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Chapter Three

ETHAN'S POV

"I want his blood" Charlie says pacing the room..

"We all want his blood Charlie, but what can we do when he is in prison miles away and we have even a sea between us" Harry says

"Alright calm down. The meeting wasn't called so we can plot how to get the sickos blood. It was called so we can all be here for Sid and Sienna" I say

"I didn't even sleep last night. Maria has gone to my parents today to see if she can help in anyway" Sid says looking just as haunted as he did yesterday.

"How is Sienna today?" I ask, since I arrived after the others I hadn't even had a chance to ask as Sid just got it out the way the second I walked in. Not that I can blame him, its still a shock for everyone.

"Apperently still in bed" Sid says.

"She must be tired. Plus sleep is good for recovering" I say

"Yeah, that's true. When can we come visit?" Harry asks.

"Yeah, I wanna see our princess" Charlie asks says sounding heart broken that someone could do such a thing to our Sienna.

"I think our princess has forgotten she is a princess letting that t**t get away with his ways so long" Sid says unhappy as he runs his hands through his hair in no doubt frustration.

"Alright I know your sour she didn't contact us sooner. We all are as we all love her like our own sister. But now she is free from that monster she is our princess always has been and always will be, therefore we will remind Sienna she is a princess" Charlie says with determination.

"Okay, I take it your back to calling her princess all the time now" I say.

"Yeah to right, if you remember we only stopped as we noticed the prick hated it" Harry says crossing his arms annoyed by the memory.

"Good point" I say just as the door opens and in walks Sienna as we all look to the door shocked as Sienna says "I knew you would all be here and I'm not ready for dads questions".

"Princess, welcome home" Charlie says hold his arms open for Sienna.

"Mums gonna freak when she discovers your missing" Sid says pointing at Sienna.

"No, she won't your sounding like a drama queen. I said I'd take Sienna for breakfast" Maria says walking in.

"And you didn't tell me?" Sid says faking a grumpy face to Maria as Sienna hugs Charlie.

"Sienna said she knew you would all be here and she wanted breakfast with you all like the old days. After all your all more like siblings instead of just a friend group and she wanted a family breqkfast" Maria says holding her hands up in surrender motion as Sienna then hugs Harry as he says "About time our princess realised home is better than America anyway".

"Yeah, yeah we all know that. Now let's be getting more seats in here around the desk. Food has been ordered" Maria says.

Sienna the comes to give me a hug as she says "Thanks for yesterday" quietly in my ear. "Anytime" I say. Sienna then goes over to Sid and hugs him as he says "I can't believe mum and dad agreed to let you out there sight" whilst shakingbhis head in disbelief.

"I'm pretty shocked as well" Sienna says before then stealing Sids seat but he doesn't care as he sits on the edge of the table. I notice Harry has left with Maria no doubt to find more chairs.

"Ethan, Charlie go help the others with the chairs please. I need a minute with Sid" Sienna then says trying to plaster a fake smile on her face but its kept convincing anyone.

"Okay" Charlie says

"How long do you need?" I ask.

"Not long" Sienna says as me and Charlie head out the office.

SIENNA'S POV

"Whats wrong?" Sid asks the second the door closes.

"I over heard mum and Maria talking this morning. I know she is pregnant. They don't know I know. But I know" I say and Ethan looks at me shocked and worried.

"I'm sorry we wanted to tell everyone last week. But then you came back with such bad news and we didn't know what to do" Sid says

"Just because I couldn't protect mine doesn't mean others can't have babys. I won't lie, I'm obviously upset but I'm also happy for you both. I will just need time to show it. Your make a great dad and Maria will be a better mum than I was" I say struggling to not cry because I'm partly upset for the baby I lost but also partly feeling shirty for even now still keeping this secret bottled up within me. I just need a little more time first though. I can't risk it yet I remind myself.

"You stop that. You don't blame yourself for that ever! You are a great mum, you tried to protect your baby, so you don't ever blame yourself" Sid says and I close my eyes to hold the tears in as I take a deep breath.

"I can't, please I can't hear it. Not yet, I just wanted you to know that I will do my best to not ruin your happy moment. But I think maybe coming back here now wasn't the beat idea. Maybe I should go else where whilst I sort my life out" I say knowing if things don't work out, I defiantly don't think I can fake happy smiles for there pregnancy months.

"Oh hell no! If you can't bare to be around Maria we will understand, but your not leaving us again. Espically when you need us the most" Sid says.

"What I need is no longer here. What I need to do is not bring more misery to this family" I say as I start to fidget with my necklace knowing I need to find somewhere I feel at peace.. not knowing whats right anymore just wanting to do whats right the best way I can.

"What you need is in the palm of your hands I noticed yesterday you would fiddle with the necklace alot. I also noticed the tiny scan pictire of the baby when you showed mum. I also realised when you think of the baby you go to the necklace. I can't imagine how your feeling losing the baby, I wish I could take your pain away and have it myself. But I do know the best thing for you is right here with us all. So if I have to babysit you myself until I know your not a flight risk I will" Sid says and I look back at him taking in his words and serious yet also soft expression written all over his face whilst I try to figure out what to do..

