Love Doesn't Exist

Break it or Make it

jays pov

after hanging up the phone to Sam I open the alcohol cabinet and pour myself some scotch. I quickly down it and want more to take the edge off but don't because it would upset claire more if I got wasted right now. "hey" I look up to see a puffy eyed claire. "I um, I've been thinking." she says quietly sitting down next to me. "and what I kept thinking about the most" she looks at me "is that you didn't ask to be born, you didn't ask to have a dad in the mafia. it's not your fault your parents decided that they want to lead a life like that and you shouldn't have to suffer because of it." she straddles my lap like she usually does and uses her hand to hold up my chin. "I want to make this work" she sighs leaning down and kissing me sweetly. thank God because I couldn't live without her. she hugs me and lays her head on my shoulder her lips almost touching my neck. "we can make this work" I say rubbing her back. pulling me down she kisses me roughly. "i want u to f**k me fron behind" she groans. "roughly" she adds and pulls off her clothes. i push my trousers and boxers down to stroke my c**k but she leans down and sucks on it a little while she plays with the base if it with her hands. "turn around!" I grunt loudly and push her face down to the leather of the couch. she lifts her arse into the air like a cat and spreads her legs as she moans. "ah, f**k!" just like she asked di roughly sink my c**k balls deep into her wet p***y from behind her and thrust. harder and harder and harder. the harder I f**k her the louder she moans until she screaming and her c*m covers the couch. finally I pull out and c*m on her cunt. she groans and falls forward, tired out, flat on the couch. together we sit there for a while just cuddling. when we pull apart she walks over to the kitchen and pulls out some frozen wedges to cook. "do you like sour cream on yours?" she asks casually as if she didn't just find out my dads the boss of a mafia gang less than a few hours ago and we didn't just have a make up f**k sesh "yeah" walking into the kitchen I watch her prep the food and put it into the oven. she comes over to me and pulls me towards her, wrapping her arms around me. I let out a deep breath and sit my chin on her head, staring out the kitchen window. feeling her small hands on my back makes me feel calm, like it might actually be possible to make this work. when we pull apart she smiles. "you know you've changed my mind about alot of different things." she says quietly "like what?" I ask "like love" she blushes and looks away, there's something else "and..." I prompt leaning in and holding her hands "and I know this seems so stupid especially with this whole gang thing now but, I was thinking you changed my mind about having kids someday" she laughs at herself. and looks away from me. "this is so stupid we've only been together for 2 months" she laughs "babe I don't care if it's been 2 months or 2 years or 2 decades, I'm always gonna feel the same way about you" I assure her. "same here...I think" she says trying to hold back a smile. "I feel like I've known you forever though" I confess "if only that were true" she says looking out at the back yard.

Claire's pov

after lunch we decide to go for a walk with Prince down to the park. "so, is your dad very scary?" I ask and he thinks for a second "well in different ways he is but to me he's not exactly scary, but I guess that because I know he won't kill me." he says rubbing his neck. "Will he want to kill me?" I ask think and he laughs "didn't you hear what mac said? my dad will be ecstatic, he'll be pushing for us to get married when you're of legal age" he chuckles. "really? why, he doesn't even know me yet" I say "he knows I wouldn't pick out a bitchy little dumbass and he doesn't really care anyway, no offence. he only cares that you could give him grandchildren, preferably boys. to pass on the name" he looks at his feet "what about you though, is that what you want?" he scoffs "my dads old fashioned I don't care if I ever have kids or not and even if I did I wouldn't care if I ended up 5 little girls" I smile "what?" he asks amused. "I can't imagine you playing dollies with five little girls" we laugh together "what about your mum?" he shoves his hands in his pockets and looks up at the sky "my mum is really great, you'll love her. She cooks alot and loves to spoil the guys with it" he smiles "when I was little we used to make candy together" he says happily. "after the age of around six or seven I had to start spending more and more time with my father though" I pass the leash to jay to give my arms a break, prince hasn't learnt to heal yet. "what did you do with your dad?" he sighs "you really want to know?" I nod "I used to go with him on business, sometimes it was massive drug deals, to collect p*****t or other stuff like that. the payments though usually invloved hurting people or worse. by the time I was 12 he would get me to help him, pass him the gun or knife. get me to torture I guy here or there. and when I was 16 he had me kill two men. men who had kids and wives, family." wow okay "do you still wanna make this work?" he asks "jay, did you want to kill those men?" I ask him and he shakes his head "no, I had to even if my dad won't kill me he'll still hurt me. I can't look weak infront of his men otherwise tjats a bad reflection on him. he's broken my arm before you know, clean snapped. there's metal screws in it now" I gasp at the thought and rember the time my mum thought had broken my wrist, she refused to take me tonthe emergency department until the school nurse sent a note home. its also alot to process, knowing my boyfriend is a murderer"why?" I look at his pained face "it was the first time he wanted me to hand him his gun, he wanted to kill a girl bearly older than you are now she was abducted and sold into s*x trafficking. I was only 10 and I knew she didn't deserve it. he ended up getting the gun him self and then when we were getting the car to leave he tripped me and stepped on my arm, but my hand was holding the bottom of the door so, it snapped." he Shrugs and we keep walking to the park in silence. when we arrive we play around with Prince for a little bit then walk back

