Five
1118 Words
'He's not even mine anymore, but still my heart calls for him. He's not even in my eyes anymore, but still i can't stop thinking of him. Why does it hurt when he speaks of new love? I want him to be happy, we broke 'cause I couldn't be his love, but i never thought I would be unhappy, do I love someone I do not love?Is that a thing to do? I wish my heart could stop this ache.. I want my pain to be through. But, I wonder if my heart will ever stop aching, or will it forever remain suffering for his love. They say time heals. I don't think so. Time just makes you forget how it feels like.'
"Bffffff.. nakikinig kaba sakin ha? Ano bang nangyayari sa'yo ha?"
Niyogyog pa ni Ivy ang tulalang kaibigan, kahapon pa ito parang wala sa sarili. Hindi nila ito nahanap ng jowa nya kagabi ng balikan ito sa tabi ng dagat wala na ito sa pinag iwanan nya.
"Ha! anuba kasi yung tanong mu Bff?"
Napakurap kurap pa ng mga mata si Daphne, parang naalimpungatan pa itong napatingin sa kanya.
"Sabi ko saan ka ba nagpunta kagabi at pagbalik namin dun wala kana? Anong nangyari sa'yo kagabi, sinong kasama mo, ha?"
Sunod sunod na tanong ni Ivy sa kanya. Napaisip naman sya, ano nga bang nangyari kagabi at sino nga bang kasama nya? Kasi pagkagising nya kaninang umaga nagulat din nga sya kung bakit nasa isang hotel na sya't nag iisa. At sa sobrang takot nya napatakbo na lang sya palabas..
"Ewan ko Bff, wala akong maalala?"
Nasapo nyang ulo na kumikirot.
"Peste! hindi na talaga ako iinom ng alak!"
"Weh talaga! Eh palaging yan naman ang sinasabi mo kapag may hang over ka eh!"
"Bff, sakit ng ulo ko hellllppp!"
"Hmp ewan ko sa'yo! Bahala kana nga sa buhay mo."
Naiinis na dinampot ni Ivy ang bag saka binuksan ang pinto.
"Hoy! san lakad mo bruha? Iiwan mo'ko ng ganito, grabeh ka sakin Bff ha! Tampo ako sa'yo."
"Tse! May date ako kaya wag kang ano dyan! Inorder na kita ng food, babush."
"Bff, don't leave me hereee!!"
Lana syang nagawa ng sumara ng pinto. Iinat iinat syang tumayo mula sa pagkakaupo sa sofa at naglakad papasok ng banyo. Quickly shower and retouch done in 20 minutes. Tamang tama naman na tapos na syang mag ayos ng marinig ang nag iingay na doorbell.
"Fooooddd, my God! gutom na talaga ako."
Nilantakan nya kaagad ang pagkaing inorder ni Ivy para sa kanya.
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"People are like seasons they come and go, that's how I used to view it. It never bothered me before because I always thought that unless you die, you will get other seasons so the ones that pass you by are not things you should worry about, rather just enjoy that season while it's there. Make the most of it while it lasts and if that season ends, just remember that there are other seasons to come.
But then something happened and I got a season that I didn't want to end, I found myself in a season where I was willing to give everything I could to make sure that season lasts forever. With most seasons when they end whether it be friendships or relationships, I find myself being in an accepting position of what has happened.
I go through the motions of sadness and loss but ultimately I don't really dwell on it because I thought that the time me and that person had was what was meant to be in terms of our life paths, for me usually it's a case of we were meant to spend a finite amount of time together before our paths diverge to wherever life takes us as individuals. But for some reason I reached a point with someone specific where all of that just disappeared, for the first time in life I couldn't accept that this is what fate had decided was the path for us. I begged and pleaded with the universe to alter things and make this season infinite, but the rules stayed the same. Time ran out and I was stuck in a season that I couldn't let go of.
That season became like one of those times where you had an amazing summer, and even though summer will come again you will forever live to remember that one amazing summer. All your nostalgic stories will always fall back to that amazing summer regardless of what new things you experience that summer will forever be engraved into your heart.
And for me that amazing summer is a person and just like how summer ends by nature losing its summer beauty and adopting it's winter gloom by losing leaves on trees and flowers no longer bloom leave everything empty, that's how I was at the end of that summer. An empty tree thinking back on the glory days of summer, but instead of realising that summer will come again I let myself be stuck on the summer that left me. My Summer, my baby Franz.."
Nakaluhod si Pyre ngayon sa harap ng puntod ng sana mag ina na nya kung hindi lang ito nawala ng tuluyan sa buhay nya.
"Baby, lima ng nasingil ko sa pagkawala nyo, dalawa na lang ang natitirang pagbabayarin ko. Malapit ko na ring mabigyan ng katarungan ang pagkamatay nyu."
Huminga sya ng malalim saka ngumiti. Hindi na sya umiiyak ngayon di gaya dati na halos maglupasay pa sya. Unti unti nya na ring natanggap ang lahat, kaya siguro nakakaramdam na sya ngayon ng konting kapayapaan.
"Kumusta na kayo ni baby? Ayos lang ba kayo? Bakit hindi ko na kayo nakikita sa langit kahit anong lingap ko't pag suyod sa mga bituin hindi ko na kayo mahanap?"
Umupo sya malapit sa lapida ng mag ina nya. Hinaplos haplos ang mga nakasulat na pangalan dun. Makalipas ang ilang minuto inayos nyang bulaklak saka kandila. Umusal ng panalangin saka nagpaalam na.
"Mga babies ko babalik na lang ulit ako sa susunod ha! dadalawin ko ulit kayo. Paalam na muna!"
Magaan ng loob nya ng maglakad palabas ng sementeryo. Ganun naman sya palagi kapag nakakadalaw sa mag ina nya, gumagaan ang takbo ng buhay nya. Huminto sya sa paglalakad saka tumingala sa langit na tila may kinausap doon...
"Even though I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, I’m going to hold my head high, think positive, and expect the best.”
Itinaas nyang isang kamay, saka kumaway sa langit , tapos nilagay naman ang isang kamay sa kanyang dibdib at yumokod. Ganun ang ginagawa nya palagi bago sasakay ng kanyang kotse para lisanin ang sementeryo.
?MahikaNiAyana
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