Secrets and Truth

Chapter Two

Chapter Two

I became much more aware of what was going on as soon as my head hits on a soft surface with Seung Gi right on top of me laying me down on whoever’s bed this was. My nose is filled with his scent, he smells so different from what I use to remember. Was it because he was now a different person?

Was it because he is about to be a father

"fvck off" I grumble at him pushing him with all the strength I could muster from this dazed mess. I'm a mess, a hot gay mess 

"Well you're welcome" he chuckles.

What is so funny to this man?

I must be a joke 

He most certainly must think of me as a joke, I even think of me as a joke. We broke up years ago and the first thing I did when we meet again was get drunk, showing him that my life has not been exactly great without him when it looked like he had a good life. 

I toss my arms over my face to hide what was left of my pride. To hide the embarrassment the alcohol made heighten. I could feel numb, but I am a sensitive mess

"Are you okay?" Seung Gi’s voice came from a direction that seemed close. I’m not sure if he actually was close as I refuse to look at him and have no plans to change that

I just need avoid him as long as I could

 I would cry if I saw his face right now. Fvck it! I would bawl my eyes out if I looked at him" Hyun Soo" he calls 

"Fuvk off! Can you just leave me the fvck alone" I said in between the sniffs 

Before I can even understand what was going on I was crying. I bite the bottom of my lips to hide the sound.

Pathetic 

I sound pathetic

I am pathetic 

There's no one worse than me, here I was crying because my emotions are just all over the place and I don't know why I felt so sensitive. It's the alcohol 

It's the freaking alcohol I swear. I feel mushy, my eyes burned while my nostrils was partially blocked. 

"What's the problem?" He asked. I felt his hands on my arm; his fingers hold so much warmth. The warmth I craved and dreamt of every time I allowed myself think of him. Every time I lost a battle with myself, I let myself think of him

I let myself miss him. I let myself crave for him. "A-are you crying?" his voice is low and I feel him trying to pull my hand off my face

"Stop" I refused his touch 

What is he trying to see? How bad I look when I cry, cause I do look terrible? Or was he trying to confirm how wrecked I am because of him? I built a wall for years, telling myself that if faith ever had us collide that I would be stronger than. That I would smile at him and tell him that I was living fine

Well that was a f*****g lie 

"Hyun Soo" he said. His voice, too close 

I sat up so fast, wiping the tears with the back of my arm. "See I'm fine," I said hoping he cannot detect the sarcasm. 

This is the first time I see the sight of where he had brought me, it was too exquisite looking to be a house, it must be a hotel room. The window by the left-hand corner made me realize that the sun was nowhere to be found. From where I sat I could see the city light of Seoul and I wanted to be out there. I wanted to be anywhere but here

"Why am I here?" I asked angrily. Did he bring me to a hotel just because I had a little too much to drink?

“I’m staying here” he replies

“Oh” Why is he even staying in a hotel? He must plan to fly back to Australia with his wife to be after the reunion. Was this the bed he and Rosaline slept on before the reunion? "Why did you bring me here?" 

"You weren’t exactly telling me where you lived and I obviously couldn’t leave you drunk on the street" he sat at the edge of the bed staring at me, I notice he was only wearing the inner shirt of his tuxedo and the jacket was laid nicely of the small sofa. 

He knows where I live

Why was he lying that he didn’t? Maybe he didn’t want to see my dad; it would be awkward if they met

My eyes roamed around his neck, searching for it. He promised that he would never take it off. He promised he would wear it forever so why wasn’t it there?

He's not wearing the couple necklace he gave me but here I was still wearing it. I never took it off even for a day 

"I told you So Ra would take me home. You didn't have to bring me here” gathering the strength the alcohol hasn’t yet stolen from me; I manage to stand on my feet even though standing still was a struggle

"Yeah I know but the party just started. You can't just let So Ra leave as soon as it started just because she wants to take your drunken ass home" was he trying to c***k a joke or something. The room is spinning too fast for me to catch the joke

"You're worried about So Ra when you should be worried about your wife." My brain manages to compose a sentence "She's pregnant you can't just leave here there. How is she supposed to get home uh?"

