CHAPTER 30.5: Do You Blame Yourself?
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“DO YOU BLAME YOURSELF?”
Luciel looked at the shadow over him, lights emitting around it that he couldn’t recognize its face. He’s inside an unknown cave with a huge hole emitting light for him to see everything.
He could see so many feathers around him.
“Do you blame yourself?” it repeated its question.
“What?” he asked. He couldn’t help but pant and wince because of the massive pain around him.
“Do you feel guilty after watching her falling with your own two eyes?”
That made him pause for a second. Her face suddenly flashed in his mind.
He could see her smiling.
He could see her giggling.
He could see how she spun so elegantly with her wings flapping gracefully.
He could see how beautiful she is.
He could see how b****y she was looking before his eyes.
And he could see...
“No...”
“Luciel!”
“No, stop!” Luciel immediately covered his ears, panting in so much distress. He looked so horrified. “Stop... please, stop.”
“Do you feel guilty about what happened, Luciel?”
“Stop. Stop talking! Stop it! Stop talking!” trembling in so much anger and sadness, Luciel shouted at the being right in front of him.
“Do you regret why didn’t you have that strength to change everything?”
“Shut up! Just stop! Stop! Stop talking! Stop it! Stop talking!”
The being asked him once again. “Do you blame yourself, Luciel?”
That made Luciel stop for a moment. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes as he felt himself falling from the skies. He opened his eyes once again and his hands tried to reach the clouds but he couldn’t.
“Do you regret it?”
He could see how his black feathers spun around him. He slowly closed his eyes as he let himself fall.
“Do you blame yourself, Luciel?”
“Yes... it’s all my fault... my entire fault.”
- Writer
