CHAPTER 12
802 Words
HANNAH'S POV
I made my decision and that is the fact that I wanted nothing to do with Lily. The only reason I am here in the first place is because I was betrayed, therefore I should be thinking about getting out of this place and getting justice for my parents. That being said, the least thing that I needed to worry about at the moment is Lily and her so-called love towards me. I am not going to be a part of it.
I avoided her like plague. I changed my sitting position in class. I also didn't walk around with her. Actually I was making another friend and that is, Mary.
Lily didn't leave me alone, she kept pestering me even if I made it clear every time that I wanted nothing to do with her.
Today, I decided to retire to bed early. I was so exhausted by the day's activities. As I got in between my sheets, I felt a paper move and that is when I found a letter from Lily.
I wanted to trash it now that I wanted nothing to do with her but on a second note, I decided to read it knowing very well that it was not going to affect my decision.
I had already decided that I wanted nothing to do with her and I was not going to change my mind.
Dear Hannah,
I love you. I am not taking anything back. I love you more everyday. The more we stay apart the more I love you. Please forgive me. Let's talk about this.
I don't know about you but I want us to have something. I don't know if you are attracted to girls or not, but I am keeping my hopes high since we never talk about boys.
Can it be that you are just like me? I really hope so because I want us to be in a relationship. We will be so happy my love because our traits are compatible. Please say yes to me. Please do my love.
Don't be afraid. No one will ever know. It will be our tiny little secret that we will guard for life. We will have happier days and we will make the most of our days in this dreadful place before we finally head out to the world.
You will show me the world. We will move in together, have great days and we will be happy my love.
Please say yes, don't be afraid of love dear. Love is a beautiful thing. Don't let broken people tell you otherwise.
Anyway, I love you and I can't wait to hear from you. I am crossing my fingers that you will say yes to me.
I love you Hannah. Have a goodnight.
Yours,
Lily.
After reading the letter and how she truly expressed her emotions, I knew that I had to change my mind.
The truth is that I loved Lily too. After being close to her, my feelings towards her developed just like the way they did when I first met my first girlfriend, Stacey Logan. Stacey and I dated two years ago before we moved out of our old town.
We were so much in love till she left abruptly without saying goodbye. This left a toll on me because I was so much in love with her. I had never thought of life without her.
The two of us had been through so much together including getting out to my parents who proved to be supportive. May their souls continue resting in peace.
So, thanks to what Stacey did, I had decided never to date. I was afraid that if I love again and date again, someone might leave me high and dry and I will be hurt.
I kept telling myself that Lily was probably not into girls but when she confessed her feelings towards me, I realised that I had to distance myself. I cannot fall in love again. I don't want my heart to be broken again. It is inherent that when you are in a relationship, your heart will be broken.
After reading the letter, a part of me decided to think about giving her a chance. Lily is not Stacey and it doesn't have to end the way things ended with Stacey. I will tell her of how Stacey broke my heart and after that I will beg her not to ever hurt me. If she does, then I will never ever recover.
I placed the letter in a safe place before I went to sleep. Tomorrow, Godwilling, I was going to reach out to her and we are going to have a discussion.
Let me not fool myself, love is a beautiful thing if you are with the right person.
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