That's not who I am!

Chapter 10

LIAM'S POV

Hour checks throughout the whole night was a killer. It was hard getting Jane to sleep through all that. How did Dr Vanguard expect Jane to rest when she put hour checks in. Jane would just fall asleep then she would walk in.. I was tired I had no idea how tired Jane must feel.

"Breakfast in bed" My mum says at just gone nine in the morning after the latest round of checks. Thankfully Dr Vanguard said Jane could stay out of the hospital for now so long as rest continued.

"Thanks Cara, I hate to be a bother bit once breakfast is done will you help me with a few things" Jane says sitting up. "Okay wete getting up then I think to myself.

"What things do you need help with?" My mum asks. "I need to redo my will, that monster has no place in it. I also need to somehow figure out how to wipe him of the funeral I've already paid for in full. He doesn't deserve it. I was thinking about it over night. I want the money I paid for that funeral to go do something nice for children's funerals instead. What I'm not sure yet" Jane says "I can handle all of that but you are to rest. I'll come back with the ball rolling come tomorrow but you are to rest. I'm taking it only Layla is left in your will now?" My mum says

"I haven't decided, just write Jim out of ot for now I can adjust it when I'm ready to. Right now it's stressing me out that people want me dead and he can gain from my death" Jane says. "Your not going to die and he won't gain anything" I say trying to stay calm. "I'll have it sorted today the will just don't stress okay" My mum says.

"Thankyou" Jane says taking the tray with breakfast on.

"Morning Jane, how are you feeling today? How about I join you for breakfast whilst Liam gets himself ready for the day?" My dad says coming into the room.

"I don't mind" Jane says so with that I take the opportunity to quickly go get ready for the day.

JANE'S POV

I finish up my breakfast and Aaron then puts down the paper after telling all news except anything relating to myself thankfully.

"Jane, you know me and Cara see you and Layla like the daughters we never had. Your have to forgive me in I'm not use to raising women. I have two fully grown men. Your also have to forgive me that you don't fully understand the world we live in. But I need you to know that I myself and my fully grown men can take out ten guys with weapons in a matter of minutes. We trained hard because in our world there's always a danger lurking around. We are masters in safety. Liam didn't go out alone yesterday he could easily go out alone but he didn't he had Chase. His and Lukes second right hand man after them. Chase also can take down servel men in minutes. We were fully safe. I can also say hand on heart no one knows your here. You are safe here. We are not in any danger related to you right now and even if we were we would handle it like taking candy from a baby. I understand you have gone through hell but we are masters in dealing with such stuff. Your learn in time we protect what we love and everyone in this family loves you. Everyone in this family will make sure you get through this" Aaron says so calmly as if he does this daily. He may do this daily I don't know.

"No really knows I'm here?" I say not knowing what to say. "No one knows your here at all. We won't allow anyone to know until your ready and even when that comes your still be safe. As much as I hope you decide to stay with us all where I can be at peace knowing your safe if you choose to move away start a fresh life I can make that happen as well. I'll do anything you want. But I just ask you allow us to show you we can keep you safe" Aaron says.

"Okay, I'll try my best, but you need to be patient with me right now I feel like I'm some hell and I don't know how to escape. I'm so use to relying solely on myself. I saw my parents though when I nearly died they kept pushing me back to stay alive and telling me wisdom advice. They also said I need to learn to trust people. I'm trying but it hard when I've got so much going on" I say.

"We know, I don't care about the outbursts. It's actually sweet you worry about us. You remind me of Cara when i first met her. But that's Caras story to tell. She trusted me when her world was in a bad way. She was my lawyer and boy I chased her. I'm glad I did because doing so saved her life. One of my enemies wanted her gone to stay out of prison to get back at me. But she trusted me when she didn't want to. I was determined then and I'm determined now to protect what's my family. Let Cara guide you the way, she understands the most" Aaron says and I never knew that. I knew Cara wasn't part of the Mafia and they fell in love but I didn't know that much.

"I hope Cara can give me her wisdom to be happy again, because right now I don't feel I have much to live for. I feel like I'm one more shitty situation away from ending it all" I say

"I know, I see it in your eyes. Cara can see it to because we lived through that. That's why Cara and myself agreed onky you are to know this story not even the lads know. I'll guide the boys to help you through and Cara will guide Layla. We just all have to be there and patient with each other. I promise its going to be get better though. Hang in there, if you feel like you want to act on any bad thoughts I want you to come to me or Cara okay" Aaron says.

"Okay" I say looking towards the door that's opening and I see Luke walking in bags full of full stuff. "I've brought so many tapes you bound to like something Sissy" Luke says smiling.

"Thanks" I say as I see Layla following in behind him also bags full as she says "And I have everything needed for our girls day"

"Well of we are having a girls day then we will need Cara" I say and then Aaron stands up saying "I'll get her" then he winks at me before leaving.

