chapter six
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"Why are you playing with my heart?" I asked walking into the room and standing at the foot of the bed.
"What are you talking about?" he asked his eyes fixed on the stupid device in his hands.
I badly wanted to grab it and just smash it on the floor.
"First you tell me she's just a friend then you tell me she's nothing to you and now here you are allowing her all over you!"
" When did I ever say that? I can't remember holding a conversation with you," he blatantly lied, his gaze still fixed on the phone.
"So this is how it's going to be? You apologies and be affectionate with me at night and in the afternoon you pretend like I don't exist?" At this point tears were already breaming in my eyes, feeling like he was just using me.
"Look Halloween I would like to get ready for class," he put his phone on the table and looked at me,
"Kindly leave and close the door on your way out,"
" You-- " he didn't even let me say and just turned around and walked to his bathroom.
With no words left to say, I ran out of the room only to bump into Benson.
"What's wrong why are you crying?" he asked but I didn't say a word and instead just went straight to my room throwing myself on the bed and crying my eyes out.
"Hey what happened?" I heard Benson say but I didn't get up netiher did I acknowledge his presence.
I knew if I told him, he would just end up making fun of me and causing me to be even more sad and angry.
"Let me guess it was Claudio right?" he asked but I still didn't responded and instead focused on wallowing in self pity.
"I will go talk to him. He has no right to make you cry!"
I heard his retreating footsteps followed by the door closer and I sat up on the bed look up at the ceiling.
"Moon goddess, is this how my life is always going to be, crying like this and unloved?"
" Don't cry he will come around," Lyca tried to encourage.
" Lyca didn't you notice how cold he was to us. Claudio doesn't care. He's going to reject us!"
"No he won't, we are fated mates. If he rejects us then he will also suffer you know,"
What she was saying didn't make sense at all so I ended up blocking her off and after removing my shoes and the jacket, I lay on my bed covering myself up in hopes that sleeping would numb the pain I was feeling
***Benson pov***
Nothing upsets me more than Angel crying.
Yes I bullied her and yes I made her cry too but no one was allowed to make her feel like s**t expect me.
"What the f**k do you think you are doing?" I asked Claudio as soon as I entered his room.
"Mind your language I'm your alpha," he growled glaring at me while wiping his body with the towel.
"Alpha my foot! You keep making angel's life a living hell instead of loving her the way you are meant to!""
"Living hell you say," he scoffed placing the towel on the bed and giving me his full attention, " should I remind you how you occastrated this whole thing of calling her Halloween and turning the whole pack against her? Stop pointing fingers at me when you are the biggest reason why she's miserable!"
" And I regret doing that every second of the day. At least do better as the alpha!"
" And what do you expect me to do huh shower her with love? Come on man,"
" But she's your mate! She deserves to be loved by you,"
" I don't want her okay I don't want to spend the rest of my life with her I don't want her as my Luna!"
"But Claudio she's your---"
" I don't want her okay!" He growled showing me his dominant side making me flinch but I still held my ground. He added, "if you want her then you can have her,"
" I thought you loved her,"
" I was young I didn't know better,"
" So if I keep her for myself it won't hurt you?" I randomly said not even sure why.
" Why would it hurt? I deserve better,"
"You are right, she does deserve better,"
"And you think you will be better, by the way aren't you mated to Phoebe?" He questioned with a raised eyebrow his eyes switching from confusing to one of realisation.
"You love her don't you?" he deadpanned
"What of course not!"
" Yes you do," he walked over to me standing right Infront of me his eyes fixed on mine.
"Why didn't I think of this, all the bullying and the random care for her? You've always loved her, "
" No I do not love her! She's like a sister to me okay! I'm mated to her elder sister for goodness sake I can't love her. Look if you don't want her then just reject her and stop making her suffer!" I said changing the subject hoping he would let it drop too.
"I can't do that," he let out a sigh siting on the bed, "My mom will kill me if I do,"
"So you will keep playing with the girl's emotions?"
He didn't respond instead just sat there looking at me
"You make me sick sometimes you know that. But you know what, you can do whatever you want. I don't care just don't hurt her more than you have,"
With that I left his room and went straight to Angel's room.
I found her curled up in bed with her entired body covered with the blanket even thought it was like 30 degrees out.
"Angel," I sat on the bed next to and hearing her soft even breathing was enough to tell me that she wasn't crying and was sleeping.
'I wish I could take you troubles away and make them better,' I lightly removed the cover off her face and caressed her slightly red cheeks.
Even though everyone considered her as an outcast, to me she was perfect.
Yes I'm the reason why this hate train started and I regret it every day but I was young back then and looking at her now, everything about her screams beautiful and amazing. She's perfect and I wish she was my mate and not Phoebe.
"I will make things better for you and fix my mistakes, I promise," I spoke leaning in and kissing her forehead.
"Benson?" I heard her say followed by her eyes flattering open.
"Oh um angel hey," I quickly got up from the bed.
" I was just ---- you were upset earlier and I was just was checking up on you,"
She sat up on the bed hugging the blanket while fixing her blue gaze on me, giving me an adorable confused look with her perfect plump lips lightly parted.
To see the truth looking at her right now made me feel weak, I felt like wrapping my arms around her and shielding her from the world.
"Why do you suddenly care for me?" she asked but I shook my head saying,
"Obviously I don't care. I love seeing you sad, it gives me peace of mind,"
Her face faltered and she let out a sigh laying back on her bed.
'What's wrong with me!' I muttered to myself. 'Why can't I just be nice to her damn it!'
"Are you satisfied now? You can leave," she spoke closing her eyes and I saw a lone tear slide down.
I walked over about to wipe it off and comfort her but stopped myself. I can't get close to her, she's my sister in law.
"See you around ghost girl," I turned on my heels and walked out of the room feeling like the biggest jerk in the entire world.
"Benson? What were you doing in Halloween's room?"
"Huh," I turned around only to come face to face with Phoebe.
"Oh hey babe," I smiled at her about to hug her but she took a step back.
"What were you doing there? I've seen you lately you keep being all over her and I wanna know what's up?"
"Oh nothing is up babe. No offence but you sister looks like a ghost, I have no Intentions of loving her," I lied through my teeth.
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