"You have a wife and a baby on the way, let's not forget this business to run. You won't have time to babysit me" I say.

"Then guess what, Ethan is the one running a bodygaurd firm. I will hire him as your personal bodyguard if I have to" Sid says crossing his arms giving me his full on sternest look like he would when we grew up.

"You wouldn't dare!" I say pointing at Sid accusingly

"Wanna bet?" Sid says as there's a knock on the door.

"Mum won't let you and with Maria pregnant now she will only be divided between us so your lose" I say.

With that the door opens and Maria head pops in saying "Is it safe to come in now?"

"Yes, love" Sid says without looking towards the door once as he looks at me with as if to say surrender or else look.

As everyone starts piling in Sid then says whilst we are now in some kinda staring contest "Ethan, how much will it cost me to hire you personally as a bodyguard?"

"What for you?" Ethan asks confused

"No for Sienna" Sid says

"Free of charge, I love spending time with Sienna. However if it was for you I'd knock five percent off" Ethan says trying to lighten the mood.

"Done, Sienna let me introduce you to your new bodyguard" Sid says.

"What you were serious why?" Ethan asks as I stand up fed up with this craziness.

"Our beloved princess wants to leave us again so soon" Sid says as I start to walk around the table.

"Is this true?" Maria asks shocked. I stop in my tracks and look at everyone's confused faces.

"I thought, I'd need family. But I realised I just need to be alone for a while to straighten my head" I say and with that Ethan, Charlie and Harry all cross there arms not looking amused.

"Sorry princess, but your still recovering for starters" Harry says followed by Charlie saying "I'm with Sid on this one. Sorry princess your out voted this time. I will even take shifts to watch you like hawk" followed by a cheeky wink that says he won't be as serious as Ethan and still make sure its fun.

"Your gonna be my best assignment ever princess" Ethan says with raised eyebrows and a slight smirk to his lips.

"I don't get it, why do you suddenly want to leave?" Maria asks.

"Because I've forgotten who I am. Because I can save everyone else except the only person who really needed me to save them. because you all look at me with the same look everyone back in America did. Because I will hold the family back from happiness with my failures. Because I feel like I can't breath no matter where I am. And lastly because I have to not fail again, I can't." I say until the last part is barely a whisper all the while playing with my necklace and I can see my eyes blurring up and I continue to say a little more quietly as my voice starts to choke up "Because I can't think, I can't sleep and I don't want to cry damn it, I can't keep crying" And I mentally tell myself to pull myself together. I go to turn around to flee the room but because my eyes are so blurry, I don't even notice anyone stood behind me as I collide with someone. I quickly realise its Ethan and he wraps his arms around me as flood gates open once again and I'm crying like a mad women. I fear I won't even stop this time and I keep mentally telling myself to stop it, I mustn't cry.

"Thats Excaulty, why you need to be here so we can all catch you. Its okay to be sad, its okay to be angry. Hell scream and shout do whatever you have to do we are all here for you" Maria says.

"Excaulty princess, so you cry it all out" Harry says

"I shouldn't of pushed her. she knows Maria" I hear Sid say

"Knows what?" Maria asks.

"You know the secret you openly were talking about with my mum this morning. She knows that whats we were talking about. I was scared she would run off now look what I've done" I hear Sid say sounding closer to me and I then feel someone rubbing my back.

"I didn't realise. We thought she was asleep" Maria says sounding guilty.

"Clearly not since she just stated she can't sleep. She is clearly exhausted and on the verge of a breakdown. Its worse than we thought" Sid says sounding frantic now yet I can't stop these stupid tears and I realise its him rubbing my back. I'm suddenly aware I've got a tight death grip onto Ethans shirt as my fingers start to ache, but I couldn't care less about the achy fingers. I just want to stop the tears and get out of here.

"I'm getting well confused" Harry says.

"I'm sorry sid. Sienna please forgive me for being insensitive" Maria says.

She doesn't blame us, she wants us to be happy whilst she disappears so she can continue to blame herself as well as continue believing she is a failure as a mum" Sid says

"Thats not true princess, you are a great person and I know you were a great mummy to be and will make an amazing mummy no matter what" Charlie says yet I'm screaming in my head 'Shut up, just shut up. I couldn't save my baby. my baby, I want baby back as my emotions get the better of me once again my chest aches and hurts with longing as it starts to feel tighter.

"I can't breath, I need air" I say pulling away from Ethan.

"Ah s**t, Siennas having a panic attack" Harry says as I hold the necklace and begin trying to take deep breaths, yet not quite getting there as I gasp for breath.

The next thing I know Maria has kneeled under me, facing me so we are eye to eye as she says "Copy me, Breath in .... and breath out ..... in ........ and out ....." I start to copy Maria as I feel my lungs starting to fill again yet my chest still hurts so I continue to take deep breaths in and out as Maria continues saying " And in ..... and out ..... and in ..... and out .... thats it your doing good" Maria says taking my hand as she stands up.

