Second Thought

Chapter 24

Serenity's POV

            We woke together a couple hours later, our eyes finding each other as they opened. "Hi," I said softly.

            "Hello beautiful." All he could do was smile at me. I had not noticed before how gorgeous his smile really was. "Come with me, I want to get you cleaned up." We both stood from the bed. My eyes shifted to the covers and my face turned bright red in embarrassment at the blood that covered them. He placed his arm around my waist. "It's okay baby, its natural." Alexander looked down at me and placed my hand into his and led me to the bathroom. He walked over to the tub, turning on the water and testing its warmth with his hand. Once it was the right temperature, he reached for my favorite bottle of vanilla bubble bath soap. He filled the tub with it, making the whole bathroom smell of its sweetness. He stepped inside the tub, sitting down, motioning for me to join him. Once I started easing myself into the water, I felt the sting of our earlier encounter. My eyes shut at the instant pain and I continued to ease myself into the water until I was sitting, my back to him.

            The look in his eyes were full of worry. "I'm okay, just a little sore is all. Don't worry about it." I grabbed his face and planted a kiss upon his lips.

            "I love you Serenity. I've never been so sure of anything in my life."

            "Alexander, I know you do." I let out a sigh, unsure of really what to say. After what happened between us, my feelings have only gotten stronger for him. I cannot say that it was for sure love or not because I did not know what that felt like. "After earlier, my feelings are confirmed even more, and I know that I care about you deeply. I cannot say the words yet because I don't know for sure if that is what I feel. I've never known love and I don't know what it feels like to be in love."

            "I've never been in love either Serenity, but I know in my heart that I am in love with you. If you fall in love with me, you will know. I do not expect you to just forget about what has happened between us in the past and I know that plays apart in your uncertainty about us. Your uncertainty about me. All I can do is prove to you that I want you. I'll do anything to prove to you from here on out that you are the only thing that matters to me now."

            "You’re so sweet when you really try," I said smiling at him.

            "If I am being honest, I'm more confused now than ever before. I told you that I needed to let you go. It is not good for you to want me, you know. I want what is best for you, I really do. I am just not sure if I am what is best for you. I can say though, that I am glad you did not leave, and you came for me. I don't see how I would ever be able to let you go now."

            "Why are you still talking about letting me go Alexander? I came after you to show you that I was not messing around, that I want you. Nothing that I find out there is ever going to compare about the way I feel about you. I am happy with you and I want to see where this may go. Sure, we had a rocky start, but that does not matter anymore. I know that you are trying to change and do better and that is all I can ask for."

            "You want to see where this goes? Really? Why? I just do not understand after all I have done to you. You are the most amazing woman I ever met."

            "Of course, I want to see where this goes. I need to see if we have any chance at all. I did not expect to ever feel the way I do about you. You were so cold toward me at first, so mean. You did not care about my feelings or what I thought about you. Then, you were only after one thing. I did despise you at first for the way that you treated me but the more I got to know you, the more curious I got."

            "I am so glad that you did get curious." He pressed his lips to mine again and started moving his tongue to mine. "Oh, the things I can do with you."

            "Like what?" I was slightly curious by what he meant and already a little turned on. He raised his eyebrows in complete surprise, shaking his head. "Come on tell me!"

            "No," he said laughing.

            "Please." I looked up to him with the saddest face, hoping this would change his mind.

            "I was just thinking about how nice it would be to have your mouth on me right now."

            Playfully, I slapped him across the face. "Your dirty."

            "Do that again."

            "Do what again?" I was confused.

            "Slap me. Harder."

            Excuse me? Did he really want me to slap him? At first, I thought he was just joking so I started to laugh. Then, I saw his expression turn to complete seriousness. "I don't understand why you want me to slap you. I'm not going to hurt you and possibly piss you off."

            "It doesn't piss me off. I cannot explain it but when you hit me, it turns me on. I mean it turns me on like I have never been turned on before. So, please, slap me."

            I did not even know how hard to slap him. This was a little strange. I mean when I have ever hit someone it has been out of anger. I have never hit someone just because they have enjoyed it. I knew damn well I would never enjoy being hit.

            "Don't make me say something to piss you off just to make you hit me Serenity. I can say all kinds of things to get you mad at me. Let me try getting you turned on first, so you know what it is that I need." He moved his hand under the water, placing his fingers around my s*x, circling over me. I tilted my head back onto his chest, letting out a surprised moan. With his same hand, he entered inside me slowly. I let out a small cry as he did, feeling the sharp pain of my soreness. He did not even seem to care as he started assaulting me, his fingers going deeper and deeper inside of me. He opened his mouth next to my ear and started softly biting it, sending waves of pleasure throughout my body. He picked up speed, moving as fast as his fingers could go. Just as I was about to let go, he stopped.

            I looked over to him and he was smiling. "Why did you stop?"

            "Frustrating, yeah? Give me what I want, and I will give you what you desire. If you do this for me then I will do it however you want. I will use my tongue, fingers, or my member on you. You say what you want, and it is yours baby. Please, I need this, and I want you to be the only one to give it to me."

            Without even thinking about it, I turned and let my hand crack across his cheek. I was kind of angry because he had gotten me all worked up and just stopped. Also, I was kind of turned on the way he was enjoying it so much.

            "Again. Harder."

            So, I did again and again. Letting out all my frustrations on his face.

            "Oh baby. I need you right now. I can't take it anymore!" He stands and drags me out of the tub and pushes me against the wall. He starts kissing me, hard. Holy s**t this was hot. He dropped me to my knees and signaled for me to take him in my mouth. That is exactly what I did. He flexed his hips into me, deepening himself into me. He pulls out, placing his hand on himself. He starts to pleasure himself right in front of me, so I grab my s*x and start to do the same. "No, don't. Just watch." I pull away from myself and do what he asks. I was unsure of what to do, I was starting to get uncomfortable. I could feel the wetness between by legs and the sensation for release feeling my body. I moved my hand toward myself again and he stopped me. This was complete torture. I needed to feel his touch, my touch, something. He started to since my frustration and stopped touching himself. He picked me up and wrapped me around his waist. He entered me without a hesitation and began thrusting himself inside me. "You feel so damn good. I'm not going to last much longer this way." At that exact moment we both released that he was not wearing a condom. Worry flashed over me and I started to get a little scared. "Don't worry, I'll pull out when I’m ready."

            "I can't even think about finishing now. You must stop Alexander. Yes, this feels amazing and much better than with the condom, but you must stop. We have to be smart about this."

            He pinned me up against the wall so I could not move. "I need this, we need this. Doesn't this feel so damn good? I will be smart about it, please let us just finish. I'll get your mind off it."

            Before I could say anything else, his fingers find my s*x and start circling around me while he thrust himself in and out of me. This was amazing and the sensation feeling my body right now was intense. I felt myself building underneath him.

            "Go ahead, let go. Give it to me baby." I did just that and my face falls onto his shoulder. He quickly sets my feet onto the floor, pulling out of me. He put his hand onto himself and started to move until he found his own release. He started up the shower, motioning for me to join. I stepped inside, feeling the hot water caress my body. I quickly washed up and got out without even saying anything. Do not get me wrong, that was the most intense thing I had ever experienced before and I want to do it again, but it was not okay for us to be that irresponsible. When stuff like that happens, accidents happen and right now was no time for an unplanned pregnancy. Hell, I was not even sure I wanted kids after all that I had been though in my life. This would have to be a discussion we would need to have later. I made my way back to the bedroom, putting on some clothes. I decided I was not going to wait on Alexander, so I opened the door to head downstairs. When I opened the door, I was face to face with Liam.