Second Thought

Chapter 14

                                                                                    Serenity's POV

    I couldn't feel anything other than just being numb. I knew that I was in Alexanders arms, but I was too numb to do anything about it. I didn't want to marry him. Our encounter earlier was me not thinking straight. It was pure s****l, no feelings involved, at least for me. He was a man incapable of love. I would rather die than to marry this man. Alexander was nothing like the man I saw myself marrying and all I could think about was this was another thing he was going to take away from me. I felt him sit me down on the bed and he walked toward the door to lock it. I assumed this was his bedroom. It was nothing like I had pictured. His walls were full of beautiful paintings. They were abstract and nothing like you would imagine when you think of Alexander. On the wall to the right of the bed was a massive painting of a naked woman. She was so beautiful, and it was captivating to look at. This would be what I had expected to see all over this room. The bedroom was too big for him and surprisingly spotless. I looked up in time to see him walking back over toward me, while pulling his shirt over his head. If he thinks anything is going to happen in here, he is dead wrong. I will fight until I have nothing left because I didn't want this and the thought of being his wife was repulsive. After his big speech of caring for me so much, he goes and slaps me in the face, hard. There was already a bruise starting to form as I could feel the sting of it already.

    "I'm not going to touch you if that is what you are afraid of. You will now be my wife and I have to save that for our wedding."

    "I will never be yours and I refuse to marry you. You make me sick! I can't even look at you without getting the uneasy feeling of vomiting everywhere. A wedding must be agreed upon by both parties and I refuse to say the words. I am not yours and I never will be!"

    "We will see. Just as a reminder, the wedding will take place tomorrow. The sooner I marry you the better. We can finally get that mouth of yours under control and you can submit to me once and for all."

    s**t! Tomorrow? Hell no, this wasn't happening. I had to come up with a plan. There was no way I was going to walk down the aisle and say I do. I know that I wasn't going to let fear stop me from saying how I really felt. He needed to hear this even if it didn't make a difference. "Yeah, we will see. Just as a reminder to you, you’re an ass. You think you can talk to me however you feel like and that you can treat me anyway you like. Well, you can't. I am my own person and I set my own rules. Alexander, you will never lay your hands on me ever again. Try and force me into marrying you and I will get a lawyer of my own to sue your ass."

    "Sue me?" He started to break out into laughter. "No one around here knows that you are even here, and no one is coming to save you. If that is what you are thinking, do yourself a favor and stop. You will marry me tomorrow; I'll see to it."

    A plan is what I needed. I started to think about what I might be able to do to get out of this impossible situation. The only thing I could think of was to run. How? An idea sprung in my mind and I knew this was it. All I needed to do was to wait for Alexander to fall asleep then I could sneak out of his room and out of his life forever. I know it sounds too easy but is the only plan I got. All I needed to do was to play my cards right. I also wanted to get a little revenge on him while I still had the chance. So, I stood and slipped every piece of clothing off that I had. Alexanders eyes were on me the entire time. I'm no seductress but I damn sure was going to try. I saw him press his lips together, trying hard to keep it together. He started licking his lips slowly and I swear that I heard a faint moan. I picked the t-shirt up off the floor that he was wearing earlier and slipped it on. I reached over, pulling the sheets down and climbed into bed. I glanced over to him and watched as he slowly removed his jeans. He thought he was teasing me. No, that wasn't the case here. I was about to really piss him off and make him feel it. He then climbed into bed next to me and wrapped his arm around me and started kissing me gently on my ear. His hand starts grabbing the bottom of the t-shirt and started slowly raising it up to uncover my breast.

    "I thought you weren't going to touch me."

    "I know but you are making it damn near impossible to resist you while you are half naked in my bed. You have no idea how irresistible you are right now; how beautiful you are. Feel what you are doing to me without even touching me," he says softly in my ear while rocking his hips into me.

    "I can make it much harder on you. I told you I don't want you touching me but if you are not going to listen then I am just going to have to punish you."

    "Punish me? I don't think that is possible. I know I said I wouldn't touch you, but I can't help it, you are just so sexy right now."

    Just as he started to touch my breast, I smacked his hand off me. He looked at me with shock and a little bit of amusement. I laid flat on my back and uncovered myself. I had already taken my panties off, so this was going to be easy. I pulled the t-shirt off and over my head and grasped my breast tightly. With my other hand, I made my way down to my s*x and start massaging myself.

