The Alpha & The Vampire Queen

Just A Few Days:

Ambrosia POV:

    I wasn't sure how long I had been in here, different random memories filled my head all at once. Memories of how I use to fully train and the times Xander and I had fought, the emptiness I felt when I would search for my mother. The pain that came back with each brutal beating from my father. Each time Xander would try to step in only to have his memory erased and then getting beaten. I started getting stronger and started fighting back, I learned out how to stay under my fathers radar to avoid many things. The most thing I am fortunate for is he never touched me sexually after he stole my virtue. The pure hate I felt for him started to grow deep inside me. I needed to keep a level head, I will get my vengeance. "You need to go back, Jackson moved us to the bed but he will be waiting when you wake up." Sage said gently. I had cried out everything I possibly could and the last thing I ever wanted was our children to see me in such a state. "What are the others doing?" I asked. "Getting everyone prepped and ready. I think you need to take a few days though." Sage replied.

    I need to work out all the emotions I am feeling. I have never dealt with emotions because it was easier for me that way but I can't run from this and I know that. I stood to my feet and wrapped my arms around Sage. "I wish there was a way to do this more often. You are a pain in the ass but you are one of my favorite pain in the asses." I giggled making her snort. "You're one to talk little miss stubborn ass. You'll always have me no matter what, now get back." Sage said. "How do I do that?" I asked. "Just relax, I've already called on Alley. Close your eyes and let her guide you out." Sage said. I did as she told me and I felt a slight pull and tug before I was able to c***k my eyes open. I blink a few times to see Jackson was sitting at the side of the bed looking down at me. "Hi beautiful." Jackson whispered. "Um, hi. How long have you been sitting there?" I asked. "Not long, I got here shortly before you opened your eyes." Jackson replied.

    I could tell he was nervous to say or ask anything, I sat up slowly and tucked my knees to my chest. "I know you could see what happened." I whispered. There was no point in trying to hide from it. "Yeah, yeah I did. Blaze flipped and Tye had to let Rex out. It was not a good situation for a moment." Jackson replied. Part of me wanted to laugh. Blaze had a wild temper and I could only imagine the tango him and Rex had to get him to calm down. "I'm taking you away for just a few days." Jackson said looking at me. "Why?" I asked. "Because I know you don't want the kids to see you like this and you always work through your stuff with training and I know the perfect place for you to be able to let loose and do that. No one will be around so you can scream, cry punch whatever you need to." Jackson said softly. "I-, I don't know what to say.." I whispered. "Don't say anything. Mom is going to watch the kids while we are away. I packed a small bag and we can leave when you are ready." Jackson replied, I looked around to see a backpack was packed and a small bag next to it which I assumed was our bathroom stuff. "But what about Alley and Pythia? The others?" I asked looking around. 

    "Alley and Pythia said it could be a day or two before they fully figure everything out and I have sent the trackers to Braxton and Troy. Tye is helping them. They will be fine without us." Jackson replied with a small smile. "Okay, let's take the kids to your parents house. I could use some of your mothers happiness." I said swinging my legs over the bed. "She is very cheerful, she mentioned that she wanted to spend more time with you." Jackson said slinging his arm over my shoulder and pulling me close. "I would actually love that." I replied easily. No matter what was happening she always made sure to make everyone feel better, we never had to worry about smiling because she was always the one who brought that to us. Talking to her may not be a bad idea. Jackson is so loving but even these situations can be hard to deal with and sometimes only a woman or mother can help the most. "Mommy! You are awake now. Daddy said we are going to see grandma!" Artemis yelled running down the hallway. "Yes, daddy and I have something to do. The both of you will have so much fun." I replied picking him up.

    He wrapped his little arms around me hugging me tightly. "Can we go now?" Artemis asked. "Yes little man, we are going there now." Jackson said picking up Ari. We walked downstairs and made our way outside. The sun would start setting soon, it was always my favorite part of the day. Watching the skies turn a different colors over the centuries has never made me feel more at peace, just reminds me that I survived another day and I don't think I would ever get tired of it. "Let's hurry up because I have something planned." Jackson said with a grin making me smile. "Oh do you now?" I asked raising an eye brow. "I think you'll really like it." Jackson said as we got closer to his parents house. His mom was already on the porch with a face splitting grin. Both the kids squirmed until their feet reached the ground and they ran straight to her. His father opened the door and smiled. "Come on kids I have snacks and toys ready for you both. Jackson I need a word with you too." His dad said looking at him. When the door closed his mom embraced me in a hug. I held tightly to her, "How are you doing?" She asked stepping back.

