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Chapter Five

ETHAN'S POV

We were all sat around the table eating dinner. After the first month Sue and Ian just opted to feed us all each night since we all refused to allow a day to go by without seeing Sienna. So we all showed up between four and five in the evening to try spend time with Sienna. Not that we rarely got to as she mainly shut herself away unless she went to visit the grave. We all took turns each day to take Sienna breakfast while trying to see if we could encourage Sienna to go out even just to the garden.

One day she lost it stating we were worse than a mental hospital and that she wasn't having a breakdown she was grieving and that we should learn the difference.

But just like our pack many years ago we were all determined to stick it out no matter how long it took.

"I saw the midwife today, she said something about my iron levels being a little low" Maria whispers like she always does when talking about the baby ever since the funeral.

"tablets or even certain foods will sort it out make sure to rest" Sienna says walking into the kitchen catching us all of guard.

"Okay, thanks" Maria says not knowing what to do or say let alone look next.

"It's okay, you have yet to tell me if I'm a aunty to a niece or nephew. I'd actually like to know" Sienna say surprising everyone once again that Sue dropped her fork on the floor..

"Your going to be a aunty to Nephew" Maria says offering a smile to Sienna who suddenly takes us all by surprise again saying "Sid go sit between mum and dad, I don't need baby sitting and were talking about my nephew. Now Maria please tell me more. Have you chosen a name yet?" Sienna asks as Sid stands up really surprised and does as he is told.

"Well we have been debating a few names. But if I'm honest I remember your doctor stating that from the scan photo she was confident the first baby was a boy and I really don't want to take away any names you may have chosen for your first baby. We all know it was to early for a funeral for the baby. Did you have any names chosen?" Maria asks to which point everyone has stopped eating and I know I'm holding my breath thinking Maria has became brave and bold with that question.

"Maria, please don't stop yourself choosing any names you wish to choose. But actually no one has asked me that question yet and yes I did choose a name. Before I found the specialist doctor, I really didn't know if I lost a boy or girl. As I lost one early it was undecided to general doctors. So I thought it was great when the specialist doctor went through the few dozen scans I had printed and even did her fancy thing on the computer to discover it was two girls and one boy. Anyway I'm side tracking, baby number one is called twinkle's because just like his sisters he twinkle's in the stars now. I'm convinced he twinkles the brighter since he was the first angel baby" Sienna says and no one has started eating again as we listen carefully.

"I love it, I love all the names you choose, Summer and River are lovely names as well put them all together they can shine and move freely" Maria says.

"Excaulty, now tell me what names are there to pick from?" Sienna says as she starts to serve herself some cottage pie as well.

"Well I like Freddie whilst Sid like Tommy, But to be fair we also have changed our minds on our own favourite name choices as well" Maria says.

"Thats true they complain to me they can't agree" Ian says

"Thats not even the start of it you should see the arguments over the hospital route and what should and shouldn't be packed" Charlie says.

"Its true, there driving us all insane" Harry says

"And we joke we gonna come hide with you to keep us sane from there bickering" I say as Sienna looks at us all as we say our piece.

"Do you have anything to add Sid?" Sienna asks before taking a mouthful of food

"Nope, I'm the only sane one here which you already know anyway" Sid says

"Okay, well your list of must requirements the midwife will give you, as for the quickest route just avoid road works remember to breath. Sid don't speed and your be fine" Sienna says

"Thanks, but are you fine?" Maria says and again we all look at Maria like she has grown two cat heads or something as we hold our breath wondering if Sienna will answer the question.

Sienna pauses as she looks at her plate but then puts the fork down before turning to look around the table at everyone.

"Truefully, No I'm not okay. I don't cry as much anymore. I'm still really angry at everything that happened.. I'm angry at him and I'm even angry at myself. But I had a phone call a few days ago. I was trying to decline it. Somehow I ended up answering it all ready to curse Vic out when instead i was being cursed out by a little boy who told me he didn't save my life for me to go ignore him. He said he found out about the babys from chatty nurses. He also said that although they are not here in person they are watching over me. Therefore I need to show them what I showed all the children in the hospital how amazing I am instead of being sad and alone. And you know what, I was sat there amazed that he fooled Vic once again and managed to steal her phone.

