Irreplaceable you

Is this real?

Derek's POV

Monday came and so did our grueling art professors who always made our work harder than it should be, in high school would have thrown a tantrum, but at 22 I try to a little wiser and calmer about things,

I guess that was me growing up, noting back to high school I was a skinny 16 year old , but started hitting puberty at the time of graduation and being newly single, I made a lot foolish decisions that summer, sleeping around to forget the pain as I could have anyone on my bed at that moment, but now I'm faithful to one person

“So class today, we have a new student joining us, who just transferred from London, let's welcome him,” the door opened up at that instant, everything felt like , I was in romance a movie, with the cheesy drama, with the science where everything turns to slow motion, as I saw him enter, his long hair that was always in a man bun cut short and stiles to the side, the walked in like he owned the place, leather jackets Chelsea boots and all , his hand filled with his signature rings as he stepped on the podium, with intent

“Hi I'm Jamie Alister and I just returned back from London, nice to meet to you all,” he uttered

One of the curious students raised their hands, “you sound American so mind me for asking the reason you left in the first place”

“Um,” he answered, scouting the theatre before he met my eye, his voice seizing instantly, I could see him visibly take in a breath before he spoke up “for personal reasons” he stated shortly,

“So Jamie , welcome yet again you can go have your seat,” the professor order, pointing at a chair in front, much farther than mine, but I could see him turn around to meet my eye directly again,

This was not happening, this wasn't like a cheesy romance movie, it was more like a nightmare, my haunting past coming to meet me

Luckily the class finished fast, as I bolted, through the back door my mind already thinking of different situation either taking the fight or flight scenario when I see him, and so I did, he walked out of the class, immediately causing a stir as he walked straight to me still as elegant as ever, even with bustling varieties of students heads, I could still see his blonde hair approaching, but at that moment felt, my arm being pulled as I was dragged into a kiss

“Hey babe” jasmine muttered to me kissing me again

My attention pulling to her

“What got you so distracted?” she asked confusedly, If she would see the object of my thoughts

“It's-“ I uttered looking up see that he wasn't there again making my eyes widen in blown panic, was I seeing things, am I running mad now or is it because our said anniversary is in a week,

“-nothing” I continued, putting my arms around her shoulders as we walked to my apartment

I hoped I was hallucinating but a part of me hoped it was real.

***

We got to my apartment, we chatted a little, kissing and all before it got into s*x, s*x was good yes, but today I wasn't into it walking away immediately we finish to the shower, and coming back out to seer her with my shirt, being over sized for her

“Hey” she utter coming close and back hugging me after I wore shorts but was still shirtless, my body on display, and good to know I wand to that skinny kid, that got dumped, I was Derek king, who worked hard and ate healthy for this body

“Hey” I uttered back turning to her as I leaned on a study table situated in my room, near my art supplies so it was more like a mini studio,

“You're not yourself today” she explained playing with my hair,

“No I'm alright, I just thought about something bugging me,”

“ what is it?” She asked a glint of worry in her eyes

“No, don't mind it it's a stupid thought,ok then, I'll be leaving I still have violin practice” she uttered before going to bathe.

I sat at the the window still, staring into nothing as I remember his features clear as day, his pale skin glistening white as snow, fitting his astonishing blue eyes,l that was like a blue lake you could get lost in, as light freckles dusted his face like glitter, his full lips still as the same as before, the looks like my-, scratch that, he looked like Jamie but a little smaller, or was it because I got bigger?, I was scared to find out more, but I needed to talk to my friends as soon as possible because they always knew the right things to say, I think,

I could hear the doors opening feeling a light peck on my face before she fled to her lessons but mind was still levitating back to the thoughts of Jamie

If he was alive and well , why did never answer my call, he shut down his social media and left me in silence, and he just shows up out of the blue like that?

“f*****g ridiculous” I scoffed, taking off to my bedside to charge my phone, was stoped midway by a post of my favorite artist, who had posted another anonymous art

I could feel the passion from each stroke of this artist brush, like there was a story to tell, unlike my blond canvas that stood mockingly at me, immediately giving it a like before I laid down sleep already exhausted you the day

But, my phone buzzed immediately shutting down my plans, looking at the ID which showed my mom,

“Hey mom,”

“Hey honey, is something wrong? “

“Should there be?

“I'm sorry I know it's late but jasmine told me you didn't look alright” , she explained frantically,already panicking.

“Right, jasmine” I mumbled, who else would give a report on my well-being

“I'm alright mom, ok baby, I just called to see,”

“Yeah thanks” I said before charging it back,”rolling back on the bed to get a comfortable position, for sleep to come, it didn't.

It was more of me seeing or imagining him everywhere,

Fuck this was going nowhere, even as my body was spent, I still couldn't sleep making me text my friend, who were roommates sharing arose not far from mine,

“I'm coming over”

***

Derek reached their home to see Luca watching a movie while cole was coming out of his room, his boyfriend probably asleep

“Hey what's the emergency that you rushed her so late,” he said yawning as he pointed to the Time which showed 10:14 pm

“I'm sorry but I just needed someone to talk to,” he said his hands fisting under his hoodie making his two friends give each other a look a familiar look, that this was an emergency

“Hey, what's up? You alright -“

“- I think I saw Jamie,” he blurted out, his friend Luca immediately sitting up and sleep clears from coles eyes,

“Whoa whoa, are you sure?” cole muttered

“I thought it was my hallucination, but it looked too real to be, he answered, and here I am still awake by 10 on a bloody Monday”

“f**k, f*****g hell” Luca exclaimed

“Did he approach you? did you say anything, did he say anything? Luca asked almost skeptical”

“No, before I could talk to him he kinda disappeared on me, look I'm no longer in love with him” lie, he explained

“But I need closure at least, to why he sent that vague letter that didn't explain why he left,” he continued earning mixed stares from his friends, cole a little quiet because he had been close to Jamie

“But why now, why show himself, is it just a coincidence he's at our university and in your class!?”

“It's weird I know but, we will hopefully get our answers why he left without a goodbye,”

**

Dereks’s POV

Tuesday lessons came, riding it till in the afternoon, but no sign of Jamie,

Maybe I just imagined it, I thought, as i entered a cafe by the next block ordering his usual cup of hot chocolate, with him being a sweet tooth

Taking out a sketch pad, and drawing what comes to mind, after a while I then saw what I had sketched was a pair of familiar belonging to non other than the person occupying my thoughts, my first love, who just walked right into the cafe, the bell dinging as i looked up to meet his eyes again, there it was, the spark again

“f**k”, I muttered, “this is real.”