The Wars Within

Chapter 6

Rogue's P.O.V. (2 weeks ago)

I lay there with Amni in my arms. She so fragile looking when she is asleep, yet so beautiful. I want to tell her so f*****g much that I love her, and I do not want to see her sleeping around anymore with anyone else but myself. But I know I cannot do that to her. I have loved her since the day we met, from when my parents were killed, and I moved in with her. I have not kept her out of my sight and tried to protect her in any way possible. It hurts me to not be with or near her when she leaves for her 'missions' as she calls them. I know she thinks that it is her priority to protect and save other survivors, yet most of the people she or I save know how to take care of themselves already since it has been 50 years since the wars.

When she wakes up, she grabs her things and says goodbye to me and heads out. She leaves me alone in her home and I feel so empty without her being there with me. I head over to my house and slam my door. It is not as homey as hers, but it is a place to rest. I just have a cooler where I put all my food and drinks, I did not care much to take the energy from a generator to keep things cool in the house. I had candles around the house for light and a picture of me and Amni from when we found an old polaroid from our adventures on my table in the living room. She has her long, straight silver hair, before she turned them into dreads. I had my arm around her shoulders and holding her close, and we were both laughing and smiling in the photo. It was the night that we found this settlement that we took the picture. She found the camera in one of the homes that we cleared. I knew how to work the old thing, taking it from her and teasing her about her not knowing what it was.

I sit down on the couch, holding the photo for a moment, trying to take in the memory before I lean my head back as I sigh in frustration. I really should have gone with Amni. I feel stupid for not. Just as I was beginning to relax, there was a knock at my door. I grunt as I get up to answer.

"Chloe?" I say as I open the door and see her standing there. Her blonde hair was short, yet straight, and she wore little to nothing for clothing.

"I figured you, uh, needed some company." She smiled and bit her lip. I could feel myself getting hard by looking at her. I moved to the side and let her in the house. She looks around and sees that there is not much to look at in the house. She looks down at my table and picks up the picture of Amni and I. Chloe turns around and waves this in her hand.

"So, you and Amni, are what, like close friends?" she says as she throws it back on the table. I can tell she is bitter about Amni and wants to have some sort of revenge for her having just a one-night stand with Chloe.

"We grew up together. Together, we helped build this town into what it is.” I look her up and down. Chloe has never been one for small talk, just a person that tries to get off whenever she feels the need. “What do you want, Chloe?" I ask harshly. She looks at me with stern eyes and walks over to me. Before I can say anything, she grabs my pants from where my c**k is, and it is hard instantly.

"I want this." she says and squeezes my d**k softly. I bite my lip and let out a grunt. Before I can respond to her, she pulls my face into hers and kisses me deeply. With a swift motion, she pushes me onto my couch and climbs on top of me. She grinds herself up and down on top of me and I let out a moan as she kisses me again. Chloe then reaches down my pants and begins rubbing my hard c**k slowly.

What the f**k am I doing?! I just complained about Amni sleeping around.

Before she began to take off her shorts, I pushed her off of me and sat on the couch and stare at the wall.

"Get out." I say it in the most brutal way. Chole stands there in shock.

"I thought you wanted-"

"I SAID GET OUT!" I yell at her, not letting her finish her sentence. She quickly opens the front door and before she leaves the house, she turns to me and stares at me.

"You and Amni are the f*****g same." she says and slams the door behind her.

I lean forward and put my head in my hands. We are the same. We grew up the same and we both share the same pain. I love her...

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I have been walking around aimlessly for hours. It was nightfall already and I had not gotten far. I told Gerard, the person that Amni and I saved and trained to be a guard and handle a weapon, that I was off to help the other town with trouble. I lied. I just needed to get out and keep my mind busy. Amni was supposed to be back by now, yet she was not, and I was beginning to worry. My mind hasn't been off her since she left for Citadel.

I look around and see I am in the middle of nowhere with burned trees and dirt everywhere. It reminded me of my father, how he told me about the wars when I was younger. His father was one who survived through them from living in an underground vault and told my father the stories of being stuck in them for centuries. My father loved the stories from my grandfather. How he met my grandmother in the vault, and when they were able out, they had a child who was my father, to start over humanity.

