Love Doesn't Exist

renovations and revelations.

Claire's pov

as he smiles down at me he whispers into my ear. "I can't tell you how much I love you" a tear slips down my face and we both know what that means. "I couldn't tell you how much I love you too" I whisper back to him. "out baby will be loved so much" I say and he rubs my belly. "yes he will be" he says with a smile in his voice. "okay, he will be" I say agreeing with him, I think it's a boy too. I lean over and take an olive to eat. "this is really good, you need to get this brand more often!" I say surprised. "you know why you love them so much?" jay asks. "why?" he continues gently rubbing my belly. "because inhad my father fly them in from Italy, they're the best of the best" he says "and you and my son will only have the best of the best" he adds. "mkay" I say as I turn myself around and straddle him, reaching down between us I stroke his beautiful c**k. already standing to attention and swollen. jay looks at me smiling. "mmm baby" he says looking down at my t**s. "better enjoy them while you can, before long they'll be leaking milk and saggy" I say "I wouldn't care, even then" he says laughing, he leans down and takes one in his mouth while he uses his hand on the other. before long I'm panting and moaning. "I want to try something" he says and I nod. he spreads his legs and places me between them with his c**k so erect it's touching his stomach. then the leans over and turns something on. jets of bubbles hit my p***y making me wiggle. I move a bit and ohhhh fuckkk. he turns them up, it's so powerful it's. parted my p***y lips and is massaging my clit. "woowww" I breathe and he laughs then turn it up even higher. "f**k!" I have to hold onto the edge of the bath. before long I c*m. turning off the jets he turns me be back around. "now are you ready?" he asks and I can't help smiling. "f**k yess I am" I moan as he lifts me up and positions his c**k. I slip down on it and watch his mouth fall open in bliss. pushing up and falling back down on his c**k i cause waves of water to splash over the bath. faster and faster we go, my t**s jiggling. then I stop and get an idea. turning around I face away from him while we f**k "turn on the jets" I pant and he does as he's told. so while we f**k the jets stimulate my clit. "I'm gonna c*m!" I yell out and he grips onto my thighs in reply, he's going to c*m too. together we explode, I fall back and lay ontop of him again. "that was so f*****g good" he says, I can't talk so I just nod.

jays pov

after getting out of the bath we walk back to our room and dry off. "what are you doing!?" I laugh watching her flop herself down on my bed butt naked. "I don't like wearing clothes when I sleep" she says yawning as she stretches out like a lazy cat. I smile and chuck my towel on floor then get into bed naked too. I pull the doona back and she rolls over and gets under the covers. "you know I won't be able to do that in six months" she says "do what?" I ask "roll across the bed" she giggles. "im gonna be so fat and round I won't be able to see my feet." she says trying to joke but I can tell she's scared. "hey" I reach out and pull her to my chest as I play with her hair. "it's going to be okay, I'm here" she laughs "mkay daddy, I'll just magically transfer the baby to you and you can give birth" she jokes. "I wouldnif I could" I say "really?" she asks "I would do anything for you" it's the truth, I would die for her and out baby. "mmm" she mumbles tiredly and quickly falls asleep. I can't sleep though, I lay there looking at her and can't help thinking. what if something went wrong when she's giving birth? what if she gets really hurt? what if she dies? a lump forms in my throat, it does happen. I can't imagine losing her. it would be my own selfish fault for not telling her, this all could've been avoided if I had just told her. how often do women die from giving birth? is the risk higher when you're younger? what if I can't do anything to help her? thoughts race through my mind and I realize I can't breathe. f**k. I quietly and gently move away from claire and get out of bed pulling on some pants i take my phone with me downstairs. I walk down stairs and sit on a lounge chair by the pool pulling out an emergency cigarette. I pull out my phone and see a message from sam- hey, we still on for tomorrow? I text him back -not sure yet need to talk to claire first. it's left unread, reasonably since it's like 2 am and he's either asleep or stoned off his face. I flick my ciggy butt out and flick it into the empty ash tray, hopefully claire won't notice. I go to get up and almost scream. "jesus f*****g christ!" I yell surprised. there standing at the open door in a white silk robe loosely tied around her is Claire. "I didn't mean to scare you" she says softy. "I just woke up and realised you weren't there, I came looking for you. I didn't realize you were so stressed out" she says quietly with concern as she walks closer to me. "why do you think I'm stressed?" I ask and she picks up the ashtray. "it's been a while since you've had one of these" she says trying to smile. "yeah, I'm sorry" I say knowing she doesn't like people smoking "don't be, it's okay." she says the moonlight shinning across her face making her look like a angel. she wraps her arms up around my neck and hugs me, her scent over powering my senses. i lean into her and pick her up so our faces are level. "what have you been thinking about?" she asks like she can read my mind. "nothing much really" I lie, I don't want to tell her I'm worried our baby might kill her. "really?" she asks. "really" I say smiling at her concerned face. "do you think this will change when we have a baby?" I ask "what exactly is it that you're talking about?" she asks. "just us I guess" she shakes her head "everything will be different, but we'll make it work. we'll learn and figure it out as we go" she sighs looking up at the moon. "you gonna come back to bed?" she wounders as I set feet back down on the ground. "yeah" she grabs my hand and pulls me back to bed.