"I've brought two of each disapable vape they had. Let's see what sounds appealing and you can try them and we will go from there" luke says

A hour later Layla has set up movie day ready and I finally find a Vape I like. Dr Vanguard has just finished checking me over again. I feel ready for sleep already.

"So I'll come back and check you in three hours. Remember rest of I see you up and about I'm taking you to hospital no arguements. Enjoy yourself" Dr Vanguard says leaving the room.

"She a little scary" Layla says once she has left the room. "I know. Let's get movie day underway" I say cuddling into Layla who picks up the remote control and presses play on the TV. "She just cares, we all do" Cara says from sitting on the laptop she said she would join in once she had finished rewriting my will for me as she didn't want me to stress and I'm so greatful.

whilst we watch the first movie I think over what Aaron said this morning and I keep looking at Cara wanting to say something but I don't because Layla is here. Once the movie is finished she has me read over the will which I approve then she says it can be signed later after girls days and joins in.

I wait it out taking part smiling and laughing when I should but I feel empty inside. The second Layla goes to make us hot drinks I can't help myself "Cara, how do you survive after someone trys to kill you. How do you become happy again?" I ask.

"You continue to live life even when it feels like you can't like your doing today. Also get a good therapist and keep yourself surrounded by good people. We're good people and you know that. I've no doubt your going to stumble a few times, you had it worse than I did. But I'm here for you" Cara says.

LIAM'S POV

I worked from my study today. I popped up to check in on the girls day servel times from a distance I'd see it was okay then gi back to my room. I checked in with Dr Vanguard after each check she did on Jane.

knocking at my door pulls me from my thoughts. My dad walks in as he takes a seat he says "Stop worry, this is what your going to do. Listen carefully. I know what I'm talking about. Your going to be gentle firm. Your going to be gentle by being Jane's anchor. But your be firm with everyone else around her. Not Jane, your do as she needs and she will be okay. Don't let her see that ruthless side to you. Not yet, it's to early, but be firm. Jack just came to say the media know Jane's not in hospital anymore. There's speculation where she is. For now we shut it down no one is to know where Jane is until she is ready to show where she is. Prepare now how she will stay safe when that time comes. But most of all don't keep her from it let her know what's happening let her guide you and you guide her"

"Well that sounds easy" I say rolling my eyes. "It's not but love isn't easy, you world at it. Show that women how you care but you show her the gentle side the most right now and she will stay" My dad says.

"How do you seem so confident?" I ask

"Because I was you once Liam. Luke had it easy, he had his trying times sure but I can relate to you more when it comes to loving the women who doesn't trust anyone" My dad says.

"Mum didn't trust you?" I ask confused because that's news to me. "No she didn't trust anyone, but I wok her round and your win Jane round. You have to because I've promised that girl I do whatever she wants even set up a new identity and life if need be but she has promised to give us a chance to show we can keep her safe and with the people she loves and cares about" My dad says which is news to me.

"She ain't going anywhere" I say "I agree, so do as I say and trust me" My dad says standing up then he leaves my office giving me more to think about. What don't I know. But I do know his advice never fails me.

With that in mind I abandon my work, I need to go see my baby girl is okay with my own eyes again. I need to know she is as okay as can be right now. I quickly hurry down the corridor which seems so much more longer than it usually does since Jane has been here. As I get near her bedroom I hear my mum and Layla laughing I Peak inside to see Jane looks tired but she is smiling half there half in her own world.

I take a step back knowing she is okay when I hear Jane say "I wish life was like the movies or books. Life would be easier, at least then you know there's a happy ever after".

"Your happy ever after is in your hands Jane. Give yourself time" My mum says.

"I still think you should date Liam, he adores you let him be your happy ever after" Layla says.

I stop in my tracks, keeping out of sight as I continue to listen.

"It's not that simple, don't get me wrong I know Liam adores me. I like Liam, in an ideal world I'd of never gone through hell and I'd of dated him already who knows maybe have a little family now. But life isn't a fairy tale, I'm damaged he deserves better than me. I ain't good enough for anyone. That's why I don't date" Jane says and she sounds so sad.

"Thats rubbish and you know it. Your scared to let your guard down, your scared you're get hurt and you have had enough hurt and pain in your life. I know that's the real issue the sooner you see that the sooner your realise its okay to take a gamble" My mum says and she sounds like she knows from experience I'm definitely missing something there.

"You told me when I got with Luke you had your doubts because of his life style. Then he grew on you and when I had my wobble realising I was marrying into the Mafia you told me I'd be stupid to walk away, you where right. So let me tell you give yourself time but don't be stupid and fully give up on love. Liam adores you and you adore Liam I can tell. Your just scared and that's okay" Layla says.