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Chapter Twenty-One

SIENNA'S POV

The past few weeks have gone by so fast. Its been three weeks since I've started speaking with everyone at least once a day even if its a simple message. I didn't want them to all worry anymore.

I finally feel refreshed enough to go back k home where I belong, I can't wait to see everyone again. However I also knew I didn't want to go home as the same time because I truly fell in love with Scotland, So I decided I'd come back again one day for sure which makes leaving this place easier.

I quickly messaged everyone that I was having a full blown spa day because they all think I'm going home in a few days time. Except I wanted to surprise everyone by showing up early.

Plus with fireworks approaching my dad had informed me he was doing a display so I didn't want to miss that.

The nine hour drive though I wasn't looking forward to. That was without breaks and it was already just gone ten in the morning. Finally all packed up and ready to drive off I checked my phone one last time to make sure I didn't miss any messages.

I see Ethan had sent me a picture message of his office with stack of files and he captioned it I am not looking forward to this. enjoy your spa day.

I chuckled away as I replied

Thanks, hopefully it won't take you to long

Some how since the first night I rang Ethan we have spoken continually in messages not even just the group chat messages but also privately. Some how we even had a evening call every night.

I was glad things didn't feel weird and that we could still get along as friends just fine even though we both knew how we actually felt now about each other for years. With that thought in my mind I put the radio on before setting off on my long journey.

I was a hour into the journey when my mum rang. I answered via the Bluetooth system thankfully I had just stopped into a service station as I needed the restroom and she had caught me before I set off again.

"Hi mum" I say answering the phone looking to see if it was clear to reserve out the parking spot.

"Hey, honey. I just wanted to ring you quickly to say I won't be able to take a call tonight. Me and your dad got invited out last minute drinks with Radcliffe's" my mum says.

"Thats okay, I hope you have fun" I say finally managing to drive out the park spot and I head for the motorway

"Sienna are you driving? I thought you were going to the spa today?" My mum asks and I can't help cursing myself mentally for not thinking of that before answering the phone.

"Yeah I am, but I got side tracked getting a coffee beforehand from that little cafe we both liked. You know how much Elaine likes to talk" I say thinking quick. My mum starts laughing as she says "Thats true, well make sure you have a good day. I have to go though as your dad is stressing over what not finding the shirt he wants. I just wanted to say we can talk tomorrow night" my mum says and I am glad she brought my story.

"Okay, mum I will speak to you tomorrow night. Have fun tonight and say hi to dad for me. love you both" I say

"We love you to. bye honey" my mum says and I say "Bye, love you both to" With that my mum ends the call and I mentally note not to answer any more phone calls today while driving at least anyway.

I didn't stop again until around one for some food and drink. making sure to the drink a small one so I can maybe hold out for a last service break around five. The traffic was mostly good and the weather was holding of the rain which I was greatful for.

ETHAN'S POV

After I finished work I was surprised Sienna hadn't messaged back. Not even in the group chat. I was starting to worry as she had been really good in keeping in contact with everyone lately.

I decided to ask Sid, Harry and Charlie if they had heard from Sienna yet they all said the same as me and where going to leave it enougher hour incase she was on her daily walk before trying to contact her again. But they were also getting worried themselves. So I'd gone over to Sids figuring if something was wrong he would know before us. Plus I wanted to see Jordan. We all ate dinner whilst trying to contact Sienna. Even Maria had tried.

It was Coming up to eight in the evening when Sids phone started ringing. Sid answered the phone putting it on loud speaker as he had Jordan in his arms.

"Everything okay?" Sid says trying to act like he isn't worried but its written all over his face that he is like the rest of us

"No, mums going to kill me" Sienna says

"Why? What's happened?" Sid asks definitely worried now and even me and Maria look at each other like whats going on

"I was packing up my suitcases ready. I've looked everywhere and can't find my keys to mums. I've lost them" Sienna says panicking but Maria starts laughing and says "Oh god your mum must of forgotten she accidentally took them back with her. She was saying to me when we went to lunch a few weeks ago as she was digging for her purse she found them. She said she was going to let you know when she spoke to you later that day as you had gone shopping I think that day".

"Just bloody great" Sienna says sounding stressed.

"Dont worry mum plans to be home when you come back anyway. So you won't need them. you can calm down now" Sid says laughing..

"Okay, what are you up to anyway?" Sienna asks.

"Well Ethan is here at the moment, your actually on loud speaker. Once he goes we are bathing Jordan then going to get a early night now we know your okay. Are you sure your okay? you have been really quite today and we have all been worried about you" Sid says and I follow it up with "Hi princess".

"Hi, and yeah I'm okay. I gotta go as I've got something important to do" Sienna says and with that she hangs up the phone.

"Is it me or does it sound like something isn't quite right?" Maria says.

"I agree, something sounds off for sure" Sid says

"And she was definitely in a hurry to get off the phone. Why is Sienna stressing over packing she has a few days yet anyway" I say just as puzzled myself.

"I'm going to ring her back and get to the bottom of it" Sid says.

Sid trys calling Sienna but she doesn't answer. So he keeps trying and Maria even takes Jordan from Sid. Sid continually trys Sienna to the point we are all starting to worry. After twenty minutes I say "Something definitely isn't right. I don't like it"..

"Me either. I wonder if my mum has heard from Sienna today. I will try her" Sid says but the door bell goes and Maria says "First see who that is. We are not expecting anyone and Jordan is only just going off to sleep".

Ethan do me a favour you try Sienna for me one last time while I get the door" Sid says walking out the living.