"Why are you so worried about Rosaline?" he said with a frown on his face "Can you stop talking about Rosaline for a second" standing up, he walks close to me "can you stop... Just stop"

Why is he coming closer? Or are my eyes deceiving me? I feel so dizzy

"I can't stop Seung Gi. She's pregnant with your CHILD and you just left her"

He stares at me like I've grown two heads, maybe even three then burst out laughing. He laughs so hard that I could feel myself sober up as the confusion rushed down my spine 

I don't even ask why he's laughing so hard or what the bloody hell was so damn funny and just grabbed my shoes and head straight to the door, I hear him run behind me and felt his hand grab my arm before I could twist the knob of the door. He pushes me up to the door with both of his hands holding me in place 

"Choi Hyun Soo"

Why the heck is his voice so deep and husky all of a sudden? And why do I feel so flushed at the mention of my name?

It's this position, he was dangerously close to me and I could feel his breath on my cheeks and my stomach tied up in a knot, my eyes fall to his lips 

All it will take would be one movement to have his lips on mine

If I took a step closer, I could have his lips on me 

I want to taste him

Fuvk I want to taste his lips so bad

“Are you perhaps…” he paused to lick his lips and I feel my chest tightens “Jealous?”

I looked up to those brown eyes of his “What? Jealous? Of who Rosaline?” I huffed

“Mmh”

“I’m not jealous. I just … I don’t know. You moved on quicker than I thought. Okay, so I’m hurt. Maybe a little, just a tiny bit jealous okay, Sue me!” I yelled trying to fight my way from his grip.

I can do it

I should be able to do it, I mean I got a perfect score on physical assessment back in the police academy but whatever this boy – this man was on, he successfully kept me in place. This time taking both my hands up above my head as he used just one of his hands to put me in place, his second-hand traces my face

My heart racing, my toe-curling up, my breath is lost just by one single touch

Breathing – the one thing I’ve known how to do since birth but I still manage to forget how to when he touches me like this

Just one touch made me lose my sense and I want to fight it. I try to remember the reason we ended it in the first place, I tried to – 

“You’re still wearing this,” he said, the necklace he had given me dangled out of my shirt. He held it in his hands as his finger caressing it 

“I w-wore i-it by m-mistake”

It felt really difficult to form a sentence with him up all on me like this; he is too close with too little space in front of us. So close that I felt the urge to close up the gap between us

I just wanted to taste him 

I mean he was going back to Australia; I could just taste him and own him only for this night. Not even a day. Maybe this was what I needed to be completely over him, just one last kiss. 

One last s3x

 One last time

He takes the necklace and places it so close to my mouth, I opened my mouth without question, grabbing the necklace in between my teeth, staring at him in confusion I should ask him what the hell he was doing but I couldn’t

This is a shitty situation but for some weird reason I trusted that he knew what he was doing

“You still look so pretty,” he said moving closer than he originally was. I feel my c0ck harden at the tease and I wanted to scream kiss me already, this tease was driving me insane “No - you look even prettier” he said and with that, he closes the space in between us. Kissing me even with the necklace in my mouth

I don’t resist 

I don’t complain

Fuvk every moral and every proper sense, the only thing I cared about at this moment, the only thing I wanted to fuvk was him. 