"It was over 50 years ago. The world was full and filled with life all around. The trees had leaves of green and the forests and lands had creatures of all kinds. They all balanced one another. Yet, humanity destroyed it all. They had nations across great vast oceans and waters that were against one another. Their hatred and anger grew to such lengths that they turned on each other with weapons that caused the world to become what it is today. They had the same guns that you and I weld that were used to kill. But the weapon that wiped everything away were the nuclear bombs that contained the radiation that killed and harmed all things. That is why the world is no longer green and the animals that we once had are far to be seen. It is up to you, my boys, to make it a better place again."

My memory of my father telling my younger brother and I the story ran over and over in my head. My little brother, Anto, and I were sitting on his lap in the living room chair and my mother was sitting next to us in her chair, watching my father tell his story again, with loving eyes. The thought of her eyes then shot to the memory of them lifeless, along with my brother's and father's bodies lying beside hers. I was unable to save them from the Raiders when they attacked, and they kept me alive to live with the pain they said.

I stopped in my tracks. The thought of my parents and brother always pained me but I never showed it to Amni. I always wanted to show her that I was strong and able to protect myself along with her as well. I wanted to show her that she deserves to be protected and loved. That was why I took her away from her mother. Amni's mother always abused her and made sure that she bled Everytime she laid a hand on Amni. Never once did Amni flinch, or act pained. She was strong and always has been. She did not have anybody before me besides her father, but even then, he was barely around. There was once and only once when I snuck into Amni's room after she was beaten, and her mom left. I found her in the corner of the room curled up in a ball, sobbing. I went to comfort her, and she winced, but I pulled her out of her ball and comforted her. She sobbed in my arms until she fell asleep and that was the night I stayed with her until she woke up to make sure she was okay. That was the night I fell in love with her and the night that I promised myself that I would keep her safe and protect her always.

A howl in a distance broke me from my thought and I quickly gripped my katana handle from behind me. I could see their eyes and there were about five of them. As they came closer, the moonlight shined in their fur and mingled skins.

"Bring it..." I whisper. The first of the pack snarled as he ran and jumped towards me. I withdrew my sword and caught the mutt in thin air as its body went limp and I slid it down off my katana. The others circled around me, and I took my stance with the sword, making sure I could see each one of them as they strutted around me. As each one pounced, I slashed at them. I killed two out of the four, while the other two ran off whimpering.

I kneel to the ground and sigh. I grab a rag out of my back pocket and begin wiping down my katana. This was my father's sword and his prized possession from his father. It was also the weapon that killed my parents. The Raiders found it hanging on the wall and used it. I kept it and will never give it up or leave it out of my sight. Looking at the mutts’ bodies, only one was salvageable enough to cut into meat. I built a small fire and burned the other wolves’ bodies. Once I finished, I wrapped the good meet up in a clean cloth and packed it away in my satchel I had with me. While I put out the fire, I decided it was time to head home. I have not been to the town since yesterday. I look up and begin to follow the stars to track my way home.

This time, if Amni was home, I was going to tell her that I love her and officially make her mine. Whether she is ready or not, I feel like I need to. I must tell her... I love her...

The gates open and Gerard comes walking up to me and met me inside the borders. He signaled over to the others that were watching over the town with him to close the gates behind us.

"How did it go with the town? Everyone ok?" He asked. I had nearly forgot about the lie I told of leaving the town.

"Yeah, everything is good. Amni back home?" I ask, eagerly.

"Yeah, she's at home. She brought home someone else, only this time, it seemed like he was capable to handle himself." he hinted. Why did she bring home someone who wasn't in need? I do not answer Lucas as I just head straight to Amni's home. Once I got to her door, I knocked a couple times. No answer. I decided I had enough time waiting and went straight inside.

"Amni?" I called. Again, no answer. Heading up the stairs, her bedroom door was closed. Without even thinking, I open the door and I see her and someone else shoot straight up from their sleep. My heart instantly stopped once I saw that it was the man, she just brought home. I didn't know his name, but I knew he wasn't from around here.

No... no no no no.... I was going to tell her I love her. I can't like this.

"Rogue...?" she questioned. I decided to play it cool and act as if everything was fine, even though everything hurt...