Chapter 3
Paulit ulit na napaplay sa utak ko ang sinabi niya na para bang isang sirang plaka. What's wrong with me?
Hindi ko rin mapigilang tanungin ang sarili ko kung may nagbago ba talaga sakin. Sinubukan kong pakiramdaman ang sarili ko at sinubukan ring alalahanin ang mga bagay na ginagawa ko nitong mga nakaraang panahon.
As I think about, there were really nothing new. I am just being myself and acting like I usually do. And now, that's sounds so defensive. Noong oras na 'yon, nang makarinig ako ng mahihinang hikbi at alam ko rin naman kung kanino galing iyon, wala na akong nagawa kundi ang huminga na lang ng malalim at marahang pinihit ang doorknob saka lumabas ng walang paga-alinlangan.
Isa si Lean sa mga nagturo sa akin kung paano nga ba maging isang good pretender, totally! Tinuruan nila akong ngumiti, tumawa at iba pang ginagawa ng isang normal na gaya nila. Everything I do is measurable, and that made me wonder how I stick with janella for so long, or rather, how could she endure the long time being with me.
Ano bang nag bago sakin? Now, I am curious about Lean's basis on she said to me. Kung tutuusin para lamang akong isang laruan na walang sariling prinsipyo o pananaw sa mga bagay-bagay. Lahat ng mayroon sa akin ay mula sa mga impluwensiya ng mga taong nasa paligid ko.
Napabuntong hininga na lang ako dahil sa dami ng mga bagay na tumatakbo sa isipan ko at hindi ko namalayang napatulala na pala ako at saka lamang ako natauhan ng may papasok sanang estudyante sa loob ng elevator pero napatigil ng makita ako. Nagtatakang tinignan niya ako kaya mabilis akong yumuko at simpleng lumabas.
Andito na pala ako, 12th floor. Di ko man lang namalayan na huminto na pala ang elevator. Nag-mukha na yata akong baliw, yeah, crazy. Agad din namang napahinto ako sa paglakad papunta sa dorm na sinabi ni Lean.
Am I frustrated? Annoyed? I don't know, really. But, wait! Am I?
Pumunta na ako sa room 42 which is the dorm assigned for me. Meron daw akong makakasamang dalawang babae at dahil sa naalala kong iyong ay bigla akong nagdalawang isip kung tutuloy pa ba o hindi.
Nakalimutan kong sabihin kay Lean na dapat magisa lang ako sa isang dorm dahil sa ilang mga personal na bagay na dapat kong gawin na ako lamang ang dapat makakita, though there's Janella whom I used to be with but there's a huge difference between her and the girls I am going to live with here inside the dorm. With janella, I am confident to say that I am comfortable for I am used with her presence and she's used to me being weird but when it comes being with another people, I don't know but somehow, I admit that I don't like it.
Pero kung sabagay, dapat nga namang pare-pareho lang ang trato sa bawat estudyante dito sa loob ng academy. Pagpasok ko ay tumambad sa akin ang isang TV na naka on at may pagkain pa sa may maliit na table nila sa may pinakagitna ng kwarto. It's a mess, but not actually that mess.
"Surprise!"
Biglang may nagsalitang isang babaeng may maliit na buhok na kulay yellow. And i can say that she's really beautiful, she have a green eyes and err. . . Spaghetti sa buhok? Bagong pauso ba yan? Is she eating or what.
"Di mo ba nagustuhan. . .
Di na niya natapos ang dapat na sasabihin niya dahil may nag salitang isang babae sa gilid .
"Joy you know what? nagustuhan talaga niya yang surprise mo, promise!" mababakasan mo ang pagkasarkastiko niya base na rin sa tono ng kaniyang pananalita, "na surprise talaga siya sa mukha mong zombie, bakit ba kasi may spaghetti yang ulo mo?" and she's col, actually.
I can say na may pagka maangas siya dahil na rin siguro sa pananamit nito, not too girly but not that boyish. She have a shiny black hair, violet eyes and oh my? Blue eyelashes? Wow, cool! It's wonderful seeing someone like her, her appearance is weirdly unique. Is there a term like that?
So, the girl who have an spaghetti on her hair is named Joy. I think her name suit her for she's bubbly and energetic base on her voice. May pagkachildish rin itong pananalita and seems like, having a curve lips that will make her smile effortless is truly her asset that made her look so very cute and adorable. She just pouted and that makes her look adorable.
"My gosh!Bakit hindi mo sinabing mayroon spaghetti sa ulo ko ziah!" Tapos agad siyang pumasok sa isa sa mga room na kulay yellow ang door.
The girl named Ziah let out a sigh then she her attention drifted towards showing a little smile.
"Sorry about that and by the way I'm Ziah Katana Dewart, nothing special about me anyway, if having an electricity around your body is cool then thanks,” she said cooly.
