His Repudiated Luna

I don't care

VALERIE

I sniffed in once, twice, thrice as I walked out of his study. I didn't have any idea what to feel, how to feel or what to do and Adam wasn't giving me a chance to think properly too.

I was caught up in a spot, stuck and with no leads on how to act. Maybe I shouldn't have come here after all. Maybe it was a mistake I made for coming back to Moonstone pack.

Tears welled up in my eyes as frustration filled me to the brink. All I'm ever wishing for right now is to find my kids, how can that simple request be so hard right now? To think... I'm even stuck in some foolish emotional thoughts that are making me even angrier.

I hate the fact that I'm the one who needs help the most, but I'm the most useless and helpless one here. I needed the help of those three to find Jaden and Jordan but I'm here finding it hard to be on good terms.

Kenneth isn't helping things either. I'm just sick and tired of being stuck in the middle.

"Kenneth!" I called weakly, strolling round every possible place in search of him.

I haven't set my eyes on him for hours now and it's worrisome. I don't think I can cope in this oven-like place without him.

I missed his extensive nagging for me to stop thinking and that everything would be fine. I missed how soft he looked while staring at me, I missed his lingering kisses on my head, cheeks and lips... I missed everything about him.

He feels so close yet so far from me.

"Kenneth!" I called again, peering through the gardens, but I still couldn't find him"

"Please stop hiding and let's talk things out okay?" I said aloud but still, no answer.

"I might consider your request if you show up now!" I shouted but still, there was no answer.

He wouldn't show up despite how much I call him!

"Kenneth!" I called even louder but I couldn't find him, not even the slightest smell of his scent.

"Wait... Did he leave already? Without me?" I gasped, thinking of the huge possibility that that might be the case.

I hope it isn't!

But it could be. What if that was the case? What if he already left without me since I was just too stubborn? He would have told me beforehand, wouldn't he?

I shrugged off the stupid thoughts and again focused on checking out all the nooks of the palace.

I suddenly recalled how agitated and persistent he was while asking us to leave immediately and I couldn't help but wonder why for the tenth time.

Why was he so keen on going back? What the hell happened while I was asleep that day?

Did something happen between him and Adam? Did a big fight occur and he thinks it's the only way to keep me safe? Since he would want to do anything to protect me first before himself.

It could make a little sense if that was truly what happened but what if it isn't?

I wanted to believe that so much but deep down I feel like there's more to the story than meets the eye.

I suddenly felt like there could be a connection between the disappearance of my sons and Kenneth's sudden behavior. I shrugged it off almost immediately and I hoped it wasn't because I didn't think I'd be able to handle the final show if that was really the case.

Why didn't I think of how deserted I'd feel if he left me before yelling at him? Why didn't I think of any of those? Maybe it's because he's the only familiar person in the pack? Because he's the only one I could be free with?

"Kenneth, please come back, let's talk this out!" I said, a little weaker than the previous times. I suddenly felt weak and tired of all these. If I would be allowed to take a minute break without thinking of those kids, I'd be long gone with Kenneth but I couldn't, knowing how much those boys mean to me. Knowing how miserable I'd become without them.

"Ken... neth!" I whined but was suddenly interrupted by some voice who extended their pleasantries.

"Ahh ... Hmmm, do you need anything from me?" I sighed, looking down again.

"Don't let my presence bother you, I'll be stealthy as ever from now on" I murmured and made to leave their sight but they were unmoving.

"Is something else the problem?" I asked, halting in my steps.

"The Alpha asks for your presence" one muttered and I frowned. We ended our conversation, didn't we? What does he want to gain from my presence now?

"Oh.. okay. I'll be with him in a jiffy" I muttered and continued my walk, but this time facing the other way.

"You wouldn't escort me against my will, would you?" I asked without facing the guards who were obviously standing still and waiting for me to take another step while they followed.

"Huh.. yes. It's our duty to.."

"f**k duty! I have legs, you know. I can walk and I'm very sure the Palace is guarded enough by competent guards, what's with the bodyguard style? Now I can't even have my own privacy while walking?" I asked in anger and they immediately backed out.

"Follow me and see the true meaning of crazy!" I threatened the last ones who seemed unfazed.

"But ma'am... they started but I wasn't even listening, I simply made my way back to the study.

"Let's listen to whatever he wants to say, Valerie. He might want to apologize for being so cold and for blaming me instead of settling terms" I assured myself before going into the study fully.

I made my way to the sofa, exactly beside his desk where he was seated. I took my seat without an invitation, crossed my legs and arms before facing him squarely.

It shouldn't be called being rude. He wouldn't invite me for a seat anyway so I just have to feel comfortable on my own.

"You wanted to see me. Why is that?" I asked without blinking and he immediately stopped what he was writing before looking up at me.

"Nothing out of ordinary, I just needed to let you know that I've get on with the process of finding those kids"

"I hired a handful of competent and strong men as spies at every neighboring packs, in case we might find any leads" he said proudly and I rolled my eyes, letting out a little scoff before gaping at him.

"Is that all?" I asked as calmly as he could and he nodded simply.

"I wanted to let you in on everything we do to find those kids, then it wouldn't be a surprise to you later" he replied and I laughed in sarcasm.

"If there's anything to be surprised about now, it is your insolence. Your insolent and inconsiderate way of talking.

You called me here to tell me that? And you don't have any other things to say? Wow!

I truly am surprised right now!

"Thank you so much for beginning the search immediately. I'm really grateful that you went through the stress of hiring those spies!" You expect me to say all that?

"Well you must be mistaken. Very mistaken ALPHA ADAM!" I yelled and I could see the confusion on his face, even though he's trying hard to hide his expressions.

"Did I do something wrong?" I heard him say silently and I scoffed even louder, standing to my feet in frustration. He didn't feel remorseful for being so mean? How could he remain so nonchalant?

"I don't care what you do as long as those kids return to me, Adam. I don't f*****g care! Not even the least bit. So please let's not have this kind of conversation if you aren't going to smooth things out" I yelled to his face before storming out of the study.