Love Doesn't Exist

Moving in

Claire's pov

waking up I roll out of bed and as per usual quickly running to the bathroom to pee. when I come back out to our bedroom jay is up and marking another day off the calender. "we get to move in today and you're twenty weeks!" he says excitedly making me smile at his enthusiasm. "yep and that also means we have another scan" I remind him as I pull off my nightie. "yeah, I know. I'd never forget" he says happily pulling me back to bed with nothing but my bra and undies on. He wraps his arms around me to rub my belly. "you've become obsessed with bubba" I giggle rolling onto my back for our morning ritual of cuddles and kisses for both me and baby. after kissing me he leans down to kiss my belly which has been growing bigger and bigger. I'm fairly certain it's going to be a girl now but I'm not telling him that because I'm probably wrong. my instinct is usually wrong. "hey I was thinking" I start and jay looks up at me "about what?" he asks resting his head on my belly. "names for if it's a boy" I say and he grins like an i***t "you mean when he comes out a boy?" he says self assured. "sure, sure" I say and he chuckles "so what names have you come up with?" he asks "I'm thinking Oliver or Louis" I say "Oliver? like Oliver twist?" he jokes and I playfully slap his head "I thought it would be meaningful since I've been craving olives" I shrug "we could nick name him Ollie, it's cute" I say and he smiles "mkay, I trust your decision making" I roll my eyes jokingly. "well we really need to go now for the appointment otherwise we're gonna be late" I sigh gently pushing him off of me and walking over to the wardrobe to slip on some leggings and a loose tank top that mostly hides my bump. "come on Jayden" I say as I leave the room to go to the kitchen. when I get downstairs I pull out a carton of blueberries from the fridge and sit down at the bench to eat them. after 15 minutes jay finally gets down here dressed in jeans and a hoodie. "I'm driving babe" he chuckles picking up the keys and heading towards the door follow him to the car.

"what sort of car should we get?" he asks as we pull out of the drive way "what do you mean?" I ask confused, he already has a car and so do I, not that I use it often. "well we're going to need a car that's for kids" he says "well the Tesla I got for my birthday should be fine" I shrug "it has plenty safety features and room for a car seat. we don't really need another car" he shakes his head defiantly "why don't we get a proper family car that's a five seater?" I turn to him and raise one of my brows "and why would we need five seats" I ask and watch his hands defensively flap as they hold onto the steering wheel. "well I just thought we may as well and you know we might have a couple more kids one day" he says cautiously "oh, yeah?" I cross my arms "hey, well you were the one who said you'd want two kids cause you wouldn't want to have one lonely one" he tries to back track "I'm mostly just messing with you, you i***t" I laugh "I suppose of you really want to we can get a family car but I don't that we actually need one, maybe you could just wait for when we potentially have the hypothetical second baby" I say watching his face light up. "okay!" he says content with the answer.

after fifteen more minutes we've arrived at the clinic. once we sit down in the office we have a long boring talk about how stuffs been going. And then the doc has to bring up the scary topic. "I think you'd benefit from having a birth plan and going to some birthing classes" he says "well I'm pretty sure I'm just going to have me and jay in the delivery room and I know I want an epidural so what else is there to know? I can watch some YouTube videos on breathing techniques and pushing" I shrug and he nods "hmm okay, well if you're sure I'll only recommend it." he sighs.

jays pov

after the appointment is finally done we go back to my place to pack some clothes to take with us to our new home. "want me to pack for you?" I ask claire "nah I got this, it's all good" she assures me smiling as she throws her favourite peices of clothing into a small bag. "do you want me to throw out all the food in the pantry and fridge?" she asks "nah, I'll have some cleaners come and do all that." I yell out to her from the bathroom. "hey and do I need to pack out toothbrushes?" I ask her "no, we literally have everything we need there I'm only taking a few things from here that I really love" she replies. "so, can I bring a couple guns?" I ask hopefully. a man like me needs to have protection. "absolutely not!" she walks into the bathroom with her arms crossed. "we're having a baby, there is no way in hell there's goings to be a fire arm within a hundred miles of the house!" she huffs. "babe, you realize it's more dangerous for someone like me to not have a firearm in the house?" I ask "fine, you can have a gun when we install a safe in your man cave. Until then, you can leave them here" she says with finality. "yes boss" I say making her roll her eyes. "hurry up then, I wanna get there before dark and we're going to have to stop so prince can have a toilet break" she calls out as she leaves the room to go pack the car.

