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Chapter Twenty

ETHAN'S POV

I really wanted to write a message to Sienna after seeing her finally reach out. But I promised her I would leave her be until she was ready to message me. That being said I was happy to see she had decided to message in the group chat. It was even a welcomed break from work. Since Sienna left I'd thrown myself into work unless I was hounding Sid.

I was in my office early until late. Just like now. My phone starts ringing and distracting me from my thoughts. I See Sienna name pop up and I'm surprised as she said she would call everyone tomorrow. I'm even more surprised she wants to talk with me.

"Hello" I say answering the phone trying to sound natural.

"Hi, its not a bad time is it to call?" Sienna says sounding nervous. Hell even I'm feeling a little nervous I think to myself.

"You should know its never a bad time for you to ring. Day or night, I'd always welcome it" I say.

"I don't know if you read the messages, I put in tbe group chat, but I'm sorry I've been quiet for so long. I'm also sorry I didn't message you back sooner. It wasn't anything personal, I just needed to clear my head a little bit. Anyway I felt you was owed that in a phone call at least, Actually you probably deserved it face to face but I won't be back just yet so a phone call was the next best thing" Sienna says

"It's really okay, I knew you would contact everyone when you was ready, if I'm honest even though we can't see you in person you already sound happier" I say

"That will be because I've not long got back from my really long walk. Plus mum was winding Sid up when I rang her" Sienna says with a hint of laughter in her voice.

"I'm glad, I was worried you going away from everyone wouldn't help and make you worse. I see now it's clearly what you needed just like you said. Although we all been going stir crazy with worry" I say wanting to add the others in so Sienna doesn't over think my comment even though I swear its been hell these past few weeks personally I think to myself.

"I know, I'm really sorry. I'm going to ring everyone else tomorrow. I figured if I sent a message in the group chat everyone could at least chill out a little bit" Sienna says.

"Please stop saying your sorry. You have nothing to be sorry about. Your putting yourself first and that's what you need to do" I say hating that Sienna keeps saying sorry she hasn't anything to be sorry for I think to myself as I sit back in the chair loosening my tie.

"I just feel like everybody has gone up and above to try help me and it must be such a slap to everyone's faces that I needed a time out from everyone. It was all overwhelming and I know you all ment well. So please don't think I'm not greatful for all of it because I really am. I just" Sienna starts to hurriedly say but I stop her in her tracks as I say "You needed to figure it out yourself and that's not a crime. We all actually understand but we also all naturally worry about you. We are all happy to give you the space you want but maybe one text a week in the group chat so we all know your okay will make us feel okay knowing your out there by yourself" I say

"I can do that now" Sienna says as if she is the one bargaining now when I'm pretty sure that's what I was doing and I can't help smiling.

"Good" I say satisfied with that at least.

"Ethan" Sienna says sounding a little more serious and I have a gut feeling I know what's coming next

"It's okay" I say not wanting Sienna to feel she has to talk about the fact we both suddenly know that we both secretly loved each other and well still do. at least I think from what she said that night she would called the wedding off or even Divorced Clive and that was before the wedding itself. from Vic and Sienna confirmed it pretty much. Now who's over thinking I question myself as Sienna says "I don't want you to think I hate you. Or that you upset me because its far from the truth" Sienna says

"You don't have to talk about it until your ready, I meant what I said though. Nothing changes between us until your ready for that conversation. I'm still going to keep being one of your best friends. Well so long as that's what you want" I say.

"I know, I just needed you to know that we will talk about it when the time is right. I don't think its now over the phone though. And I'm not sure it will be when I first come back. But when it is I will let you know. In the meantime I don't want to not talk to you so you can still hound me like the others because that's who you all are anyway. I don't want you to give me space in the friend sense if you get what I mean?" Sienna says.

"Well in that case then, if you give us the silent treatment again I'm gonna send my whole firm down there even if there isn't room in the inn to watch you like a hawk and annoy you until you come home safe" I say smiling..

"You wouldn't dare" Sienna says

"I would, we all would and you should know that by now so behave yourself. Have fun, do what you got to do but remember alot of people miss you back home" I say.

"I really do miss you all. I also know I'm going to miss this place when I do come home" Sienna says.

"I'm glad it's helping you being there. Tell me whats your favourite thing in Scotland?" I ask.

"Well the kilts are really cool, I'm debating getting you all one as a present" Sienna says laughing and once she has stopped laughing she says "I really love the peacefulness it brings in the big open spaces, the mountains are beautiful".

"Don't go telling us off when you get mooned by us all drunk having to drink to wear the kilts, Your mum did send us all pictures and it looks amazing where you are to be fair" I say.

"Good point a stick of rock each for you all then.. I don't need to be seeing all them bums" Sienna says laughing and I'm so happy to hear Sienna laugh. I shut down my computer deciding I'm done for the day before sitting back in my chair as I say to Sienna "We don't need gifts, just knowing your happy again is what we really want. However I still won't turn down a stick or rock" I say

"I'm working on it, I promise" Sienna says.

