His Repudiated Luna

Fault

*Valerie*

Tears tugged at my pupils, threatening to fall anytime soon. Kenneth's words suddenly weighed on me, making me want to disappear from the entire face of the earth.

How could he ever say that? Who the hell does he think he is to say that? Why the f**k would he say that I won't ever find my children?

I strolled towards no direction exactly but then, I needed to get things straight with Adam. This is probably just another sign that we've been slacking off big time.

If only we've made a move to find those kids, then maybe that would have reassured Kenneth. Now, I could only conclude that Kenneth feared for me. He was scared that I might end up like those kids. That's the only logical explanation anyway.

I strolled around the pack house in search of Adam. Every corner of the house was as familiar as the back of my hand, it got me wondering why they didn't refurnish and change the entire structure even after eight good modern years.

I could still recall my time with Adam, Analisse and Rendall in every room of the pack house. The house and the one I was given by my parents was like a mini amusement park for us.

'Things can't ever return to how it has been. It's useless now!'

My mom's most precious treasure had been taken away from me years back but I suddenly got curious of how it was faring. What has been done to it and by who?

I walked towards Adam's study and I found him there, standing by the window with a glass of wine in his hands, twirling around his fingers like he might just drop the cup anytime soon.

The study changed a little over time, or maybe it was my imagination since I've never been here, even during our time of being friends. The study was a room where he always gets locked up for studying and memorizing.

I stared into his back, unsure of how to approach him. I could still feel the anger that emanated from his aura and I felt remorseful.

I get that it was wrong of me to not inform me that I had conceived that very day but he’s going overboard for making me feel like the bad guy here. He made me this way in the first place, what right does he have to make me feel like I’m the only one at fault?

Adam felt my presence and he chose that moment to look back despite his hesitation. ‘Now, he didn’t even want to look at me?’ I scoffed inwardly but kept a cool face on the outside.

On seeing me, I could see the way his face hardened in disapproval. His eyes lingered around me for a moment or two before he finally spoke “I don’t want you here, Valerie. I want to be alone” he said without meeting my eyes and I felt my heart shatter to a thousand pieces.

“Why? Even my mere presence disgusts you? And makes you feel totally comfortable?” I asked with a glint of sarcasm.

“For Christ sake, Valerie! I need to gather my thoughts. Being together isn’t the right thing to do right now if no one would get hurt” he said briskly and a frustrated sigh escaped my lips.

“Fine! I’m sorry, okay? I shouldn’t have kept that from you, Adam” I said weakly, walking a little closer to him. I couldn’t bear to see him shutting me out like this, those kid’s lives are in danger!

“I can’t seem to digest the fact that you kept this away from me, Val. If those kids didn’t get kidnapped, I bet you wouldn’t have told me, even if they grow old. I’ll forever be kept in the dark about my own kids” he snaps sharply.

I bit my lips, suppressing the anger that threatened to explode within me anytime soon. This guy was seriously playing expensive mind games with her and she’ll gladly give him a good piece of her mind.

“You never planned on telling me this, did you” his question came settling on her guts and mind.

“Holy hell, Adam! Can you just cut the question? Don’t you think you’re being unfair here? Making me bear all the blame like it was my fault? I never planned to have a one night stand with the guy I loved in my entire life, I never dreamt of leaving my motherland throughout my entire existence, Adam. You did all that without being considerate!” I retorted hotly.

“If at all I planned on telling you, it would be later when they’re much older! You can’t possibly expect me to come back three days after you banished me just because I needed to tell you I was pregnant. You wouldn’t have even listened to me, talk more of believing my claims” I added and I could see his eyes bulge with full fury.

“I told you to stay, I gave you a chance, Valerie but you refused, you wanted to leave. It was solely your choice, Valerie!” he said in response and I could feel my tears at bay.

“Even till now, you’re just as selfish as ever before. What? I should stay and be your mistress? While I’ll keep playing a second fiddle to Analisse? Are you crazy?” I said in disbelief and he ran his hands through his dark strands.

“I couldn’t bear to see you leave. I couldn’t bear to let you go, I didn’t want to. I wanted to protect you Valerie, but you left on your free will, you didn’t want my protection”

“There is nothing we can do now, as it’s all done and in the past and we both have our different partners now” he added. I wanted to hiss at his expense and hit him for being a fool and a complete blabbermouth.

I inhaled patiently, diverting my eyes back directly at his with a stern look on my face before making things clear.

I really can't believe that he is doing this. 'There's nothing we can do now? Because we have partners?' What the hell? If I had a partner, then there shouldn't be room for an apology.

"I really don't understand you, Adam! But let me say this"

“I’m strictly here for your help and to find those kids, Adam. I’m not here to give or get an apology neither do I need an explanation and I’d like to keep it that way” I replied strictly and turned to leave again.