The Apha’s Last Virgin Mate

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JASPER’S POV

How could I have found her so quickly? It usually took me a while to find another one but it was like she was just right there waiting for me to come and get her. I was happy that my sorrow had been short-lived but I still hadn't recovered from the loss of the previous one. I couldn't stand the thought of having to kill another one of my mates before the previous one even withered in her grave. I had made the decision the moment I layer my eyes on her that I would not let her go, I had made the excision that I was going to take my chances with her no matter what may come. I may have started second-guessing that decision after we left her but I knew there was no going back now. I had seen her and my wolf was pleased and satisfied with her.

I couldn’t get over how beautiful she was but I wanted to keep my distance from her. I kept thinking back to when I first saw her when I first picked her scent from the packed club. for a split second, I felt as if it was just the two of us in the club. No one else mattered but us, nothing else mattered but that moment. For just a second, she had made me forget my sins and had also relieved me of the guilt that had now become a part of my life. My wolf told me that I had to protect her, my wolf was not going to allow anyone to take her from us and I had to make sure that I never placed her in a situation where she could be hurt.

I didn’t want Ruth to find out that had found her so fast and have me kill her. If Ruth knew that I had already found my next mate she was most likely going to insist that we sacrifice her, she was going to insist that we visit the Oracle for clarification. The oracle had told us that one of my mates would be the chosen one for my mother and that was the reason why we kept killing them. so far, we hadn't found the one that the oracle had spoken of, and to be honest, I didn't think we could ever find her. I didn't think she existed and that was the reason why I was now feeling like this was not only a waste of time but a waste of my mates.

This was an impossible situation, how was I going to be able to keep my distance from the very person that I couldn’t live without? How am I going to convince my wolf that it was best if we kept this relationship a secret and away from the pack? As an alpha, my first instinct was to take her back home with me so that I could show her off to my pack members but I couldn't do that. I couldn't do that without risking her life, of course, the pack would be happy to finally have a luna and be happy that I would finally take over the throne but I knew that she wouldn't even live long enough to meet the pack. Ruth would never allow that to happen because she knew often said that she didn't want us to be questioned once the woman that was introduced as my mate had disappeared. she was right, but I was going to follow my instinct with this one.

I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to run away from this much longer and sooner or later I would have to face up to it, I would have to bring her home with me where she would meet Ruth. I really didn’t want to kill her but I knew that my sister wouldn’t understand this. It was like Ruth never understood the pain I went through each time I did this.

The process of luring them here and getting them to trust me always took its toll on me. The love and the connection that developed were never one-sided because I always developed a connection with them too. Ruth said that I wasn’t the only one that had sacrificed something in this, she said that she had also sacrificed her own mates. the fact that she didn't have a mate now made me believe that she had run out of mates. surely the moon goddess wasn't going to keep giving her mates that she was going to end up sacrificing anyway. this was what worried me the most, I was worried that one day I would also reach my limit and I wouldn't have another mate. Ruth often tried to tell me that there was no such thing but for some reason, I could never take her word for it, it would have been much easier for me to take her word for it if she had a mate but she didn't. what if this new girl that I had just met so quickly was the last one for me? If I told Ruth that I had met my mate she would be happy and she would even think that it was a sign that she was the one that we had been waiting for. according to Ruth, the oracle had told her that one of my mates would be the chosen one, and that was the reason why we had to keep sacrificing them until we found the chosen one.

A lot of things that my sister said to me never made sense to me but I chose to never question her, I trusted her because she was the only truth that I knew. She was the only person that had always been my support system and without her I had nobody. However, my trust in her didn't stop me from worrying about the elders too, it was only a matter of time before we would have a meeting and discuss the fact that I didn't have a mate. Of course, they were in no position to question me but their ultimate concern was the wellbeing of the pack. If anything happened to me when I didn't have a mate or an heir, it would mean that the pack would be left without an alpha. I couldn't disappoint my father and those before him like that, whether Ruth liked it or not, I had to find a way to keep this mate

“So are you going to tell her?” Silas asked me and I shook my head

“I can’t do that man…if I tell her she will tell me to bring her in. It's so early for me to do that” I said

”But you know that she is going to find out sooner or later?” he asked and I nodded. No secret ever stayed hidden from my sister. She always had a way of finding out things that I tried to keep from her. As a matter of fact, I don’t think I ever successfully kept anything from her even in our childhood. Every time I tried to keep something from her she would either find out on her own or I would end up confessing it myself. This was the reason why I no longer kept anything from her, sometimes I thought that she had eyes at the back of her head because it was as if she could always see everything happening around her. That especially applied to anything that had anything to do with me

“I just keep her a secret for a while?” I asked him “I mean I won't even speak about her. I will watch her from a distance and satisfy my need to be close to her that way” I said

“Jasper you know that will never be enough, you are an alpha wolf and this is your mate that we are talking about. It's either you stand up to your sister and tell her you are done with this or just do as she says” he said

“I know what I will do,” I said thoughtfully “I won't bring her to the mansion, I will find a secret place where I can keep her. a place that no one but us will know about. I will keep her hidden until I find a way to help my mother other than the one that the oracle has been having us do” I added and he shook his head

“What about her scent?”

“She is human, I always smell like them anyway because I am always around them in the club,” I said, the club that we had just been to was mine and it was also my favorite place to distress. I had never hooked up with a human female but I did enjoy spending time with the males. I often found it refreshing to listen to them complain and b***h about the kinds of problems they faced as humans. that was the reason why I smelled like humans most of the time.

“I disagree with you man, I say just tell her the truth” he suggested

“I can’t do that…I don’t want to hurt her feelings” I said "Ruth is very sensitive and she easily takes things very personally. If I tell her that sacrificing my mates is a good idea will hurt her and she will think I am second-guessing her" I said

“What about what you want? What about your life? what about how you feel?” he asked “do you realize that her own life is still going on while yours is on stand-by?” he asked seemingly upset on my behalf. One thing I loved about Silas was how loyal badly was to me, but there was another thing that I hated about him and it was when he spoke badly about my sister. I could never tolerate anyone that bad-mouthed my sister.

“Everyone has made a sacrifice and she gas made the ones that were meant for her,” I said, Ruth had made her fair share of sacrifices that included her running this pack when she could be out there trying to find a mate she could build a life with.

“So what you are telling me is that you will give this one up too?” he asked me and I sighed with regret.

“I have to do what I have to do, I hate doing this but it is my life,” I said and he shook his head and focused on the road ahead as he continued driving the car. I knew he had a lot to say but he chose to stay silent. I was relieved that he didn’t say anything because the last thing I wanted to do tonight was argue with him about my sister. He knew I loved her and there was nothing that he could do to convince me otherwise. I was loyal to Ruth because she was loyal to me, my sister had never done anything or made a decision that backfired on me and that was the reason why I trusted her and followed her so blindly.

However, I didn’t want to give this one up too easily but I knew that there was no other way out, I had to do what I had to do. I didn’t expect anyone to understand the situation that I was in, no one else had ever had to sacrifice someone they love, and no one else that I knew had ever been in a position where they had to choose between the people they loved. All I knew was that my mother was important to me and so was my sister and I couldn't just turn my back on them all because of a mate.