Searching for Sophia

Chapter 2 mourning

Chapter 2

  Casey’s P.O.V

  Two months had gone by since we lost our little angel, but we still had to hold our heads up high and get on with things. We had a daughter to look after and couldn’t stop to mourn properly because she needed us, but every night when Ryan and I were alone we would talk, cry and grieve. It was hard to explain to Robin why I was no longer pregnant or why she wouldn't be getting a sibling, but we managed to do it, by explaining that my parents were looking after her in heaven. The heartache I felt was still present, but it seemed to be dulling a little with every passing day and right now I was in the one room I have been unable to step foot inside. My daughter's nursery. I was looking at the crib, deep in thought when Ryan came into the room. He walked right over to me and as soon as he wrapped his arms around me the flood gates opened.

  “I’m sorry, Casey. I know you're hurting, I’m hurting too, but I’m staying strong for you and Robin. It's going to be okay, we will get through this. I know it's hard right now, but we will get through this.” Ryan said, while I was soaking his shirt with my tears. I knew he was right and I knew that we would be okay, but I still felt like a part of me was missing and it was. 

  “Do you think that maybe when we are ready we could try again or do you think it would be too painful for us?” I asked, hoping he would say yes. I desperately wanted another child, a sibling for Robin and although we had only just lost our daughter I still wanted to try again at some point. 

  “I promise that when we are both ready we will try again. It's okay.” Ryan said and I felt relieved that he agreed, but I also felt guilty.

  “I’m sorry I lost our baby.” I said, letting my tears out.

  “No, I will not let you blame yourself. This was not your fault, none of this was your fault, it was just a tragic accident, no one is to blame and especially not you. I don’t blame you and I never will. I love you.” Ryan said, shaking his head as he cupped my face and made me look at him.

  “I love you too, it's just hard knowing that I had a pup, our pup, growing inside me and now she’s gone. Our Dorothy is gone.” I replied, sighing. I was finding this really hard to deal with, but it was the fact that neither us or the doctor knew why it had happened in the first place. Was it something I did or didn’t do? Was it something I could have prevented or not? All these thoughts passed through my head on a daily basis, but the one thing I kept coming back to was the fact that I did the exact same things when I was pregnant with Robin and she was perfectly healthy, so maybe it was just a tragic accident like Ryan and the doctor said it was.

  “I’ll be okay, I just need time, that's all. Until then we still have the whole mystery surrounding my family and the fact that I may or may not have a sister out there. I don't know where to even start looking for her or for any clues to her whereabouts.” I said and Ryan nodded, but also looked thoughtful.

  “Have you looked through your parent’s things again, maybe there is something in there that you overlooked the first time you went through it all.” Ryan said and I nodded.

  “I haven’t looked yet, but I had the same idea, so I’m going to need to go through all those boxes and briefcases once again to see if I missed anything, but I’ll do it tomorrow. It's too late now and I don't really feel like getting them all out of the closet.” I replied, looking at the crib one last time before leaving the nursery. We went downstairs to the dining room to see that Robin was already in her high chair, being fed by her grandparents who doted on her. I laughed as Ryan’s dad, Alpha Ron made faces to try and get her to eat. We ate dinner and then put Robin to bed before Ryan and I settled on the couch in the living room to watch a tv show called Web of Lies. By the time the show finished we were both tired and all we wanted to do was go to bed and sleep, so we did. 

  The next morning I got up early, showered, dried off and got dressed all before Ryan woke up. He was sleeping so peacefully and I didnt want to wake him up, especially after the sleepless nights he’d had. I decided today was the day I was going to look through everything that my parents had left me. They had left me clues to everything else that they thought I needed to know, so why not the most important part, my sister. I went to the room where I kept all of my parents stuff and opened the closet doors, revealing all the boxes. I took all of them out, as well as the briefcases and spread them out across the room, deciding to go through them one by one and make sure I carefully look at each thing, even if it is just a scrap of paper. I grabbed the first box and sat on the bed with it, taking a deep breath before I took the lid off. I took out everything that was inside and there was nothing but papers in the box. I began to look through them, but as I was looking through something caught my eye, something with the name Sophia written on it. I immediately picked it up and saw that it was adoption papers, but they weren't for me, like I originally thought they would be. No, they were for Sophia. 

  “Wait, what? They adopted Sophia, just like they had me, but where is she now? Why wasn’t I told about her?” I asked out loud to myself. My parents had told me when I was thirteen years old that I was adopted and they explained everything to me, but they never mentioned Sophia once. Ever since my parents were murdered I had been finding out new things left right and center, things they did, things they were a part of and although I was tired of finding it all out, I also enjoyed it. Why did they adopt her? Was she like me and her real parents had died or was it something else? Where is she now? Why did they never tell me about her or anything to do with her? Does she remember me or anything about our time together? How long was she with us and why did she leave? I kept looking through the paperwork before finally finding an address, but it was my old address, which made sense as she lived with us. I finally emptied everything out of the box, but at the bottom there was a note, which confused me because I thought I had read everything in this box, but maybe I missed it. I took the note and unfolded it to see that it was another letter from my parents.

Dear Casey,

By now you have found the adoption paperwork for your adopted sister, Sophia. Her situation was completely different to yours because we found her in the woods one day and we didn’t hesitate in bringing her back home and getting her cleaned up. She was a beautiful girl and a few days after we found her we took her to the court house. We put in the adoption papers for her and when the court finally let us adopt her it was the happiest day of our lives and yours. We never for once thought that her real parents would one day come looking for her, but after three years they suddenly showed up at our doorstep. We were shocked when we first found out they were werewolves, but it never mattered to us. They were so grateful that we took care of her and wanted their daughter back. We didn’t want to give her up, but she didn’t belong in the human world because she would shift when she turned fifteen and without help she would die. We didn’t have a clue how to help her through her first shift, so we thought it best to give her back to her parents. I know that you are wondering why you don’t remember any of this or why we didn’t tell you, but we thought it best not to. Our guess is that you probably found everything by now and are curious, so if you're still wanting to look for her and meet her, then the address is on the other side of this note. I’m sure you will get along wonderfully, just like you always did.

Love,

Mom and Dad.

 So, my parents found her and after three years her parents came back for her, but why? Why was she left in the middle of the woods in the first place? Were there rogues after her and they thought she would be safe or was she taken from her parents and it took them three years to find her? Why don't I remember her?