His tongue slides inside mine as the cold metal is quickly turned warm at the heat of our mouths; he pushes me more into the door and I release a moan as he grinds himself on me, I can feel his crotch harden on my thighs 

He finally let go of my hand and I quickly wrap it around his neck pulling him closer to me. His hand swims around me, grabbing me from the thigh, lifting me like I was nothing as he guides us back to the bed with his lips still passionately on mine. Kissing me so deep and so hard and the rush of relief shook my bone. It was like kissing him was what I was made to do. It felt like this was the only reason I survived being apart from him for so long and every hurt, every heartbreak didn’t seem to matter at this moment as I became one with him

Memories of the first time we ever kiss came flooding back, I had been hooked since the first time his lips met mine, and I am always his. No matter how long we stayed apart from each other, he is the yin to my yang and I am addicted to him

He wraps his hand around my waist, carrying me off the floor like I weighed nothing while our lips were still locked

He placed me on the bed, and the instance I drew back from his kiss and looked into his perfect eyes I knew I was fuvked. 

I knew I won’t be able to stop

Every emotion he ever made me feel came rushing like a flood and I just couldn’t control myself. Or maybe I didn’t want to control myself. I kneeled on the bed like he was doing, my hands went straight for his shirt that has been restricting our skin from making beautiful noises and he goes for mine instead

So impatient to get it off I pulled out a button “I’m so sorry” I apologized my eyes widens as the button fell to the bed

“It’s okay” he laughed. He sounds beautiful “Don’t apologize” he said taking off his shirt revealing his chest and I froze. He has been working out, his chest is all defined and his arm looked so strong I think I might have salivated

“Do you want me to help you?” he asked referring to my shirt

“Uhm-“before I could reply he pulls closer and unbuttons my shirt while I watched his hands. His beautiful hands were filled with veins and I felt an urge to suck on it

‘Calm down’ I remind myself not to be a horny little whore

In seconds he helped me pull of my shirt and tosses it to the floor, we knelt there on the bed for minutes just staring at each other’s bodies and all of the changes 6 years had brought to it

“You have a n****e piercing” he chuckles

“I was going through a phase” I replied laughing 

“That’s some phase, did you pierce down there too?” he asked with a smug smile. Lee Seung Gi was different from what I remembered him to be, he was now bolder and there is no timid look in his eyes. He wasn’t the shy kid I use to tease anymore, he was different and I hated that I would not be able to explore if this was a good difference or not before he left

‘Fuvk it and just live for tonight’ I remind myself

“You want to see?” I asked

“Hell yeah” he replied excitedly, he places his hand on the hem of my pants, tracing the skin “I want to have you in my mouth. You have no idea how long I craved having you in my mouth,” he said pulling my pants and underwear down in one pull. “He got bigger!” he exclaimed earning a giggle and a soft punch from me 

“Shut up. You d1ck” I said pulling the rest of my pants off, flinging it

“Oh my god, you really had a d1ck piercing” he exclaims his face flushes “Did it hurt”

“Like hell” I laughed “Your turn,” I said and he nods. His eyes not leaving my body as he struggled to take off his pants 

“There” he successfully got it out of the way, smiling

We knelt on the bed, butt ass naked enjoying the view, his erection stood confidently and I couldn’t hide the smile on my face. 

“Your smile is still as beautiful,” he said pulling me closer and gently assisting me on the bed 

“Oh yeah?” I teased

“Yes, you have no idea how many times I would pleasure myself to the memories of you smiling” my chest tightens “It took self-discipline for me not to bend you over during the party and fuvk you silly,” he said, with every word accompanied by a kiss on my groin, I could feel the drag of his c0ck on my thigh as he moves up to kiss me on my forehead before moving back down. 

He presses his lips on the crook on my groin, opening his mouth taking me in his beautiful mouth, sucking me as I hummed in pleasure. My toes curling, arching my back

My hands find his hair and I pulled it gently not to hurt him

“Harder,” he said in between sucking

“What”

“Pull harder” he instructed so I did, I pulled harder as his tongue played with me, his movement faster now, his hands moving to my ass as he squeezes it. I feel his finger play with my opening. He sucks on a finger

The sexiest thing I have seen in my whole life

“I’m putting my finger in okay. If you feel uncomfortable or…”

“Shut up and just put it before you drive me mad” I begged and he smirked doing as he was told. My c0ck twitches, thigh quivering as he pushes his finger deeper into my ass. I moan loudly

“Damn it, you’re so tight” he curses

I can’t remember the last time I had s3x. It’s been ages and it didn’t feel good. Nothing can ever feel good as when I do it with Seung Gi.