Anyway what really got to me was if I want to believe that my babys are really up there somewhere happy in spirit then of course there watching me, they came from me and not anyone else therefore its down to me to show them what being alive on earth is all about. So here I am trying" Sienna says and I swear most of us are trying to hold our own tears back as we listen to every single word.

"I think, we should arrange a even better magican for the lad this time" Ian says.

"Or you could help him out on his mission to see how many hospital staff members he can get with water bombs as he was telling me" Sienna says

"He sounds like great fun" Charlie says

"Yeah and a handful as well" Maria says

"Nah, he sounds like best kid I've come across so far" Sid says

"He is" Sienna say before turning back to Maria saying "No more running around trying to hide from me in fear I will break, be excited its how it should be" then with that Sienna stands up.

Maria takes Sienna hand as she says "Where are you going?".

"For a walk" Sienna says then continues to walk out the kitchen.

"Did that really just happen?" Charlie says

"It sure did, I wonder how long it will last" Sue says as I stand up and say "I will keep my distance but make sure she is okay".

"I will join you" Sid says.

"Nah sit back down enjoy your meals while you can" I say making the other lads laugh.

"Ethan, if your coming you may as well hurry up as you might as walk with me. I know its your turn to trail me. Your all predictable but I also know I won't win this argument to go alone. However I'm not waiting" We hear Sienna shout from near the front door.

"Looks like I've been told" I say laughing as I quickly leave everyone whilst saying bye.

SIENNA'S POV

"Where are we walking to today?" Ethan asks as we walk up the garden path.

"Just round the block. Nothing exciting" I say as Ethan holds his arm out for me to link. I link my arm with his as he asks "Left or right?"

"Left" I say and we start walking that way. It feels weird walking around. Yet I really need to clear my head after the week I've had.

"So a child got through to you yet all of us couldn't. I think I need to meet this Owen for tips" Ethan says.

"It wasn't just Owen's phone call that helped. A few days prior to that the lawyer made contact" I say to which Ethan stops walking and looks at me as he says "And? You can't just leave it there. What did the lawyer say?"

"Apperently I've been divorced a month now. I should of taken the call sooner. I was just worried that man was up to more tricks" I say as I continue to walk again and Ethan follows my stride.

"Thats good news then" Ethan says and I can hear the happiness in his voice that I don't have to look at him to see he is smiling.

"Yes, but I also have to now go back and fully pack up the life there. We have the house, plus the vacation home. Two cars and a joint bank account to sort out. Apparently the guilt is eating him alive and he has left most stuff to me. The only thing he has kept is his parents estate. I feel its all tainted though. It wasn't even about the money" I say

"Well we can arrange that to all be sorted for you" Ethan says

"No, it's something I have to do myself. I haven't decided when I'm going back yet. I just know I will go back at some point" I say.

"Well you won't be going alone" Ethan says

"I know, I wonder who will get the unlucky straw this time" I say

"Don't speak like that. We all don't care how long it takes we are not going anywhere. Plus we learnt from the best.. After all when Sid didn't pass his uni exam and locked himself away for two weeks who was it that sat by his door every minute determined to not give up?. And when I broke my leg and cried because I was missing out on all the fun stuff when we were younger. I didn't miss out though did I because we had little miss determined dragging me along making sure I had fun no matter the event.. my point is when its one of us you are the one who pulls us out of our despair and depressive states. So we won't leave you do be alone when you need us ever" Ethan says

"I know" I say as I point to the shop.

"We going shopping?" Ethan asks.

"Don't normal people toast there divorces?" I say

"Well yeah, but. You know what nevermind, I think thats a great idea" Ethan says holding the shop door open for me.

By the time we got pack to the house everyone was washing up from dinner in the kitchen.

I went straight to the wine glasses and started putting them on the side.

"What going on?" My mum asks

"Your find out soon" I say and everyone looks at me confused. I start to pour wine into cups passing them out to people and everyone takes them not questioning anything.

"I hope chocolate milkshake is okay for you maria" I say.

"Its an excellent choice" Maria says and pour some chocolate milkshake, I got from the shop into a cup before passing it over. I looked around and see everyone had drinks. Everyone looked confused, I think Ethan was pretending to look confused since he already knew after the walk, making me mentally roll my eyes at his acting skills.

I raised my glass and said "To my divorce" then I took a sip of my drink as I see everyone raise there glasses some had surprised faces some were smiling my mum had a smile while crying and my dad air punched the air shouting "Good ridden to the rubbish being taken out" I was surprised he didn't spill the wine. Maria hugged me as she said "When did you find out?".