“And that girl" sabay turo sa pinto kung saan pumasok yung babaeng may spaghetti sa buhok "her name is Joy Marie Blair. Hyper lang talaga siya parati and she's an elementalist her power is earth" Sabay inilahad nya yung kamay niya.
I appreciate her being civil to me, she even fomally introduce herself to me so as her friend which made my lips curve up a little.
Tinanggap ko naman ang kamay na inilahad nito, "just call me Tanya" maikling sabi ko.
But she just raised an eyebrow to me. Parang naga-antay pa ito ng ilang mga bagay na idudugtong ko na natutungkol sa pagkatao which is unfortunately, because I have nothing to share to her.
"Baka naman may balak ka pang papasukin ako,” I said while roaming my eyes inside at parang bigla naman siyang natauhan sa sinabi ko.
"Uh, come in. What's your whole name, anyway?" She asked.
“Janine Alyana Reaitanya Eion Leigh" parang wala lang na sabi ko.
"Wow, that’s a long name, are you a royalty? But anyway, nice to meet you Tanya" she answered.
"Where's my room anyway? I feel so exhausted and all I want to do right now is to rest" I said nonchalantly.
"There's your room" sabay niya sa pintuang kulay puti. Mukhang ang kulay sa bawat pinto ang palatandaan kung saan ang sarili mong dorm dito. I couldn’t also deny that I am relieved with the fact that we have our room meaning we could have our own privacy "but before it eat your dinner first come on" paga-aya niya sakin kaya sumunod na lamang ako.
"Oh, hi I'm jo--" naputol ulit ang sasabihin niya dahil sumabat nanaman si ziah.
"Kilala ka na niya" bored na sabi niya tsaka uminom ng juice ata 'yon.
The way the two of them talk to each other reflect that they were so close to each other, it seems like they do really know each other for I am reminded they way Janella and I talk to each. Suddenly, I somehow looking for her presence. Do I miss her?
"Lagi mong pinuputol ang sinasabi ko ziah! Why so mean!" joys rant but Ziah only answered her with a tsked.
Tapos siya hinarap naman siya saken. "Your Tanya, right? I somehow heard your convo" she said with a wide smile while there's like a star in her eyes. She look like a kind who’s amazed. I just nodded and smiled at her. Pansin ko lang ba't parang puro tango na lang ata ang ginagawa ko.
"Oh my your so beautiful!" Tsaka sya tumili na parang may mga glitters yung mata nya.
"Thanks, you too"
"Let's eat, Joy bukas mo na siya kulitin besides kararating lang ng tao eh. Kailangan na niyang kumain para makapagpahinga siya." Sabat naman ni ziah.
"Oh feel free to eat, masarap yang mga nanjan,” sabi ni Joy, “dalawang recipe lang ang niluto ko na sabi din ni ziah sa akin kanina para daw walang masira" hyper niyang sabi sa akin and I saw Ziah on the corner shooking her head.
"It's okay as long as pagkain "
We started eating with Joy talking a lot about the academy, and some part of her life so as her experience spending with Ziah. So I am right with my speculation that the two of them were friends. Ziah even shared a little about herself, and what she is doing here inside the academy. Sometimes, they were asking some questions and I am just answering it in a simple way. After the dinner, I thanked Joy for the food and excusing myself that I need to go my room which the two of them seems really understand.
'Simple but elegant' that’s the only thing I could say as I enter my room. Pinaghalong mint green at blue ang kulay ng kwarto ko. The color of its wall really made my room amazing, especially the combination. It’s amazing! Not bad ang ganda ng kulay. Andito na nga ang mga gamit ko as what ziah told me awhile ago when were eating.
There’s nothing I could ask for in this room for there is a wooden study table, and a bed good for two, so as a cabinet that is enough for my clothes. I let out a sigh, then sit on the bed while slowly inspecting every detail inside this room. I wonder how long I can take to live here.
I stand up then arrange my things here. As what I have said, I only got few of my things. Maybe Lean will buy me or lend me some if ever I feel like my clothes is lacking while staying here inside the academy.
Pumunta na din ako sa banyo para mag shower ng matapos ko ng ayusin ang mga gamit ko. The bathroom has a mint green painting on the walls, the shampoo and soap needed were also here which is a relief to me. There’s also a clean towel hanging inside and a clean white robe, also a slipper.
After mag shower ay pinatuyo ko ang buhok ko gamit ang towel at nakita ko rin ang isang hair blower sa isang gilig na kung saan kasama nito ang ilang mga pabango, suklay at iba pa. Matapos ay pabagsak kong hiniga ang katawan ko.
'Now what? Tanya? What's your plan now.'
I just stared on the ceiling and let my thoughts come inside my brain. Thinking about a lot of what if’s until the darkness ate me as I close my eyes.
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