Second Thought

Chapter 26

Alexander’s POV

            Stepping out of the shower and into my bedroom, I realized that Serenity was gone. She probably just went downstairs for something to eat. I walked over to my closet and put on a skintight black t-shirt with some of my favorite pair of ripped jeans. As I was walking closer to the kitchen, I did not hear any noises. The house was filled with complete silence, other than the clock that stood in the dining room, ticking away. I proceeded into the kitchen anyways, but she was not here. Weird. Walking from room to room, there was no sign of her anywhere. Panic started to settle in as various scenarios played in my head. Knowing Serenity a little better now, I do not think she would just leave without saying anything. I decided to go up to Liam’s room to see if he knew where she might be. I walked right on in his room without deciding to knock. After all this was my house. Nothing. He was also gone. Okay. What the hell was going on here? My next thought was to check to see if his car was here and sure enough as I entered the garage, I noticed it was missing. Anger started radiating off me, sending complete shock throughout my body. The only conclusion that I came to was that he took her somewhere.

            I started to replay everything in my head to see where they might have gone. Nothing made since. She would not just leave with him. She was still angry at him and I knew that, but I could not help the uncertainty that ran through me. My brother could be a smooth talker. After all that is how he met Erina. Did I really think that Serenity would just leave with him without telling me? Not really. I mean I had my doubts, but I knew she would have at least let me know.

            Reaching for my cell phone, I quickly dialed Liam’s number. Straight to voicemail. If only Serenity had a phone, it would make things so much easier. Making a mental note to myself, that would be the first thing I did once I found her. With panic setting in, I stormed off to the garage, grabbing my keys as I went. Hell, I did not even know where to look, but anything was better than just sitting there thinking of all the possibilities. I started the engine of favorite car. It was a beautiful bright red Chevy Camaro and it was brand new. I only bought it a few months ago and only used it a handful of times. It was a fast car and that is why I decided to drive it today. I needed something fast as hell. I could care less about even being pulled over. It was one of the benefits of being a lawyer. I knew all too well how to talk myself out of a speeding ticket.

            After hours of driving, I came up empty handed. There was no where to even look because I could not even imagine one place my brother might have brought her to. This was getting frustrating and exhausting. A store came into view, so I veered off right and put the car in park. Taking in my surroundings, I was not even sure where I was. All I knew was that I had to find her. It had only been a few hours but the emptiness I felt when she was not with me, was too much to bear. I grabbed the store swinging it opened as I stepped inside. It was a small little convenience store that had no customers. I walked right over to the gentleman behind the counter. His name tag read Dave. The name seemed to fit him though. He was a medium sized height and his back was a little hunched over. He had a long beard and hair long enough to tie in back into a ponytail. I gave him a brief description of Serenity and Liam but of course he had no idea what I was even talking about. This was hopeless. Walking back outside, I pushed open the driver’s side door and slid into the seat. “Damnit!” I punched the steering wheel, trying to relieve some of the anger I was feeling. All I wanted to do was to find my brother and beat this hell out of him. That was one of my problems though. Fighting was always the resolution for me. There were only two was that I ever let out my anger and that was either through s*x or fighting. I need a healthier outlet for my anger. It was hard to focus on anything else when anger is all I felt. I blame my father for that though.

            Starting up the engine to the car, I pulled out of the store and headed in the direction of home. I did not even begin to know where to look. If I went back home, I could try to come up with some sort of plan that might help me find them. On the way back, I decided to call Liam one more time, in hopes that he would answer. Again, straight to voicemail. I hated this. I could not get to the one person that I needed more than anything or anyone else. While on my drive I started thinking of her. I started thinking of how she made me feel. The more I was with her, the more I felt like the person I wanted to me. I did not want to be a complete f**k-up for the rest of my life. I always wanted something more but never cared to find out what that was until her. Feelings were new to me and Serenity made me feel more than I really wanted to. She made me feel fear, love, anger, hope, and more than anything else, a future. Honestly, before her my future was pretty much planned out by my father. Having everything I ever wanted made things a little easier while growing up. My father led me down the same path he took, and it ensured I would be financially set for the rest of my life. Not that I cared that much for money. Do not get me wrong, having money was nice but it I did not even spend most of what I made. I did what my father always taught me to do with money, I saved it. Now that Serenity was in my life, I wanted to spend everything I had on her. I wanted to lavish her with whatever her heart desired.

            A little while later, I pulled back into the garage of my home. Right now it didn’t feel like home though. I walked through the door, heading straight for the over-sized black couch in the living room area. I had no idea what to do with myself. She was gone and I did not know of a damn thing I could do to find her. The feeling was overwhelming without her here with me. Since I could not do anything to find her right now, I stood up, walking over to the bar area placed in the corner of the room. Drinking never really appealed to me but I needed something to numb the emptiness that I was feeling.

            At this point, the alcohol was started to take its effect. I had already downed glass after glass of the bourbon liquor. My eyes shot straight up as I heard a noise coming from the entrance of my home. The last person I expected to walk in was Lexi. God, she got on my nerves. She was a casual hook up from time to time, nothing more. I haven’t seen her since the night of the party. She was a tall young beautiful woman with blonde hair and a body to die for. She knew she was downright sexy, and you could tell by the way she would walk into a room. She was wearing a straight black silky robe that hung off her in the sexiest way possible with some black pumps that showed off her legs. Normally I would be quite curious to see what she is wearing underneath but now my eyes were only for Serenity. She saunters over toward me, pushing me back into the couch and climbing on top. My drunken stupor made it more difficult to control my body, but I managed to push her off and take a stand. “What are you doing here Lexi?”

            “Well, I was feeling lonely and wanted a bit of fun. I thought only of one person who can give me the fun I’m searching for.” She licked her lips, taking off the robe she was wearing, letting it fall to the ground.

            Holy s**t. Underneath the robe, was the sexiest red piece of lacey lingerie. It would be hard for any man to resist something so tempting. Images of Serenity raced through my mind and I could not help but to picture her in that same outfit. “You need to leave.”

            “Alexander, I am not leaving until I get what I came for. You want it too, you always do. Are you really going to turn all of this away?” Her hand started traveling over her large breast, down toward the red lacey panties she was wearing.

            “Stop. You are leaving. NOW!” My agitation only continued to grow. “We can’t see each other anymore. I have found someone. She is the only one I care about ever touching me from now on. So, leave.”

            “Well, let me see her then. I got to see the woman who has captured the heart of the coldest man I have ever known.”

            “She is not here right now. Plus, there is no way in hell that I am letting the woman I love be introduced to the woman I used to fuck.”

            “Hmm…” That is all she needed to say but I knew everything she was thinking in that moment. She did not believe me, but I did not care. I had nothing to prove to her, I just wanted her gone.

            She was not evening moving. Did I not just tell her to leave? I stomped over to her, grabbing her hand, and dragged her to the front door. Once she was out, I slammed the door on her. Great, now I was horny as hell. Even though I only wanted Serenity, the image of seeing Lexi in that little number, did things to me. Of course, I would never act on them with her, but I would be lying if I said seeing her like that did nothing for me. It was getting late, but I could not sleep. Not without her here with me. So, I decided to keep drinking until I passed out and that is just what I did.