That's not who I am!

Chapter 11

JANE'S POV

"Okay, maybe I'm a little scared. But who wants damaged goods seriously tell me who wants someone damaged I was damaged before but now it's even worse. People want to hurt me. People want me dead! I'm even more damaged I'm scared of my own shadow. No one wants a scared little woman, I helped raise that monster, surely people will just think I only know how to raise monsters. You know when I cancelled my fertility clinic appointment the woman said good my family shouldn't reproduce" I say

"She said what!" Liam says sounding so mad then he walks into the bedroom and we all look shocked.

He comes and stands next to the bed looking me dead in the eye as he says "You stop listening to stupid people. They don't know what they're talking about, you amazing. You are not damaged goods your damn perfect! you're be a great mum! I can't imagine a better mother for my own children one day so you don't listen to stupid people. You listen to people that are good and caring like everyone in this house. Not mindless assholes! You don't believe horrible cruel people who don't deserve s**t"

"Okay, I won't listen to them" I say wanting to calm Liam down I've never seen him so angry before.

"Good, I'm sorry I got angry, I'm not angry at you. I'm angry on your behalf" Liam says and with that, he walks out. He just leaves!

"He is just like his dad!" Cara says shaking her head. Don't be upset, he just cares" Cara says.

"I just didn't know he was out there. Damn, he is mad, should I go make sure he is okay?" I ask.

"Don't you dare, Dr Vanguard will kill us. I'll go" Layla says.

"No, you stay. I'll go" Cara says.

"Tell him I'm not mad he got mad, I'm used to Layla getting mad on my behalf even Luke sometimes I was just surprised" I say.

"Of course we get mad on your behalf, no one messes with you and gets away with it" Layla says and Cara laughs as she says "Okay, but there's a time to be mad and a time to be calm. Right now calmess until Jane is all better" with that she stands up to leave. But then Liam walks back in and he says "No, I'm not done. I'm sorry I really ain't mad at you but you need to know. In this family, we look after each other. In this family, family is everything and I'm so so so sorry your low-life brother couldn't see that. I'm so so sorry your parents left you so soon to take on the world. You don't know any different than to be so independent and take on the world alone. But here we take it on together. Here we are allowed to get mad and angry and defend the ones we love. And here everyone loves you like you deserve. You don't deserve to continue suffering, you don't deserve to feel like damaged goods. Here you have my parents who love you like a daughter. Here you have Luke who loves you like a sister and treats you like a sister. You have Layla, who God bless her sole I love her because she has been there for you all these years and has been your only sole solid person. She brought me the person I love. And whether you want me or not. Whether you love me or not I don't care because I love you and I'll do everything just to see you smile. I keep my distance to see that smile. I'll love you whether you want it or not. I'll protect you whether you want it or not. I need you to see that here you are loved. Here we are family, here is where you belong. We let your outburst go last night because that was you showing us you love us too. Just like now, my outburst shows I love you whether you want it or not" Then he runs his hand through his hair.

"Do you feel better now?" I ask "Yes, don't be mad at me?" Liam says suddenly looking worried his outburst may of pushed me over the edge.

"I'm not mad, I know you're all worried about me. Even I'm worried about me. It's not like I fell over and landed in the hospital. What's happening isn't a standard thing to deal with. It's hard on me and I know it's hard on you all. I heard you all talking to me when I was in my coma. I know you all love me. I love you all too, I'm glad to have you all in my life. I hate I'm in your life right now as well. I don't want anyone else to suffer because of that monster. I don't like it and don't wish it on anyone else but I am grateful that you are all here not letting me suffer alone at the same time. We will all figure it out together because like you just said that is what family does. I'm not mad at you for getting mad on my behalf. I'm also mad at the world right now" I say

"Damn, you two communicate better than I and Aaron did," Cara says quietly I just about hear it.

"We will deal with it as a family" Liam says smiling at me. I lift the quilt cover as I say "Come on come join us with the movie. Someone get Luke and Aaron too. It can be a family movie night" Liam smiles even brighter walking over so fast that before he is in the bed cuddling up to me as Layla says "I'll get the others and hot chocolates all around".

"I'm so proud of you all" Cara says smiling as Liam continues cuddling into me like his life depends on it.

