregnant within like a month.

I started breathing heavy. Me? A mom? I don't think I could be a mother. I would be terrible. I

lost my own mom so I can't talk to her about it and I feel so lost. Dad wouldn't want to talk about

mom. And what about Mason's parents?

Oh gosh. Would they like me? What are they like? Would they constantly judge me? Would they

hate me because I am not pure? What about my past? What if they don't think I'm good enough

to be a Luna?

The pack is going to hate me. I can already tell. They are going to think I'm weak and that I am

incapable of doing anything. Especially with Mason treating me like a child.

Tons of thoughts like this continued to run through my head. My breathing got heavier and

heavier while my head felt lighter and lighter. I started to get dizzy and felt like I wouldn’t be able to stand.

See? I told you that you are weak.

No. I cleared my head and pushed Mason away from me.

I ran in the opposite direction and ran up some stairs. I went into some random room and went into the bathroom there. I had locked both doors so hopefully, that will keep him busy for a little.

I frantically searched through all of the draws and cabinets until I found what I was looking for.

A razor. I haven't cut in a while, but I needed to now. I needed to get rid of the voices inside my

head.

Weak...

Slut...

Worthless...

Annoying...

Waste of space...

All of these names and more ran through my head.

I slashed my wrist multiple times, but the final one on my right wrist was vertical, right where

the artery vein is.

I started to feel a little dizzy but kept going. I started slashing my left wrist. I heard pounding on

the bathroom door, but I kept going. Mason broke the door down making me jump, unintentionally making a big cut in my left forearm.

I felt really lightheaded and my eyes really wanted to shut. I heard shouting around me, but I

couldn't understand a word of it. I finally drifted into the comforting arms of the blackness. I

hope I can stay here.

The blackness has always been there for me, comforted me when I was being abused and here

for me now, to relieve me of my pain. My mental, emotional, and physical pain. I hope I can stay

here forever and not have to go back to the hell I call life.

Beep

Beep

Beep

I groaned internally. I have to wake up and cook Alpha breakfast. I tried to open my eyes, I’m assuming I got a beating last night, but I can’t remember. My eyes are probably swollen. I wonder if I could get away with staying in bed today and playing dead.

He may actually care. I scoffed at the idea, he would only care because he would lose his

punching bag.

I tried again to open my eyes and it worked, but everything was super blurry. I blinked a few

times to get rid of the blurriness.

I was in a hospital room. I looked at my arms and they were heavily bandaged. I had an IV in my

arm and was hooked up to the heart monitor. Did Sebastian really bring me here? Wow. Well, I

better get up and get back to work.

I sat up and there was a man in the seat next to me. Of course, I needed a guard or I might be

able to run.

I tore out my IV and took all of the wires off. When I took the heart monitor one off it flatline

and was really loud. A few people rushed in. It looked like a doctor and three nurses. And the

man in the chair jumped up and was at my side immediately.

"Um, I'm sorry I didn't know it was going to do that. But I have to go now. Thank you for taking

care of me. I have to get to my mate he is probably worried by now."

The doctor and nurses looked at me then at the man next to me. I looked at him and he had a mix

of emotions. Sad, relieved, pained, and I couldn't identify the last one.

I got up and walked out of the room. And proceeded to walk out of the hospital. I looked around

this wasn't our territory.

I went back inside and up to the front desk.

"Ma'am, can I please use your phone?"

She nodded and motioned for me to come behind the desk. When I was back there she gave me

the phone and then went back to her work.

I dialed Sebastian's number and waited.

"Alpha Knightly." He answered. He sounded like he was just a shell.

"Alpha, it is me. I am really sorry about not being there right now. I don't know where I am

though. I was in the hospital but when I went to leave and come back to you and finish my

chores I found I wasn't in my territory."

"Ember." He sounded like he couldn't believe it was me.

"Yes Alpha?"

"Why are you calling me? You aren't mine anymore."

"What are you talking about Alpha I have always been yours."

"No, I sold you. And then you rejected me so you could mate with someone else who claims that

you are his second chance mate."

"Wh-what? I-I don't remember that. The last thing I remember is getting rightfully punished after

interrupting your 'fun' time."

"Ember that was almost six months ago."

"What? N-no. You're lying!" Tears started streaming down my face. "Please please tell me this is

just a cruel joke. I love you and I need you. I hate not being with you right now. Not doing what I

should be. Not being the mate you want and deserve. I'm sorry you can punish me as much as

you want, but I want to be with you."

By the end of that, I was full on sobbing. The nurse that was next to me was now nowhere near.

He sighed. "Ember I sold you. You aren't mine anymore. Now I have things to do. I can't keep

wasting my time on you." He hung up. I slowly put the phone down.

Why can I not remember the last six months? I started crying again.

I felt arms wrap around me and pull me into them. I was sitting on someone's lap. I just pressed

my face into their shoulder and cried.

What is happening to me? Why am I in the hospital? Who were those people? Especially that

man. What happened to my arms?

I sniffled and pulled away from whoever it was. I looked up and saw the man.

I blushed when I saw a huge wet spot in his shirt.

"I'm sorry about your shirt. I will clean it for you."

"No need to worry Ember, it is fine. But we should get you home now."

“Home?"

"Yes, home. But you should sleep on the way. You have tired yourself out today."

I did as he said and laid back in his arms to sleep.