"what the hell!?" as we walk up to jays house we see five big black tinted SUVs parked put the front all woth tinted black windows. "aww for f***s sake, I know he said sooner than I thought but I definitely didn't think it would be today" I look to jay then the cars "this is your dad?" he nods "if you want I'll call you an uber or something?" he offers "no it's fine, I should meet him, I trust that you'll keep me safe" I say grabbing his hand as we walk up to the front door together with Prince leading. the door is already open. when we walk in there's two men standing just inside the door. and as soon as we walk past the threshold jay seems to change, his face changes to stone cold and he seems to take up more space in the house than he used to. As I walk next to him into the lounge room I get a shock when I see a security team bigger than the one I had for the red carpet and this is for only one man "didn't bring mum along?" jay says, his voice dark and business like, as we sitdown together on the couch next to a angry looking man with alot of the same features as jay but with more wrinkles and frown lines. surprisingly he has no tattos unlike all the other men in the room. "no she's on a girls trip to some island or something a rather. I came here to talk you" he says looking at jay and then his eyes land on me, looking me over he smiles "and you, I wasn't going to come and see my son but when mac told me about him having a women in the house I had to see for myself" he says smiling at me. I'm surprised he dosent seem as scary as I thought he would be. "it's nice to meet you sir" I say and he nods "tell me child what's your name?" he asks leaning towards me and jay "claire smith" I answer "How old are you Claire" he says studying my face, probably trying to guess my age. "I've just turned sixteen a few days ago" he seems surprised "only sixteen" he says looking at jay "you like the younger ones" he chuckles "no I thought she was 17 when I meet her and she was only 15" I look up at jays face "and how long have you two been together?" his dad asks "we've officially been together for nearly three months but we've been hanging out for around ten or nine months." I answer and the man smiles. "so do you have plans?" he asks looking between us. "for what?" i ask "marriage, kids?" he suggests just like jay said "umm no, no plans yet, as I said we've only been a couple for two months." I explain and he nods "well thing is, he's never actually had a girlfriend before, sure he's slept around and what not but never has he had a girl stick around for more than a few hours even. I'm putting money on you two being end game" he says then pulls out a cigarette. "umm I'm sorry but could you wait until you're outside to light that, we could talk outside?" I suggest and he raises his eyebrows looking to jay. "I was woundering what happened to this place that's usually covered in s**t and why you haven't lit up one with me yet, this women has you wrapped around her tiny finger" he laughs looking at me "definitely a keeper, so when will the two of you join me in Italy?" he says firmly "dad I already told you it's not happening" his dad grunts "Son, you listen to me, I'm getting old and I need you to take over when I can't do the jobs anymore, now you've got yourself a good women come and settle down with the job. if you don't a" she says concerned "I don't even know how to speak Italian!" she says "look what if I try to compromise with him, what do you say about going to collage together for a couple years we can go to the same one. which ever one you chose. and then if you're ready and sure you still want to be with me, we'll move to Italy" I say. and she nods "that's a great idea, but will he take it?" she sighs "he'd want to because if I can't have you I won't have anyone else and if I won't have anyone else he won't get his grandchildren, that's what I'll say anyway" she smiles "I didn't realise you're actually smart" she jokes "what collages are good around here?" she asks "how about Harvard? they'd have art majors to chose from" I suggest "yeah? would we live in a dorm like in movies, would I have to have a room mate?" she's starts to get excited. "well you could if you wanted to but I was thinking about getting an apartment that's close by, you could move in with me." she suddenly looks sad "what about Prince? I can't leave him here all alone" she holds up her puppy "no he can come along" I say which brings about a smile but it quickly disappears "i dunno, Te and Gus have done so much for me and I'm already thinking of moving away. I know they're not always around all the time but I don't want to up set them" of course she'd think that "babe they'd expect you to go to collage anyway" I assure her "yeah but not across the fricken continent!" she exlaims worried and starts to bite the inside of her lip. "they could probably catch a plane over when ever they wanted" I mean they're famous actors, they have their own private jets. "okay, well after this week I'll talk to them about it but I'm not gonna tell them about Italy. I'll just say we're planning on going to harvard together" she says leaving out the stuff that my dad wants to happen.