Claire's pov

as we drive down the road on the way to our new home I smile looking across at jay "I love you" I mumble as I lean side ways resting my head on his shoulder. he chuckles "I know" his voice runs through my veins making me shiver. looking out the window as the green trees go by in a blur and the afternoon sun makes everything look more beautiful than usual I notice a black car coming up behind us coming ridiculously fast. "umm, jay" I look up to him and see he's looking in the rear view mirror too. "yeah I can see them, they're probably just dumbass kids" he says "they'll slow down or overtake us" turning my head I look through the back window. "they're going even faster!" my voice squeaks and jay frowns and slows the car to try and pull over so we can let them pass. in a blur the speeds past and I hear deafening bangs. instinctively I duck my head as I scream for jay "JAY DUCK!!" Suddenly our car swivels around and we're driving back the way we came. I sit my head up a bit to look at the jay. there's blood coming out of his right shoulder. "OH MY GOD! JAY YOU'VE BEEN SHOT" I cry looking at him wince as he tries to drive the car. "babe I need you to drive us" he says trying to be calm. "how the f**k am I suppose to do that!" I ask "when I count to five imma pull my seat all the way back and you need to sit in my lap and take over" he says firmly as more blood seeps outta him. "wait a minute" I say ripping his shirt sleeve and tying it tightly around the wound to slow the bleeding "don't you f*****g dare die, Jayden. I won't let you leave me and our baby behind." he tries to smile but ends up groaning. "on five..get ready" he says looking pale. "one" I unbuckle the my seat belt. "two" I push my seat back "three" I place my hands ready on the stirring wheel "BANG! BANG!" two bullets fly past the side mirror. "FIVE!" I scream and jay pulls his seat back as I land in his lap. "f**k!" He groans in pain "I'm sorry" I cry and he rubs my leg "it's all good, just get us to the hospital" his voice becomes weaker and I feel his body go limp behind me

"don't you f*****g dare die! i need you! our baby needs you!" I yell as I push my foot to the floor, we practically fly to the hospital.

jays pov

after I hear Claire yell at me everything I'd a blur of colours and sounds. a paramedics shiny badge. Claire's high pitched worried voice. people shining lights in eyes. Someone touching my hand. beeping machines. something put over my face. when I wake up I look over to see a very tired and scared claire. when she sees I'm awake she runs to my side. "thank God it's been nearly six hours since you got out of surgery" she sits on the edge of the bed and holds a cup with a straw up to my lips "don't move touch or it'll hurt" she says. so after I have a quick drink I look up at her "so, surgery?" ask and she nods "the bullet was lodged in you're shoulder so they had to take it out. they said you were lucky it didn't hit any bone" she sighs and I remember what she yelled at me about in the car, making me laugh. "what" she asks confused "I can't believe you told me not to die, I can't control that you know" i chuckle and she smiles "I don't care" she says light heartedly rolling her eyes.

after a few minutes of talking the doc comes in and tells me that it will take about 6 to 8 weeks for the bullet wound to heal. he prescribed me some pain killers and claire just had to wait three more hours to them observing me to make sure fine before letting us leave.

"finally!" Claire sighs as we drive out of the parking lot. well she drives and I ride shotgun. "I know right, is it really that f*****g nessasary to hold me there that long!" I complain too because I hate being in hospital, mainly because I knew it was up setting for her to see me in a hospital bed. "yeah well at least we can just go home now, do you think those people know where we live? what if they're waiting for us?" she wounders. "I rang father when you went to the cafeteria and he's taken care of everything. don't worry" I grab her hand and hold it to my lips. "it's all right, I promise" I look from her belly to her face, her smile shining so resilient and bright. "okay" she says. "I know I may be knocked up but I can still play nurse ya know" she wiggles her eyebrows and giggles. "a sexy nurse?" I say sucking on one of her fingers making her shiver. "Very. Sexy" she purrs into my ear. making me chuckle. "but on a serious note, are you sure this won't happen again?" she asks concerned "I can't say 100% that this will not happen again but every possible precaution has now been put in place" I assure her. "kay" she smiles and yawns "maybe sexy nurse can wait until another day." I say "yeah, sorry" she sighs. "don't be" I smirk as I use my good arm to open my car door and hop out of the car.