I get my phone out and start to ring Sienna but as it starts ringing I hear Sid shout "Sienna, do you know how worried you just made me?" me and Maria look at each other in shock as we hear Sienna say "Well I couldn't answer my phone driving could I. plus mum and dad is out as mum rang me to let me know. Id already left Scotland when she informed me and I was planning on surprising them first. But now I'm locked out of the house so I thought I'd come surprise you instead before checking into a hotel for the night".

"Your not staying in a hotel, you can stay here" Sid say as they walk into the living.

"That's right. Your family and family have always got a room here if needed" Maria says

"I can't stay here. As much as I love you all I really struggle with sleep at the best of times lately and you have a Jordan. So its better if I stay else where" Sienna says going over to hug Maria then she leans down to get a better look at Jordan.

"You can hold him if you want" Maria says but Sienna says "When my hands have warmed up a little. I don't want to startle him with my cold hands". Then she looks up and over at me and says "Hi".

"Hi" I say going over to Sienna and I hug her tightly and she even hugs me back. Sid though says "What Maria and Ethan both get a hug before me and I'm meant to be your brother" Sienna laughs letting me go and then turns to Sid and says "Come on then" Holding her arms out to Sid and Sid hugs her before swinging her around and putting Sienna back on her feet. "Best surprise ever by the way" Sid says smiling.

"So I'm forgiven for being quiet today. I've been busy driving home all day to be fair" Sienna says.

"Yeah, completely forgiven. Have you eaten?" Maria says

"Yeah I made sure to stop a few times to eat and rest. My legs feel more achy from driving, you think I'd be used to achy legs after all the daily walks I did. By the way you can't tell anyone else I'm back yet. I want to surprise everyone" Sienna says

"I won't tell anyone" Sid says

"Yeah, scouts honor" I say.

"You wasn't in the scouts" Sid says.

"Still I'm a man of my word" I say and Sid says "That i can vouch for".

"Let me put Jordan down then I will make you a drink since these two still look star struck at seeing you" Maria says.

"No, its fine. It's getting late and I'm only just popping by to see you all. I really am booking into a hotel" Sienna says

"No, I'm serious as well your not staying in a hotel" Sid says as Maria puts Jordan down in his crib thingy.

"Sid, that's enough. Sienna come join me a moment. We can solve this without these over protective fools getting in the way" Maria says but then I quickly add "I will add a extra solution for you to think about though. You can stay at mine, I've a spare room to" I say.

"Yeah thats your choices mine or Ethans" Sid says as Maria takes Siennas hand to escape us.

"Stop worrying you two" Sienna shouts as she hurry off with Maria.

SIENNA'S POV

Maria shuts the bedroom door and I take a seat on the edge of the bed as Maria says "Okay, tell me whats going on. whats your reason for wanting to stay in a hotel? You know I have your back and well them idiots clearly haven't the patience to even ask you this".

As Maria joins me on the bed I say "I know, I may seem like I'm back to me. If I'm honest I'm still working on it. Yes, I'm a lot better but night times are the worse.. probably because I'm still regularly having nightmares. I'm worried if I stay here and have a nightmare then hear Jordan in the night whilst feeling upset already then your not just have a crying Jordan crying down the house.. it wouldn't be fair on you all. It also wouldn't be fair on me. You understand don't you?" and I'm fiddling with my necklace feeling anxious incase I've upset Maria.

But Maria takes my hand and squeezes as she says "I totally understand, I won't make you stay here, I will even help tackle them two downstairs for you. Worse case scenario I can distract them while you sneak out. But what about Ethans offer?" Maria asks.

"I don't know, it's no secret know that we clearly have more feelings than just friends. We haven't spoken about it. Its been agreed that when the time is right we will speak about it. We've been getting on like normal on the phone as friends. But now we are in person and I'm back. What if he wants to speak about it? I don't think he will unless I bring it up but I don't know. Argh, I didnt want to over think like this within a hour of being back. I should of just stayed in Scotland until I originally said I would come back" I say

"Okay, breath" Maria says looking at me as she then proceeds to take a deep breath and looks at me expecting to do the same. I follow suit then Maria says "Well I don't think Ethan will do that.. Plus you would stay together beforehand. And if you do feel like it's getting awarked send me a SOS text and I will ring you with some made up medical drama. How's that sound?" and I laugh at how Maria is already planning a hundred miles a hour all outcomes for my problems.

"Am I over thinking it do you think? I missed you all so much and now I'm here I can't help thinking your all watching my every move as if you can see each single strand of my hair move" I say

"Yeah your definitely over thinking it because its not possible to watch every single strand of your hair singularly. I'm sure the lads are being extra mindful because they care but don't let it bother you. The less you worry the less your notice and remember its just them and there overprotective ways" Maria says and I know she is right.

"I know, but I also know I'm trying to remember who I am still and I really don't want to lose myself again. I think I need to sit them all down and tell them I need them to let me do me. That feeling independent is something that really is important to me. I've had them always be overprotective growing up and I allowed it but because it was a good kind. But then well things went sour in my life as you know and I lost myself mentally because of it. There seems to be a fine line now as I don't want to upset them. Argh it all feels like such a mess still" I say

"I know what you mean.. Dont worry when you sit them down let me know I will have your back and help you find some even ground with them all" Maria says.

I hug Maria as I say "Thankyou".

"Anytime, now tell me whats the plan? Are you going to stay at Ethans or you need me to help you escape?" Maria asks..

"I will stay at Ethans, but keep your phone on loud just incase" I say laughing even though I'm mostly sure I won't need it. My biggest enemy is myself and my overthinking ways.

"Alright, I will.. you ready to go back down?" Maria asks.

"Yeah, my hands have warmed up now and I actually would love to have a cuddle with Jordan now if that's okay?" I ask.

"Of course it is" Maria says smiling as we get up.