"It doesn't matter, I'm just glad I am not tied to him in that sense anymore" I say

"I think this deserves a course for a hell of a party" Harry says.

"No, I don't want to party. I know people usually celebrate such things, but to me I'm glad I'm divorced, but it still leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. This toast is enough for me" I say.

"Well princess, now your a free women let me tell you when your ready to mingle again we shall be doing back ground checks and approving first dates" Charlie says who has all the mens approval whilst my mum shakes her head and Maria says "I don't think so!" before hugging me again.

"If I don't ever date again, I can live with that" I say.

Everyone starts talking and I take a seat as I look down at my wine, I know this is how everyone thinks I should celebrate such news but to me I just feel sour that I married such a man who could be so cruel. I don't feel like celebrating my new found freedom. I'm not free, I will forever be haunted from the living hell I went through.

I feel someone take hold of my hand and I look to see its my mum. "Your get there in time" my mum says quietly. I offer my mum a fake smile I'd give all the sick children when delivering them bad news. Then I drink a little bit of the wine before I say "I know".

"One day, your find someone who will treat you like the way you deserve and although you won't ever forget what happened it won't hurt so much" My dad says coming to sit the other side of me as Maria starts playing all the single ladys and everyone else cheers to the song choice.

"Okay" I say as I offer my dad a smile before staring back at the wine. I start to mentally calculate how long I should sit here for before I can go hide away in my room again.

"Come on Sienna, come dance with us" Harry says coming to lean on the table so I can hear him.

"Maybe later" I say and Harry gives me his pouting face as he says "But it's been so long since we all got to dance with our princess. Pleaseeeeee, you know it will be fun. You deserve to have fun" and he holds his hand out for me to take.. I look at his hand before looking back at his pleading face. I take Harry's hand knowing he won't give in and I say "One dance only". Harry helps me stand up before spinning me around holding one hand before pulling me close as we start to dance.

"I know you don't want to dance, but I just wanted to say I know your not happy, thats okay we will be happy on your behave". Harry says before kissing my cheek then he spins me out and shouts "Charlie's turn" to which Charlie catches me and twirls me around again. I'm twirled back to into Charlie as he starts to dance with me. "You should of married me when we were kids and had the chance" Charlie says and I start to laugh. "I think, I'd of had better luck marrying a gay man one things for sure it would of been much more fun" I say.

"Excaulty so if you ever get the urge again come find me princess" Charlie says before spinning me out and shouts "Sids turn" and I hear Maria say " These boys are clearly up to no good". I mentally agree with her as Sid catches me.

"Want me to break you out if here?" Sid says in my ear.

"I will give you five winks when I need to escape" I say.

"Just hollar day or night, anywhere, anytime in future if you ever need to escape anything or anyone again. I'm the man to help you out with these goof balls" Sid says.

"I know, I won't make the same mistakes again. If it helps I did try to fight back countless times" I say

"You did?" Sid asks surprised.

"Yeah I grew up with brothers who made me play fight, so of course I tried to fight back when not caught of guard. I just thought once his grief was done with it would stop, stupidly. Now looks who's grieving" I say sadly.

"I know, I hate seeing you like this. I'm always here for you" Sid says as he kisses my forehead before spinning me out and shouts "Ethans turn". I spin right into Ethan with some force and grab his arms trying to steady myself, but Ethan lifts me up like I'm a feather and spins us both round before stopping and holding me close to steady us. Then he continues to dance to the music with me and he says "Thanks for the dance princess".

"What no motivating words of wisdom or I'm here for you speech?" I ask.

"No, I'm sure they all covered it all. So I'm just thanking you for letting us all have a dance with you" Ethan says smiling at me.

"Okay" I say as we just dance to the last part of the song.

"I don't want a dance, but a shopping partner soon is my request" Maria says and I look over to see she is sat at the table with my parents looking tired.

"Soon, but you just rest for now. Sid will give you a foot massarge later" I say

"I will?" Sid asks.

"Yes, Once you have taken your wife home and ran her a nice bubble bath your end the pamper session with a foot massarge" I say.

"Okay" Sid says with that the lads starting laughing at Sid and I slip out the kitchen to go hide away in my room again.