    "What are you doing?"

    "I am punishing you and pleasuring myself. After all that I went through, I really need a release and I don't want it from you. Therefore, you can sit there and watch as I find my own release."

    "You expect me to sit here and just watch you? There is no way in hell if you are doing that, that I will be able to keep my hands off you."

    I don't say anything else and I plunge a finger inside myself. I release the breath that I was holding on to and grabbed the pillow and started moaning into it. I closed my eyes which was intensifying the sensation that was running though my body. I felt the bed move beside me and opened my eyes to see what he was doing. He has already removed his boxers and had his hand on his length, making up and down motions.

    "No, you can't do that. This is about punishing you and if you find your release then there was no point."

    "Well, you can stop if you want but I'm not stopping. I couldn't stop if I wanted to. Seeing you doing that is pure ecstasy. Your so f*****g sexy and once you have me turned on, there is only one way to turn me off. I'll stop if you want, but you are going to have to finish for me." He grinned while continuing the movement of his hand and talking to me as if it wasn't really affecting him.

    "There is no way in hell that I am finishing you off. Help yourself." I couldn't look away from him though. Seeing him pleasuring himself was turning me on so much right now. I hate to admit the physical attraction that I had to him, but I couldn't deny it. I may not like him, but I couldn't fight the s****l urge I had when I was with him. I started picking up my movements, plunging my finger faster and faster. I pulled out my finger and looked straight into his eyes and stuck the finger in my mouth, tasting my arousal.

    "f**k this," Alexander said while he moved over on top of me. He moved his hands down to me and pushed a finger inside of me before I could refuse. Once, he was inside of me, I couldn't find the words to tell him to stop. The feeling was much more intense than it was when I was doing it. He wasn't even gentle about it as he placed a second finger inside. He started pushing inside of me harder and harder. It hurt don't get me wrong, but the pleasure was overriding the pain. I threw my head back swaying my hips around. Suddenly, I felt his tongue circling me while his fingers were rocking hard inside of me. I was so close I could feel it and I knew he felt it to because he stopped all at once. I opened my eyes to find him sucking on his fingers. He got back on top of me, this time moving up until his length was right in front of me. "Suck," he said while grabbing my head and bringing my lips to his member. He pressed himself into my lips and I refused to open my mouth. Alexander grabbed my leg and started circling his fingers around me and my mouth fell open, unaware of what he was doing. Once my mouth was open, he pushed himself inside me. My eyes flew open in shock, but he held my head in place. A smirk placed across his face and he began moving my head back and forth. I took all of him because I had no choice. I placed my hand around him and started moving my hands along with my mouth. He released what I was doing, and he removed his hand from my head. I flicked my tongue across him while I started my work on him. He threw his head back as well and started to rock his hips. "Suck harder!" I obeyed his command. He pulled himself out of my mouth. "I want you. Right now. No waiting." He stepped off the bed and walked over to the table on the other side of the bed and pulled out something. Walking back over to me, he placed whatever it was to his lips and ripped it open. Once he got closer to me, I released what he was holding. A condom. I wasn't thinking straight but right now I didn't care. I needed this and he knew that I needed this. He placed it on himself and picked me up and placed me to where my hands and knees where on the bed and ass was in the air. I felt him getting close to me and just as he was about to enter, I jumped across the bed.

    "No, I can't do this."

    Alexander took in a breath and exhaled loudly, "we are doing this so get your ass back over here. You are not just going to tease me like that and walk away. You wanted this and you’re going to get it."

    "No, Alexander. I'm sorry okay. I didn't mean for it to get this far. I don't know what happened. Honestly, I just wanted to tease you a little bit, but I never expected it to go this far. I don't know why I didn't stop you earlier, but I can't do this."

    "You didn't stop me because you were enjoying it too much to think about it. Don't make me storm out of this room and bring someone else in here and do it right in front of you. I will, you know."

    I stayed quiet and ran over to the t-shirt and placed it back over my body. I heard Alexander sigh and he punched the wall. He stomped right over to the door, not bothering to put any clothes on and walked right out. I'm not sure how long he was gone for but after while I decided to just go to bed. I wrapped the covers around my body and closed my eyes. I started to hear giggling right outside the door and a beautiful woman wearing baby blue lingerie walked right in as Alexander was following right behind her.