Love Doesn't Exist

surprise

for the next three days I stay at home only leaving my room to go to my art studio. today I'm working on another painting for a collection I'm making. it's a portrait of a dark fairy crying next a river looking at her refection. then my phone rings, it's Chad. "miss there's a young man here by the name of Jayden, he says he's a friend's of yours?" I put down my brush and look out the window to see Jayden's car stopped at the gates. I guess I'm going to have to say sorry "yes that's right" I confirm "would you like to see him?" not really "yes show him to my studio, thanks, bye chad" I hang up and go back to my painting. fifteen minutes later I hear my door open and close. "hey" he says. "hey" I turn around. "do you wanna tell me why you live in Angus and Tricia's house like the world wide famous Angus and Tricia? why did you lie to us ?" I look at him, he seems disappointed. "I didn't exactly lie. the stuff I told you about my parents is true. apart from the mid life crisis part. they actually died in a terrorist attack, plane crash. a few months ago. Te and Gus adopted me" he looks around the room while I talk. "oh well I guess I get why you lied, but why didn't you tell me" I shrug "I was going to eventually, but how did you find me?" I wait for him to tell me he stalked me on the internet or something but instead he comes out with "I had one of my boys hack your phone and trace it" oh yes just casually hacking someone's phone. "hey um I'm sorry about the other day, I just don't like accepting help or having people care about me." he sighs "okay well what can we do about it" we? "Jayden there is no we okay. theres me, you and all the other boys no we" I turn around to look at him "you still going to hang out with us then?" I smile "yes of course Jayden. I don't really have any other friends. I like hanging out with you guys."

I notice his shadow moving closer to me. "but you told sam you're scared to get hurt" he says gently. "how would I hurt you?" I turn around to look him in the eye. "anyone I get close to hurts me, that's how my life is. and I'm sick of it." he looks down at me "well what can I do to prove that I won't hurt you?" how the heck am I supposed to know the answer to that. "there's nothing" it's the truth. "really?" he looks at my painting while we talk. "your paintings are really cool" he changes the subject. "thanks." for a while he stand behind me and watches until there's a knock at the door. it's probably Val. "Missy?" she pokes her head in and looks jay up and down, takes in his tight shirt ripped jeans and tattos and gives her look of disapproval. "hmph" she mumbles something under her breathe then asks "would you like dinner up here?" I nod "in my bedroom actually, what will we be having?" Val looks at jay suspiciously and then to me "what would you like?" I look at Jayden and he Shrugs "how about pizza and icecream for dessert?" she nods "thanks Val" I say as she leaves. "I don't think she likes me" Jayden comments. "she dosent like the fact that I came home wearing your clothes, actually" I correct him smirking. "follow me" I put down my brush and go into my room. "give me a minute to get changed" I say as I walk over to my wardrobe. I close the door and pick out a tight tank top and cotton boxer pajamas. I can't be bothered with a bra. when I walk back out he's sprawled out across the couch. "hey you can take your shoes off you know" I say curling my feet up on the couch next to him. he kicks his shoes off and does the same as me. "so what now?" I pick up the remote. "what kind of movies do you like to watch?" he thinks for a while "I don't care, what sort of movies do you like to watch" my favourite genre is actually horror "have you watched the conjuring 3?" "no I haven't I don't watch alot of horror" I smile "I guess we'll have to start with with the first one and work our way up then." I flip through Netflix to find the conjuring then I get up to turn the lights off to make it more scary. "your pizza miss" the in house chef opens the door and holds out the pizza and icecream. then he looks over and sees the movie "ohh I will also bring up some popcorn in awhile" he smiles as I take the food "thanks". I grab a slice of pizza and pass one to jay then press play. sometime throughout the movie I must fall asleep because I wake up listening to a heartbeat. thump thump thump. I open my eyes and realize I'm laying on Jayden's chest. what the hell. I sit up and notice he's asleep still. he's kinda cute sleeping. I get up and check the time. it's around 9. I stick a pillow under his head then head to the bathroom. stripping off I climb into the shower and turn it on letting the water run I just stand there and close my eyes. after a while I wash my self and then get out. wrapping a towel around myself I walk out the bathroom and head for the wardrobe. "heyy" looking over to the couch where jay sits smiling. "you perv" I joke then slip into the wardrobe to get dressed. I just put on track pants and a hoodie. I don't plan on leaving the house. when I walk back out into my bedroom again jays on his phone. "nah...I'm at her place I told you this before...Sam stop being stupid" his eyes glace over to me then Down to the floor "okay man got to go" he hangs up "so what do you wanna do today?" too many choices really. "let's watch the other conjuring movies." "cool" I sit back down next to him.

after the rest of the conjuring movies we watch all the the insidious movies.

"what now?" I ask as the credits roll and jay gets up to stretch. I watch as he raises his arms and his shirt lifts up to reveal his abbs. "let's do something" he says "like what?" he holds his hands out to grab mine and pull me up off the couch. "I dunno how about you paint me?" he says. "wow not a vain bone in your body at all. okay come over to the studio." I set up a canvas and pencils to sketch the outline. "want me to take my shirt off?" teases jay. "no you dofus you can leave it on" shaking my head I get to work.

as I study his face I notice he has his ear peirced. "when did you get that?" I point my pencil at his ear. he reaches up and touches the diamond stud. "oh this? I got this done when I was 12" he smiles "I got my first tatoo when I was 15" wait what "wait how old are you?" he gives me a look that says isn't it obvious. "I'm 17" he looks me up and down "wait how old are you?" I smile "how old do you think "I thought you were 17 too" he says confused. I guess the education system is different here "I turn sixteen in November" his eyebrows shoot up "what the hell?!" I giggle. "I think the education system is a bit different in Australia or they made a mistake, either way I'm not going to tell anyone because I don't want to change classes."

three hours later I've had enough for the day. "I'm done for now" i say getting up and letting Jayden have a look "I'm very disappointed that you didn't capture the mishevious sparkle in my eyes" he says with a serious face but cracks up last minute. "yeah yeah, just remember I'm not finished" I look out the window and can't help thinking. it's kinda nice having jay around.