Rogue Vs Alpha

Chapter 5: Finally Awake

*Aiden POV

    shortly after my fight with my father broke out my brother came and collected him. He couldn't even look me in the eye, f*****g coward. I walk outside to make sure that they were leaving and it looks like Hayden had come in dad's car to pick him up. Didn't know the f*****g thing still ran.    

    I walked back into my room to talk to Evie and she isn't here. I run out of the room and start heading for the staircase when i hear it. Crying, she's crying somewhere by herself. 

'I don't know if this is going to work Sam. She is to weak. I need a Luna that will be able to be my equal. Not someone who is going to break down at every time something hard happens.'

    Before Sam could respond she emerges from the bathroom, her eyes are red and swollen with tear stained cheeks. She looks embarrassed that i found her in this state. Even though my mind is telling me she isn't the right fit, my body just wants me to embrace her in my arms. f**k i hated feeling like this. This is exactly why i didn't want a f*****g mate, I can't think straight! How am i meant to run a pack, to fix my pack while feeling like this. I can't-

    "I'm sorry Aiden."

"For what?"

She dropped her head down and started to stare at the floor, just seeing my mate look this fragile and broken it breaks me. I can't help but feel like someone is ripping my heart out of my chest. I let out a loud sigh and tilt her head up so i can talk to her face and not the floor. I need her to feel like she can trust me or this won't work. Just cause me more headaches, i don't have the time for complications right now. My fathers actions tonight prove that.Ha i say that but this girl could have me wrapped around her finger in a second and she doesn't even know it. Yet.

    "Listen to me Eve, you have Nothing to be sorry about. None of this was your fault. I'm sorry for how my family has been treating you since my mother passed. I'm sorry for turning a blind eye to it. I don't want you to feel scared or feel that you need to hide. Never hide from me, i need you to trust me. You and i are going to be a team, equal partners. I need you to pull yourself together to help me as Luna of this pack."

*Evie Pov

I think he might be misunderstanding something here. Although him trying to comfort me is literally the sweetest thing that anyone has done for me in a very long time.

I pull Aiden's hand from my face into my hand and give him the sweetest smile i can muster. Which is taking a lot more energy than i thought it would. I'm exhausted but i need to make sure he understands what i am feeling. 

"Aiden i think you have the wrong idea."

    His frown has turned into a boyish smile that nearly makes my knees turn to jelly. He is gorgeous and kind and sexy and i absolutely can not believe the goddess has sent him to me. 

    "And what am i not understanding Eve?"

 'Eve' no one has ever called me that before. I think i like it, my own personal nick name.

"I wasn't hiding in the bathroom because i was scared. I was taking a moment because i was overwhelmed by everything i was feeling and didn't want to hate me."

    "I can't hate you. You know that."

"Do I? I don't know what it is like to feel valued or trusted. I don't know what it means to have a family, what it's like to have a family. But i really do feel like i have a chance at finding out with you. But i want to be honest with you Aiden. I am the furthest thing from Luna material. Everyone hates me already and they don't even know me. I'm pretty sure you probably hated me until now."

Aiden just stood there with his eyes closed shaking his head. I can't tell what he is thinking. Is he disappointed that i am not the kind of mate he was expecting? Or just me as a person. After all i am meant to help him lead the pack and i have next to no clue on what that means. 

"If you want to reject m-

    "NO! Enough talk of rejecting you! I am not rejecting you and your not rejecting me! The pack will learn to love you and respect you. But those things don't just come to you on a sliver platter or for me. We need to prove ourselves to the pack. And that means no more self pity Eve."

I'm not sure which part it was exactly but i snapped. I have never been so angry in my life.

    "EXCUSE YOU? SELF PITY? How f*****g dare you!" I was in his face now, i didn't care anymore. His whole family this whole f*****g town has treated me like i was the f*****g scum of the earth and he had the audacity to say it was self pity that i was feeling?

    "You and this whole town is what is wrong with the pack?"

Everything after that sentence happened in what felt like a flash. He growled and slammed me up against the wall now glaring at me. Must have struck a cord. Good.

    "What's wrong? Angry? Good! Now take that feeling and carry that around with you every f*****g day! Because that's what your family has done to me and this f*****g 'pack.' You all were so focused on finding someone to hate instead of finding Luna Diana's real murder! You want to fix the pack? Well fix your goddamn self first you selfish f*****g prick!" 

I pushed him off me and just stared at him for a few seconds. Neither one of us were saying anything. I didn't have anything else to say. I'm tired, i'm so so f*****g tired. I looked past Aiden and say that it was pretty dark outside, i will probably be better off sleeping here for the night.

"Where can i sleep Aiden?"

"What?"

"I said where am i sleeping? I would like to get some rest but don't want to walk home on my ankle."

"Upstairs the first door on the right is a spare room. You can sleep in there."

"Thank you. Goodnight Alpha." 

I hope he could hear the malice in my voice in that sentence. It could be the adrenaline or it could be i feel like i haven't slept in f*****g days. All i know is that i like it and really, really hope i don't wake up a coward tomorrow. As angry as i am at Aiden for what he said to me he was right about one thing. I need to be stronger and to do that I need to wake the f**k up.