 His mouth still warmly wrapped around my c0ck making me arch my back even more

It doesn’t take too long before I slip into his mouth. He brings his head out, smiling at me as he swallowed all of me, not letting anyone go to waste. 

He proceeds to move to my tights, his tongue laps at my skin but he doesn’t bite nor suck just taste

“Fvck” I cursed. Not sure I could handle the tease. 

I go for his lips, sucking on those luscious lips. I could taste the saltiness on his tongue, my teeth pressing on his bottom lips. He pulls away and I look at him

Sheer beauty and confidence and all the things I never knew could be so attractive

“Fuvk me please” I begged

There’s this satisfaction in his eyes as he heard my words “You want me to?” 

“I need you too”

I need him to fuvk me so bad that I forget about him after today. I need him to fuvk my brains out and I need him. 

He turns me around, placing my hands on the hands of the bed, his cheeks close to mine as he spoke “Hold this and don’t let it go” he instructs

“What if I do?” I asked quietly 

“You get s*****d,” he said pushing my ass out. Seung Gi could probably see the tension in my body and the impatience and most definitely my need. I hear him take something out of the drawer so I peeped past my shoulder; he has a lube and condom in his hands 

“Let me help you with that,” I said turning to him 

His hands land on my buttocks ”Hands back” he instructs 

“Fine daddy” I laughed, rolling my eyes.

“Oh I like that,” he said, climbing back onto the bed

“Like what,” I asked looking at the wall, waiting for him to fill me. I felt the cold lubricant gel on the opening of my ass and Seung Gi prepping me

“When you call me daddy” he replied

“You do?” pushing my ass back

“Hm,” he hums pushing his c**k past my rim, and then buries himself in one jarring motion. Hip slapping against my ass. 

I moan at how overwhelming it feels.

How overwhelming he feels, how warm and how big he is, his moans cloud my senses for a moment as I grabbed onto the head of the bed at how good it felt. Our skin slapping in glorious melody, the relief feeling the pit of my stomach that I feel myself come again, this time on the sheets but Seung Gi doesn’t stop thrusting into me; neither do I want him to stop

Seung Gi hisses “Fuvk! You’re so tight”, my ass clenching around his c0ck

“Oh fuvk me daddy” I cried, closing my eyes to take in the hard thrust that left my body to electrify. Seung Gi sets a harsh pace, fuvking into me fast and hard. His moan is so cloud, it lingers in the air

“Call me that again”

“Daddy” I cried, completely, unashamed in being so loud, trying to match his moan.

“You feel so f-freaking good” his thrusts slow and deep, 

I moan more “Fvk me harder” I push my ass back, teasing him “Daddy” and harder he did. His hand wrapped around my neck from behind, as he chocked me while thrusting so hard inside me it could break me

“I’m c-cumming” Seung Gi breaks rhythm, turning into something more desperate

 My body goes into a sudden involuntary muscular contraction with Seung Gi filling me up and watching me crash on the bed as soon as he pulls out. He lays closes to me, in nakedness.

We laid there breathing hard, chest rising and falling, small shivers that made my body twitch, and we didn’t speak for what felt like minutes. We only listened to the sound of each other breath and I felt dizzy from pleasure and satisfied with my need

It’s a onetime thing

Tomorrow it’ll be over like it never happened

It’s just a one night stand that would be forgotten tomorrow

Seung Gi moves closer to me, taking a clean sheet, covering my body as he pulls me closer to him, I don’t fight him but instead, we cuddled. With him holding me close from behind, I could hear his breathing and I gave up fighting the sleep

“I’m not the father” he must have said but I was too tired and too dazed to ask him what he means