Claire's pov

rolling over the soft sheets fall off me and I feel the sun shining down on my face. slowly my eyes open and I look around. the blinds are open and next to me the bed is empty. getting out of bed I pull on a pair of underwear and one of jays big shirts. sleepily I walk downstairs still half asleep and make my way to the kitchen. after getting my jar of olives I look up across the kitchen to the lounge room and realise jay, tylor, Sam and mike and all sitting there playing a video game. what the f**k how did I walk past them and not even notice? "hey" I say as I get out a fork and walk over to sit on jays lap. "what's up? you never sleep in this late" tylor says "oh, it's not that late is it?" I ask looking at Sam "it's past nearly three in the afternoon" he says. "you guys have a drink fest last night without us?" mike laughs looking at jay and I. "no, we most certainly did not" I say looking to my man. we both know the boys ate going to have to find out eventually. "there's actually something we wanted to tell you guys" I say and jay raises his eyebrows. "oh come on jay, they'd figure it out soon enough" I say and they all forget their game when they see jays serious face. "what? don't tell me you two got married in Vegas or some s**t" Sam laughs "no but this is actually serious" I say. "well spit it out then" mike says anxiously "we're having a baby" I say and watch their jaws drop. "hahahaa!! you really had me there you guys are so serious I almost believe you" mike laughs. "no, she's actually preggers" Sam says. "this was an accident? right?" tylor asks concerned looking between us "a happy accident" I smile and he let's out a low whistle "well say good bye to your s*x life and your social life, I guess after the kid is born we'll never see you again" mike sighs. "oh don't be like that, as long as you guys are mindful about the baby you're all still welcome to come around but maybe not so regularly for the first few months" I explain and Sam perks up a bit "boy or girl?" he asks making jay laugh "boy!" he says "we don't know yet" I correct him shaking my head. "he'll call you uncle sam" jay jokes and the boys laugh together.

jays pov

after we joke around a bit claire gets a phone call "mmhm...yes....no I specifically asked for sky blue not light blue or baby blue sky blue...." I get distracted from her by the game um playing but I guess it's about the decor at the lakehouse. after she hangs up she turns back to me "I want everything to be mostly gender neutral so I'm gonna have the walls painted like the sky with clouds and a rainbow." she says happily. "I don't want to find out the gender, I want to wait till birth" she bites her lip looking down at me on the couch. "okay" I agree, what ever she wants is fine with me, but I really want to know if it's a boy or girl. "what do you think about adding a few rooms to the house?" she asks sitting down with me. "what for" I wounder "maybe a man cave for you and a play room for the baby as well as a second bathroom with a nice big bath, you know I like baths and the bathroom that's already there only has room for a shower" she showing me photos of spa baths. "ohh, I like that one" I say looking at a black one with enough room for probably four people. "it's pretty big" she laughs "well when your all swollen with bubba you'll want more room" I chuckle and she rolls her eyes "you're probably right though" she admits giggling "so should I pick this one?" she asks "yeah, you can pick anyone you want, have whole indoor pool if you like" I say as she screen shots the photo and messages it to the renovators. "I think I want to re tile the original bathroom to match the new one too" she says.

for the rest of the day she makes plans for our new family home while me and the guys play video games and mess around.