I then notice the secretary in the door way looking alarmed holding our food delivery. Charlie must of noticed as well since he starts heading towards her as Harry says "You feeling better now princess?"

"No, I can't deal with this. I need space and time" I say

"I have a idea" Ethan says

"Whats that?" Sid asks.

"You came back because deep down you know you need everyone here. But you also need space to process it still. You don't want to burden your family, but you also want them. So how about you take the spare key to mine and whenever you feel overwhelmed you take yourself to mine. I can make myself scareless, therefore you have space and time alone without running off where we all worry about you?" Ethan says.

"I like it" Charlie says

"Yeah, even I can settle on that" Sid says

"Yeah and me, plus don't forget I own the club not far from Ethans, If you want to let off steam first I can make sure you have a v.i.p section anytime you want. Plus your have me or any of us able to take you home safely" Harry says

"Okay" I say not having the energy to argue it out..

"Thats settled then" Sid says taking my hand and guiding me sit down.

"Alright, why doesn't it smell like McDonald's food?" Harry asks.

"Fruits healthier which is why its pancakes and fruit" I say

"Since when did you prefer fruit over junk food?" Charlie asks.

"Since now this morning" I say and Sid and Maria both look at me shocked but I look outside the window and start to play with my necklace again instead.

"Alright come on.. stop complaining and eat the fruit. Plus have we forgotten some of us need to get better and fruit is good like Sienna said" Maria says

I was so focused on looking at sky outside which wasn't as nice as yesterday, if anything it looked cloudy like it may rain. I hadn't noticed Sid had got up until I felt arms come around me from behind me. I flinched slightly caught of guard but Sid didn't say anything about it. Instead he covered my hand gently with his holding the necklace as he whispered "It's okay and thankyou". Sid then Opened my food box up for me before kissing my cheek and going to sit back in his seat. I looked around to see everyone was quietly eating there food which they had all half eaten by now. That's when I realised I had lost focus in the clouds for a while. I picked up a slice of banana and slowly started eating the fruit on top of the pancakes even though I didn't feel hungry at all I knew I had to eat something.

"Don't you have that important meeting this afternoon?" Maria says breaking the silence.

"Unfortunately yes, If I could get out of it I would though" Sid says.

"Ah, I forgot I had a meeting. I'm bloody late. Ethan I told you this better not go over why didn't you remind me of the time" Charlie says standing up.

"I forgot myself its been a little crazy this morning for all of us" Ethan says as Charlie quickly hurry over to me and kisses my cheek before saying "To be continued princess, we must get together soon. I missed you" With that Charlie ran out the the door without even saying bye to anyone else.

"Anyone would think Charlie was your biological brother over sid" Harry says laughing.

"He always wanting a siblings more than the rest of us. He won't accept anything less than being Siennas brother you clearly forgot that" Ethan says and you can tell he is trying not to laugh himself.

"Still he could of at least said bye to his brothers as well" Sid says shaking his head with amusement.

"What times your meeting?" Harry asks

"In two hours. I bet it will drag" Sid says groaning whilst rolling his eyes.

"I'm sure come the end of it your have the plot for the new business" I say and Sid looks at me like I grew two heads

"What? did I get it wrong?" I ask.

"No, I'm surprised you remembered with everything that's happened that's all" Sid says

"Speaking to you twice a week was my only welcomed break from my own life. So yes I remembered. your be fine" I say but then Sid suddenly looks at me as if he has just solved a mystery or something before he then says "I'm sure it will go fine. You don't have to worry about it though".

"Well I don't have any meetings today, just a delivery and some paperwork to catch up on. However if you want to do something princess I would welcome the distraction" Harry says

"Okay, Charlie I get but the rest of you why are you all calling me princess again?" I ask

"Ah, well we never would of stopped if it wasn't for" Harry starts to say but then he pauses for a minute and I look at him confused before he continues saying "You know what nevermind princess your just have to suck it up" With that he gets his drink and starts to drinking it.

"Do you know?" I ask pointing to Sid and he says "We will tell you when your less likely to have a panic attack again until then like Harry said suck it up princess" so I turn to face Ethan who just smirks at me as he crosses his arms raises a eye brow which ruins his don't mess with me hard man demeanour. Even his blue eyes are twinkling a dare me not serious look challenge as he says "Now, now princess you win some battles others you lose. I'm with the rest of them on this" followed by laughter..

"Your all mean" I say shaking my head.

"They only act like this with you. grown men acting like children" Maria says winking at me..

"Excuse me, I will have you know a child does not have a man's body like this" Harry says standing up to flex his muscles proudly.

"And you certainly don't say that when we are alone" Sid says

"Yeah, and they all don't certainly own such successful business like we all do" Ethan says and I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket so I take it out to see that Vic has sent me a message

From Vic

hey hun, just a quick message to remind you that you have an appointment with my friend to be checked over. Its at 3pm. let me know how it goes. x