The next morning, I woke up in the hospital. Looking around and all of the events of yesterday were fresh in my mind. Every inch of my body felt like I had electricity running through me. It was the hum of my anxiety. Letting me know it was still there and fully ready to take over as soon as I put down my guard. Today was going to be a hard day. I took everything I was feeling and put it in my box. It had been so long since I had to do this. It hurt my soul to know I was back there.
I was discharged from the hospital and went straight to Safehouse. Their team there helped me file the petition for a protection order. After getting done with that, I went home. Autopilot had taken over and I cleaned the house. Jay was in bed sleeping. He was really struggling after everything happened.
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