"I know you are, if you need anything you know where we all are" I say.

"I know, anyway tell me how have you been?" Sienna says

"Well honestly not much. I've literally just been work, eat, sleep and repeat" I say.

"What even the weekends? I don't believe that" Sienna says.

"It's true, even the weekends. I'm sure the staff here think something big is about to happen they all keep acting sceptical. Oh well I will just let think what they like plus its keeping them on there toes" I say laughing while thinking of how people have been acting around here lately.

"So what are you doing now? And is there work problems?" Sienna asks all serious.

"Well I'm sat in my office at work.. I was working until you rang me. But no there's nothing wrong at work its all great" I say honestly.

"Well if its all good why are you working so hard?" Sienna asks not giving up easily.

"Honestly, I threw myself into work so I wouldn't hound you with messages or better yet drive up to Scotland find you and make sure you where fine with my own eyes. Sid is the only person I've really spoke with, I've hounded him for updates from your mum to see if your okay. So throwing myself in work has kept me busy" I say deciding I may as well just tell Sienna because she won't give up once she wants to know something she won't stop.

"Okay, well you have heard from me now. So go home and rest. Even take a day off. Im really am fine" Sienna says

"I will take a day off if you make sure to ring me again with everyone else tomorrow" I say trying to make a bargaining deal.

"Okay, but your have to prove your not at work then" Sienna says

"I can do that. I will send you picture messages of my every event during the day weather its breakfast, lunch or seeing the guys and so on" I say.

"Deal, but don't tell the others there want to hound me as well." Sienna says sounding satisfied with that bargaining and I can't help feeling satisfied as well.

"I won't, I promise" I say standing up and getting my things together to go home.

"Well I'm glad I rang you now. At least I know your take a day off" Sienna says and it sounds like she is getting ready to round up the call.

"I'm glad you rang as well. Its been even nicer hearing you laugh again" I say locking up my office.

"It feels good to laugh again, but I also feel like I shouldn't be able to laugh. Its weird but I'm working on it" Sienna says

"You have nothing to feel guilty for you know that right?" I say seriously as I get into the lift.

"I know, are you going home or tricking me into thinking your going home by getting into the lift?" Sienna say changing the topic..

"I'm actually going home. If you want I will send you proof when I get in" I say laughing at how suspicious this women can get.

"Good, since my work is done. I'm going to go. Make sure you rest" Sienna says

"I will, sleep well" I say.

"You to, bye Ethan" Sienna says

"Night princess" I say and then there's a brief pause on the phone like Sienna doesn't want to hang up and I kinda don't want to either but then Sienna hangs up the phone as the lift doors open.

SIENNA'S POV

As I climb into bed my phone pings and I check it to see a picture messags of Ethan stood in his kitchen holding a cup of what I'm going to assume is coffee captioned, Home, goodnight princess

I quickly type a reply

Good, goodnight

with that I turn out the light and try to sleep. But sleep doesn't seem to be in my favour tonight. Speaking with everyone briefly just reminds me how much I actually do miss everyone.

Come two in the morning im still tossing and turning that I decided to check f*******:. I see Maria had shared a picture of baby Jordan that says this little pickle thinks its play time. I can tell he has grown these past few weeks yet still looks as cute as ever. I add a comment with a love heart and the word saying To cute, give Jordan kisses from aunty Sienna.

Then I decided to get up and make myself a drink.

Ping goes my phone as I boiled the kettle and I look to see who is messaging me this time of night. I should of guessed though I think upon seeing

MARIA

Kisses given. How come your awake? x

I quickly reply

Don't go telling the lads but I feel home sick tonight. I miss everyone. How are you and Jordan? x

I then finish making my drink and even though I hear my phone ping i don't check it until I've turned the TV on and sat down cuddled up with a blanket.

MARIA

I won't tell them.. we miss you as well. I'm good and Jordan is great. I think he is finally starting to settle again. I'm sure he will wake me again in a few hours for his next feed though x

I quickly reply

Get some sleep while he sleeps. speak soon x

After drinking my drink I debate what I should do with the day ahead whilst watching whatever weird movie is on the TV a out aliens. Not that I can figure it out.

PING

I wake up to my phone going off and my neck feel stiff as I move. The sun is coming through the windows and day light has come. I realise I fell asleep in the chair watching the TV. Greatful for some sleep at least I think while picking up my phone to see who has messaged. I see its just gone ten in the morning and its a message from Ethan.

I open it to see Ethan is showing me a fry up he is cooking captioned I slept in now cooking a breakfast. like the deal we struck I'm not in the office.

I reply

Morning, seems we both slept in. Enjoy your day off.

Putting my phone down, I get up to get myself sorted for the day.