Claire's pov

after the guys leave I get out some stuff from the fridge along with some fresh salmon and make salad to have with the fish. "mmhmm" jay mumbles over my shoulder as he comes up behind me placing his hands on my hips. "I've finished making design changes for the house, the lady said it would take about four weeks minimum to get it done." I explain to him and I feel him nod. "cool" I laugh "I can't believe you don't even care that I'm renovating your family lakehouse and you don't even have any input. for all you know I could have arranged for a life size shrek sculpture for our garden" we both laugh together at the thought. "and I'll love having shrek in our garden" jay jokes. "on a more serious note, how do you feel about a waterfall and pond with some goldfish?" I ask him and his eyes twinkle in the afternoon light. "I think that's a great idea" he says watching me as I bring over the plates of food for our dinner. "you know I could get used to this" jay sighs "used to wjat?" I ask curiously "us having dinner together like a normal couple" he laughs again "exept we are nowhere near normal, we're going to be teen parents" I giggle "true that" I agree smiling.

after we eat and clean up Jay picks up his cat keys. "let's do something fun" he says "like what?" I ask raising an eyebrow. he holds up his hand "it's a surprise. give me a minute." he runs up stairs and I slip on some shoes, going along with his antics. "come on" he says walking back down the stairs with a duffel bag, heading towards the door. following behind him I shut and lock the door to the house. "so where are we going?" I ask and he winks at me "it's a surprise" he whispers smiling. "well how about a hint?" I ask and he shakes his head, the dark mop of uncut hair swaying. "okay then, how about we play a game?" I ask "like what?" he asks "eye spy?" he laughs "okay" he agrees "eye spy with my little eye something starting with v" I say and he looks around "inside or outside the car?" he asks looking inside the car. "outside" I reply smirking. "hmmm" his eyes look sound in front of us "v8?" he asks looking at a sports car in the lane next to us. "nope" I smile. for the next 20 minutes or so he keeps guessing until he looks in the revision mirror. "Volkswagen?" he asks and I roll my eyes "yesss" for the next few hours we keep playing until the silver moon his high in the cloudless sky.

eventually we pull up at a beach. "you took us to the beach?!" I look at him and see his smile "Malibu, to be precise" he says pulling the bag over from the back seat and flings me a bikini. "go on" he smirks and I roll my eyes. stopping off in the car I change into the bathing suite and he just strip's off to his underwear grinning like an i***t. "race you" he says excitedly as we get out of the car and we start running down the sandy path through some brush and then out to the beach. he runs down into the water but I stop. and I look out at the scene infront of me. the ocean stretches out as far as I can see, a deep dark blue with a silver path creates by the big full moon looming over the earth. the sand pale and perfect, my man, my Jayden standing in the water smiling at me. "are you coming!?" he yells and I nod running again I rush through the water until it's up to my chest and I'm standing next to him. he looks at the moon and back to me "I have one request" he says seriously and I nod "anything" is my ear reply. "if by some chance it's a baby girl, can her name be Luna?" I look up to the moon and smile "since it's you're only request and I like the name too, yes" I giggle as he wraps his arms around my waist pulling my legs around his hips. "I love you, so so much" his voice breaks as he looks at me. leaning up we kiss, curling my fingers in his hair I sigh against his lips. "I love you so much too" I say looking into his chocolate eyes. he looks as if he's about to say something but then shuts his mouth "what? what were you about to say?" I ask quietly. "you'll think I'm stupid" his voice shakes "never, come on, tell me. I'm curious now I need to know" he sighs unhappily "I don't want to make you anxious" he adds concerned. "Tell me anyway" I urge him resting my head on his shoulder near his neck. "I'm worried about you giving birth, I'm scared you'll get hurt, or might die. I don't want our baby to take you from me" he says upset. I rub his back woth one hand and run the other through his hair. "Jayden, with all the medical advancements of today the mortality rate of births are quote low and if anything goes pear shaped there's always c sections. I promise this baby won't kill me." I assure him and he sighs with a little bit of relief. "I'm going to hold you to that" he chuckles. "good" I say as I lean back up to kiss him again.

for I don't know how long we cling together kissing in the water. when we are fingers and toes are so shrivelled they look like raisins we go back up to the beach and walk along the sand collecting shells and looking at crabs and other sea life there. "here" jay hands me seasnail shell the size a of a 50 cent coin. it's a light pink colour with stripes of orange and red. "it beautiful" I take it and plan on keeping it. "we should go find a hotel to spend the night" he says holding my hand and leading us back to the car. handing me a towel I dry off and pull on one of his hoodies leaving my dried bather bottoms on until we get to the hotel.