    Honestly I wasn't sure how to answer that. I didn't know how I was feeling right now. "I don't know honestly." I replied softly. "Whenever you are ready to talk I am here. I won't ask anything and I won't force you to talk. Just know I'm here." She said brushing my hair back. Tears started to form in my eyes as I looked at her, she was everything to me and she understood me in ways others didn't. Maybe it was a mothers instinct or something. "Oh my sweet girl." She said hugging me. "I don't know what to do momma, I don't know how to feel or what to think. More memories have came back and he only did it once but even so." I sobbed holding on tight to her. She rubbed my back and didn't say a word while I cried my grief out. "You will get through this in time, I can't tell you how to feel or what to think but rest assured that I will be here every step away and so will everyone else." She whispered in my ear.

    She stepped back and wiped my tears away and smiled softly. "When you come back I want you to come over here and we will have a little time together, a few times a week or something. Whatever you are comfortable with." She added. I just nodded my head and took a deep breath. "You are the mother I should have had." I said as it popped in my head. "I am your mother no matter what. I love you all the same maybe even a little more than the knucklehead in there." She winked making me laugh. Jackson walked out of the door and looked at us, "Ready to go?" He asked. "Yes, can I ride on Blaze?" I asked. "You don't even need to ask me that, he has been wanting to see you." Jackson said stepping forward and kissing him moms cheek before he walked in to the yard and shifted. "I will see you when you get back." She smiled at me and I could literally feel the love rolling off of her. I turned around and walked down the small steps to be greeted by Blaze, my handsome wolf with an incredible temper, overly protective but also amazingly sensitive.

    I could see it in his eyes, he was angry, hurt, sad and deadly rolled all in to one. "I'm not mad at you." I said running my hand through her fur. He buried his head in to my hand, "I'm sorry you had to see that, but I know you wouldn't let anyone hurt me like that." I whispered. Blaze licked my face and I smiled. "Let's go, I'd like to get there before the sun sets so I can watch it." I said climbing up his back. As soon as I was settled and latched the backpack and bag to me he wasted no time running in to the woods. For a moment I enjoy the feel of the warm wind against my skin and my mind was thinking back to all my empty memories. I couldn't believe my mother had left even though I understood in a way but I could never leave Artemis or Ari no matter how bad the situation was. I would give my life for them in order to save them. I would kill whoever tried to hurt them, so why couldn't my mother do the same for me? Things were different back then but a mother should always be a mother. 

    Anger boiled within me, she has had all this time to come back and she still hasn't. Why? I could have protected her. I wasn't paying much attention to where we were going until Blaze slowed down near the waterfall. I've been here a few times over the centuries and Mother Nature has never failed to amaze me. Blaze took us to the top so I could see literally everything and it was perfect timing because the sun was starting its descend downward. I jumped off of Blaze and sat on the waters edge and let my legs dangle off the edge of it. I felt Jackson sit behind me, letting his legs dangle on the outside of mine. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to his chest as he planted a soft kiss on the back of my head. I took a deep breath letting all the different scents hit my nostrils and I relaxed my muscles. "I love you my queen." Jackson whispered in my ear. "I love you too my king." I replied laying my head in the crook of his neck, we didn't speak but I could feel his warmth and love and that was what I needed most in this moment. I knew my own temper and it was so easy for me to shut off everyone else but with my new family I have acquired I didn't want to. 

    This was going to be a long road to recover from and I just needed to remind myself that I am not alone in this, we have all come from horrible pasts but we can always over come them and gain justice for myself. "Promise me something." I whispered as I watched the sun sink further. "Anything." Jackson replied. "Never stop loving me please." I whispered as a tear ran down my face. "That is a promise I can easily keep. I'll never let you go." Jackson whispered. I knew his words were true and I couldn't help the tears that just kept falling. Jackson held me tighter and I turned my body so that he cradled me. "Let it out baby, I'm here. I'll always be the one to hold you, love you and kill anyone that dares hurt you. In your darkest moments I will love you harder." Jackson whispered as he rocked me. "I've never dealt with these emotions and I am scared." I sobbed. "We will deal with them together, I'll be your strength for now, just fall apart knowing I'm here to catch you." Jackson said. That was all I needed to hear in this moment. I needed that reassurance that it was okay to completely fall apart with no judgment or fear that he would leave. He was giving me all I needed and I took his words to heart and fell apart in his arms in that moment.........