Necessity

Date From Hell

I sat there in silence for hours. I noticed a few things though. Kathy talks too much and somehow thinks she's funny. Julie is just some stuck up b***h and the girl they brought which I don't even remember her name is annoying. She always grabbed my arm when she laughed and I wanted so bad to rip that arm right off of her body. My brother was dragging this damn day longer by taking me out with them to watch a movie. I don't know how I made it here but I was numb to everything around me lately. We were watching some sappy rom-com that I was clearly not going to pay attention to. There was a character though that had brown hair and brown eyes. They weren't anywhere as beautiful as Arias. Her honey-colored eyes were mesmerizing. Her long eyelashes that would just make her eyes more stunning. Her sweet smile that melted my heart every time I saw it. I started to think it was torture being able to remember every inch of my wife. I couldn't get them out of my mind. My mind then wandered off to the physical. I knew her scent better then I knew any scent in the world. Her touch that left my body burning for more. I just wanted to hold her. If I could do one last thing it would be to embrace her. Even if the rest of me wanted to do so much more. My mind then went somewhere I wish it didn't. I was flooded with images of our first night together then to our honeymoon, to all those spontaneous mornings and every damn shower I have ever taken since we became mates. What the hell was I supposed to do without her? I felt my hand grip the armrest and suddenly it snapped.

"f**k!" I cursed. I got up and everyone followed me out.

"Should we go for some drinks," I nodded only because I needed a beer and some whiskey. We went to a bar nearby and as I looked over to the happy couples I felt like I needed to drown in this alcohol as much as I could. Alpha Simon was acting like a completely different person and it pissed me off. I know how a mate can change but something felt off and then there was my brother, acting like a complete fool and not even giving a damn that I was dying inside and out. I heard giggles and laughter but I was oblivious to it all. I don't know how we made it back to my house but I walked upstairs and took my shirt off. I felt someone follow close behind but I reached my bedroom before they could even step inside. I locked my door and knocked down my dresser. I think it was a warning to whoever followed me to not dare try to come into my bedroom. No one came to clean my room, I had asked them not too. I punched the wall a few times and there were now fifty or so holes on my wall. I finally got tired and just fell onto the remnants of my bed and fell asleep.

The next morning, I heard laughter coming from downstairs. I took a quick shower and got dressed. My brother was making breakfast and holding Julie's hand. I wondered if I was just being a hypocrite. I knew I was very much attached to Aria but was it this sickening to others. Kathy and Alpha Simon were sitting at the breakfast table. In between kisses, they would continue to plan their upcoming wedding. What's her name was here too.

"Why are you all still here?" I asked my brother.

"Oh come on, we all had fun yesterday and we kind of drank a lot," he said.

"You should have walked Lauren home," Julie said.

"Who the f**k is Lauren?" I asked.

"You know who I am silly," she laughed.

"No, the f**k I don't," I answered back. Everyone just laughed and I grabbed a beer from the fridge.

"You should really lay back on the beer," Julie said.

"You should shut the f**k up and get out of my house," I said.

"Brother!" Jack shouted.

"It's ALPHA," I growled. "Do we have a problem."

"Oh Jack, you would make such a better Alpha," Julie said.

"Get out!" I shouted. "NOW!" Everyone started to grab their stuff and walked to the front door. My brother came close to me and bumped my shoulder and said: "Not a bad idea, being alpha."

"That will never happen, little brother," I growled. They all finally left and I went to sit on my couch and drank another beer.

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"Guy, I don't know what's going on but I think I am getting car sick," I complained. "Are we there yet?"

"Aria, chill the f**k out," Mason snapped. "Stick your head out of the window or something."

"I am not a dog, you incentive moron," I elbowed him in the ribs. Ricardo and Mason just laughed. Father Romero looked at me a bit serious but then turned away.

"We are almost there," Alpha Ricardo said.

"Good," I said. We have been driving for hours. The farther we get from my pack and from James the more my heart breaks. I know the mate bond is technically broken but because it wasn't really real I fell as if I can still faintly feel it. It's like a small connection that tells me how much James is still suffering. It could be the fact I know James so well. Of course, he is suffering, I am. I know he is still out there and waiting for me so I know my heart breaks every day I can't be with him. We still had another twenty minutes before we made it to where Alpha Crawford's pack was so I took a quick nap. I wanted to close my eyes and think of nothing but the happy memories I had with James. Like our first date or the first time he told me he loved me. The first thing I saw when I closed my eyes was his blue ocean eyes. So I dreamt of the night we had s*x on the beach all night.