we drive through the city until jay pulls up outside a really fancy looking hotel. "umm, I don't think I'm dressed right for a place like this" I say worried they won't let me in, jay passes me some leggings. "here you go" I slip them on and get out of the car. "I still feel under dressed for such a fact place" I whisper to him as we walk in and the staff around the lobby gives us weird looks. "don't care about them" he mumers into my ear as we walk up to the service desk where a middle aged women is judging us with her beady eyes and thick eye-liner. "I'd like to have the penthouse for tonight and a late checkout tomorrow" jay says pulling out his credit card. the lady quickly taps some keys and after a few pleasant words are exchanged she hand over a key card to the room. wrapping his arm tightly around my waist jay guides me to the elevator where we go to the top floor ans walk into out room. "woow, just for one night?" I laugh and look at him "yuuup, just for tonight, just for us. I'm going to fill up the bath" he smirks walking from the massive lounge room into the bathroom. after a few seconds I hear water running. still standing in the lounge room I strip off until I'm naked walking over to the mini bar I find icecream and open it. mmm. "can I have some?" comes a deep husky voice from a very turned on Jayden. "sure" I say turning around and pupping another spoonful into my mouth. I kiss him, pushing the icecream from my mouth into his and listen to him moan feeling it rumble through his chest. I lean back and smile. "you're so f*****g hot" he sighs as I clench the spoon between my teeth grinning at him "and you're sexy as f**k" I Purr sitting aside the icecream I pull off his clothes slowly, kissing him. down his neck, across his chest, down his arms and down his legs then up again. pulling off his underwear I let his c**k spring free. I wrap my hands around the base and lean down touching my lips to the tip if his d**k. "f**k, baby girl" he moans as I take him in my mouth. as I suck on his c**k I play with his balls, feeling them eventually clench a little and then he cums down my throat. "oh, Dam babe that was good" he sighs as drops of sweat run down his abbs. "let's go see if the bath is full" I suggest smiling. "that's a great idea" he agrees following me. "did you use a whole fricken bottle of bubble bath?" I wounder looking at all the bubbles almost over flowering from the tub. "maybe" he Shrugs and steps into the bath then holds out his hands to make sure I don't slip getting in. "if we sit down we're gonna flood the bathroom" I warn him and he wriggles his eyebrows. "I don't care" he chuckles and pulls me down into the bath with him. we laugh as the water sloshes over the side and runs across the tiled floor. "oh my God, we're going to get in trouble!" I gasp and he nuzzles his chin against my back. "like I said, I don't care" he says not troubled by the mess we were making. I turn around and start to wash him with a lofa. "what about you, baby?" he asks "mm" I shrug. "I feel good just by making you feel good, maybe after the bath we could have more fun" his eyebrows draw together. "you're not in the mood?" he asks concerned. "yeah not really, it might just be hormones and stuff to do with the baby" I say as I wash is chest. "hmm" he says absentmindedly as he looks at my face. "is something wrong?" I ask him "I didn't know being pregnant does that, will is change all the time?" I shrug "I dunno it's probably like mood swings" he smiles "that's good I suppose" he chuckles as he takes the lofa and washes me now.

jays pov

that night after claire had fallen asleep I couldn't help wondering how much this baby was going to affect how much she wants to have s*x, what if this happens all the time now? but then am I just being a selfish man by being bothered by this? should I try to talk to her about it? or should I do some research? I decide to just not think about it and hope it doesn't affect me too much, if it does I need to suck it up.

when I wake up I order a heap of room service for breakfast. pancakes, bacon, fresh berries and icecream. After setting the tray up on the bed claire wakes up smiling. "heyy, morning babe" I say watching her stretch and sit up. "what's all this, we can't eat this much food" she yawns sleepily rubbing her eyes and looking around. "well there is three of us now and I don't care if it's excessive" I say sitting down across from her on the bed. I pick up some bacon and chew on it and she sighs frustrated. "I'm sorry, I really gotta pee" she says getting out of bed quickly and running to the bathroom. which is now covered in towels so we don't slip over. when she gets back she sighs again this time happily. she picks up the bowl of berries and starts picking out the blue berries and raspberries to eat. "so we going home today?" she asks smiling. "yeah, unless there's something else you want to do?" I ask and she shakes her head "nah, I was just woundering" she says.

when we get home again we throw ourselves into planning the house and planning for the baby and within a few more weeks then they had guessed the house is ready for us to move in.