*****TRIGGER WARNING – ABUSE********
As time moved on, she started spending time with another. I was so cold, I cared, but I had no fight left in me. It had been nearly 9 months of ups and then different levels of hell. I felt like I couldn’t move without her needing to know why I was moving. I couldn’t breathe without her permission. It made me angry.
Jay’s drinking got worse and our fighting increased as well. I got a promotion at work, so there were new levels of hell they found for me. Then the hell Jay and Azura were putting me through. I needed air. I needed peace.
Azura admitted to having feelings for a girl at her new job. It hurt, but I was so cold and distant I didn’t do anything about it. I was hurting. Once again, feeling pushed aside and discarded. Being able to express m