"I won't ever be perfect Liam, but I do know that one day you definitely deserve that date you so badly want. If you can just be a little more patient though I'm not ready just yet" I say thinking back to what my parents told me. But mostly I already knew it. Cara is right I'm scared of getting hurt again but also right now I need to get my life in order again before I add in dating.

"I'll wait forever for you. But you will always be perfect for me" Liam says followed by a kiss to my forehead.

LIAM'S POV

"Half hour into family night and Jane's asleep" Luke says laughing. "Shh" I say not wanting her woken up. "He has a point all day Jane's been tired but hasn't slept" Layla says queilty. "Thats because Liam has been by her side since she woke up and there when she sleeps. It makes sense" my mum says.

"Do you know that from experience. You and dad have been saying odd things today" I whisper.

"We may tell you one day but yes, I do because your dad was the only way I could sleep" My mum says. "What are you on about?" Luke asks and I give him a look to say I'll tell you later what I know. "It doesn't matter. What matters right now is Jane" My dad says. "Well now Jane's asleep I'm going for a shower" Layla says standing up. "I'll join you" Luke says but he gives me a look saying find out what you can but make sure you tell me. he knows my look says I will.

when they both leave I say "What happened to mum?"

"Jane has it alot worse. But your right something happened to me. All you need to know is I overcame it. I'm happy now and one day Jane's going to be happy to. Dispite your little outburst you and Jane communicate better than me and your father did back then" my mum says

"What happened to being calm?" My dad says.

"I'm sorry, but I couldn't help it when I heard Jane talking about herself like a broken toy, she is a person the person I love no matter what has happened it won't change that" I say.

"I think she knows that, just be patient like she said. I honestly feel like once Jane overcomes what she has to your be together so quickly and I can't wait" my mum says. "I hope your right" I say.

"We are. Now enjoy your night I've got my own suroise for your mum. I know seeing Jane like this is hard on her beings back bad memory's and I need to spoil my own wife" my dad says. "Ooo, I love surpises. But Liam if you need us or Jane does just come to us okay" My mum says standing up.

"I will" I say "Goodnight" my dad says patting my shoulder.

I bid them goodnight and when they leave the room I turn the TV off as well as the bedroom light before sending Dr Vanguard a message stating we needed a good night sleep be nice on the check times. When I see she replied midnight and six am I was happy with that and gently got back into the bed trying not to disturb my baby girl. But she did as she cuddled straight back up to me.

"Go to sleep" I whisper before kissing her forehead and closing my own eyes.

I'm just drifting off to sleep when I hear my baby girl whisper. "I already fell in love with you to Liam at first sighg like you did me. I just haven't been strong enough yet. I'm just not ready for it all".

I kiss my baby girls forehead again before I say "I know baby girl. We have all time in the world. But right now just go to sleep" she tense up in my arms and I can't help smiling as I say "You thought I was asleep. I nearly was but I'm glad I wasn't. Don't worry I mean it we have all the time in the world. Go to sleep baby girl, I'll keep you safe from the nightmares". with that she relaxes and even snuggles in a little closer followed by a yawn as she says "Goodnight". "Goodnight, baby girl"

We slept and managed to sleep quickly after the night observations. It felt good to get some decent sleep. It was just gone ten in the morning when we woke up. I left Jane with Dr Vangard and lizzie whilst I came to make us breakfast in bed.

"Someone from the hospital has leaked to the media Jane comes here regularly" Luke says as I enter the kitchen.

"Then shut it down" I say

"Dad's outside telling the reporters to do one" Luke says "Great it was a great morning until now. Urgh, Jane doesn't need this" I say "I know, me and dad will deal with it. But we need to show our face in the office as well before people put two and two together making four. How wrong going to do that when Jane hates us being away?" Luke says

"I'll figure it out" I say as my mum walks into the kitchen and says "Don't worry I've sorted it. Jack is realising a statement stating Jane has been moved to a different hospital and will be in for likely a good month. That way it gives us time to get back to normal and work out a plan while things calm down"

"I like it. But I think we need to also realise a statement saying we will not be communicating anything or going anywhere to give away Jane's location. That way it will hopefully make people back off. failing that we will do it our way" I say "I'll do it out way anyway I ain't having reporters outside our house!" Luke says mad.