Claire's pov

after deciding not to bother unpacking until tomorrow we walk into our new house. "as much as I'd like to walk around and see how you have changed the house I think we should just make everything wait till tomorrow" jay says as he heads for the stair way without even turning a light on, I follow him anyway. "don't run into anything" I worry watching his talk dark shadow move infront of me. "which room is ours?" he asks making me laugh "ours is the one at the end of the hall, the same one we shared the first time we came here" I'm met with a deep silence before I feel his warm hand holding my face. without a word he leans down to kiss me slowly. placing one of my hands at his neck I deepen the kiss and look up to see the gleam of his dark eyes drinking me in as if I might disappear forever somehow. after a minute or two we break apart. "you okay?" I ask "yeah, why wouldn't I be?" his horse voice wobbles. "dunno" I say walking past him I open the door to our bedroom and grab his good arms hand, pulling him in. the as I walk across our bedroom my foot steps are muffled from the new carpet that now covers the floor boards. reaching out I switch on a bedside lamp and look up to see Jayden grinning at me like an i***t. then his eyes Widen as they look around the room. he takes in the black soft carpet, the silky black and silver bed sheets on our double king bed. along with all the other bits and bobs around the room. finally his eyes land and stay on the white bassinet set up a few feet away from our bed. his throat makes a weird noise and he walks over to it a little unsteady. when he reaches it he looks down into it to see my teddy Christopher. he knows about my Chris and what he means to me. slowly he takes a deep breathe and turns his head to me slowly. as he does a few tears roll down his face. "you okay?" I ask worriedly walking over to him. he nods his head "yeah" his voice breaks and he takes a few seconds to try and get himself under control "I...uh...it just suddenly felt very real...like we're really having a baby. this is where he's gonna sleep" he says looking at me as he grips the side of the bassinet. "yeah" I say as I wrap my arms around him from behind and kiss him on the back. "come on, let's get to bed" I say as I push my pants off and take off the rest of my clothes. jay follows my lead and with in a few minutes we're snuggled up in bed together. "I love you so much, you have no idea" he mumbles into my hair as we fall asleep. "I love you to infinity and beyond" I giggle and feel him laugh a little too. cuddling up we slowly fall asleep listening to each other's heartbeats with my skin against his.

thump! "s**t!" waking up I hear a faint yell from downstairs. gettibg out of bed I go to see what's going but then change my direction and head to the bathroom first. after taking what must've been the longest piss in the world I get down to the kitchen and see that jay had dropped a box on his foot. "hey" he winces looking at me as he cleans up a broken dish. "babe, what happened?" I ask going to help him. "no you don't, go sit down I got this" he says shooing me away. " Prince just got in the way of my feet while I was trying to unpack" I shake my head "babe why are you trying to unpack when your arm is f****d? I can do some stuff and anything I can't do can wait until you're better" scratching his neck as he looks up at me "well I can do this" he smirks "also the dish that smashed was that glass fruit bowl you got for our place when we first got together" he says "sorry" I shrug "it's fine, we probably shouldn't have much glass stuff around the house anyway" I try to make him feel better. "yeah, you're right. also while you were still sleeping I looked around the house. it's f*****g awsome. the pool, the bathroom and the garden" he starts to get excited while he talks as he chucks out the broken bowl, awkwardly and one handedly. "I really like the new colours and the cool tiles that are in the pool and bathroom, I really like that." he says happily. "that's good" I laugh "would you tell me if there was something that you really hated though?" I ask jokingly because I made sure that I didn't pick out anything he might not like.

jays pov

after I try to help claire unpack our few things we go to lay back down in bed. as we try to cuddle together her big belly sorta just gets in the way. "dammit" she groans and rolls onto her back. "I feel so fat" she sighs "you're growing a whole nother human inside you, I'd be concerned if you weren't swelling a bit" I mumble against her neck as as I kiss her. "I suppose when you put it like that" she sighs and smiles. "how bout we get this shirt off?" I say lifting her oversized top off leaving her in just her underwear. "I think this is a great idea" she giggles pulling my shirt off too. kissing my way down I pull off her underwear and go down on her. sucking at licking her clit until she cums. "lick it all up" she says breathlessly. "of course" I lean back down and clean her woth my toungue before sliding my hard d**k into her. mindfully of her belly we move together creating bliss.

four and a half months later........