"so..." she says "so" I mimick her. "how about everything and everyone else in the world can go get f****d for all I care and just for this one week we'll pretend like we have somewhat normal lives" she giggles

Claire's pov

leaning down he whispers against my neck "does that mean we can go back to bed?" giggling I nod and he swiftly picks me up and runs up to his room where he sits me on the bed. "how about we put on some music" he mlsuggest wiggling his eyebrows. "mkay" he pulls out a Bluetooth speaker and puts on the song from magic mike making me laugh he purposely does a bad strip tease until he'd just in his underwear and then kneels at the bottom of the bed where I'm sitting. pulling my pants off along his hoodie I'm wearing, he pushes my legs apart so they spread wide then pulls one over his shoulder. smirking he leans in and licks my p***y at a excruciatingly slow pace. up ans down, up and down. he finds my clit and starts to work his toungue faster. "mmm f**k" I can't help moaning, it feels good but I need him inside me. throwing my head back I start panting from the pleasure caused by his toungues friction. "f**k babe! ohh" I cry out as I squirt on his face. he sucks it all up and and look up at me licking his lips while he strokes his own c**k through his boxers. "stand up" I order him and he gets up. pulling his underwear down his thick hard juicy c**k springs free, so erect it's almost touching his abbs. "ohh I wanna f**k you until you can't walk straight" he moans "okay but first I wanna try something" I say leaning forward I take the top of his d**k in my mouth and watch his jaw drop and his eyes almost roll back in his head as his hands hold my hair. I slowly lick from his big balls to the tip of c**k. he's been circumcised so it's nice and neat. I start by just sucking on the very tip using mostly my toungue, looking up I watch him try not to lose control. I places both of my hands at the base of his c**k and then take him as far into my mouth that I can take. God he's so big. carefully I start bobbing my head to suck on him. after a while he starts to thrust his hips causing his c**k to go even further down my throat. I move my hands further down and strokes his hairy balls causing him to cannon his load down my throat. when he done I look up at him smiling and panting with sweat dripping down his face and chest. "was that okay?" I ask standing up and wiping my lips. "that was by far the best blow job I've ever had" he sighs kissing me and tasting his own seed in my mouth. "were you serious when you said I could f**k you until you couldn't walk." biting my lip, knowing I've gotten myself in I smile "yep" he groans again as I press myself up against him making my erect n*****s rub on his chest, he wraps his arms around me and hoists me legs around his waist to kiss me roughly. my hands fist in his hair as he moans into my mouth. walking backwards he lays on the bed with me ontop of him still kissing. "suck on my t**s" I command and he latches on suckling and tickling me with his toungue and teeth. reaching down I feel his c**k and hold it occasionally rubbing it to get it nice and hard again soon, ready to f**k me. I squirm and my cunt flexes thinking about his big c**k. when his c**k is ready he rolls on a condom. "wanna stay ontop?" he asks I nod and kneel with my legs either side of him, "is this okay?" "yeah then you can just lower yourself down" he says holding his c**k in position I lower myself down on him and slowly fill myself up. when I have all of him inside I me I open my eyes not realising I closed them and look down at jay smiling at me. he places his big soft hands on my hips gently. "for someone who wants to f**k me until I can't walk you sure are gentle" I tease and start move up and down riding him. throwing my head back start thrusting harder and harder feeling him hit my g spot his c**k as hard as a rock fills up every dam inch of me. "dam baby I'm gonna c*m soon" I warn and he reaches down to rub my clit with his hand while I keep riding him my thrusts getting sloppier as I get closer. my p***y spasms and shudders as I c*m. panting I hop off of him every though he didn't c*m. "we're not done yet" he warns me rolling me onto my back and pushing my legs back so my knees are in the air, spread apart with my p***y fully exposed. he thrust into me pumping harder and harder. sweat beads on his brow and runs down his face as he pants I run my hands down his back to butt and feel it flex as he pushes his d**k deeper and deeper. "OOH MMM!" moaning and sweating too with my legs in the air I'm close to cumming again already for the second time. this time he cums with me.

"I know I said you can f**k me till I can't walk but I can't take anymore" I laugh rolling over. he mumbles something and then cuddles up to me. "it's all good I'm going to take a shower, kay?" he says getting up and walking over to the shower. I listen to the water turn on. I kinda want a hot shower now too. quietly I walk into the bathroom and step into the shower where jays washing his hair. reaching around him I hug him from behind. "hey" he chuckles. happily, his voice a little horse. "hey" I reply as he turns around. his arms drape over my shoulders and I lean my face onto his hard chest. we stand there together, letting the water runs over us, two kids in love. yeah I said it. love.